Derk40

[Derk40]

Saturday morning with 14 days quit. Feeling good but very, very intense cravings today. Been boiling up for a few days and felt it happening in the back of my mind this week... Monday will be my first work trip since my quit. Traveling for work was a dipping oasis for me. Ridiculous, copious amounts of dipping... would blow thru a log in a couple days. And sometimes have to go buy more. Dip, reload, dip, reload. Could not get enough. Crazy, but it was me. I would sit in my hotel room just dipping and drinking. So this morning, my Ninja dipping mind keeps having the thoughts on how to go get my stash, hide it and roll out to solitude. My KTC mind is holding this quit tight and telling myself to get ur quit kit ready because this work trip will be your first real trip away from home where you dont act like a DB. Maybe you will even get out and enjoy some of the local sites - it is Puerto Rico for cripes sake. Gonna be a fight the next couple days. But I am in this fight. Stay quit my friends.

[Erussell]

Day 12... Independence Day  Not Dependent Day.  One of my favorite days of the year.  Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed.  All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me.  Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze.  Day 10 got me thinking though.  What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.

#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life.  Something has just clicked in my head.  I can't explain it, I just know it.  I will never throw that shit in my mouth again.  Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over.  But I have never been more ready, willing and able. 

#2: I have the tools to quit.  Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing.  I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time.  Now, I got my emergency response kit.  The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC. 

Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done.  I used my tools and you all had my back.  That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me.  The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped.  That is just how it will be.  

Like it or not, WE are at war.  WE are at war with one tough SOB.  Know this...  WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men  women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB.  Ladies  Gentlemen, caving is not an option!

I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit.  I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC.  Fight the good fight!  Never give up and stay quit!

"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.) 

- Derk

Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.

Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...

Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!

Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!

Dagranger... 2 things. (1) remember that David whipped Goliath's a$$. A historic victory. One for the ages. That story is telling you that no challenge or fight is impossible. Be David. (2) The last 9 days for you have been a tie? A tie? Are u kidding me? This is a new season and the way i see it you are 10-0 this morning. 10 and fuckin 0. Who gives a shit about last season. The last 10 might have been tough but to pull a quote from the Fast and the Furious... "Ask any racer, any real racer. It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile; winning's winning." We are winning. Stay strong and quit bros. I am quit with u today.

Darn right derk. I see dagranger as a winner also. Not any tie going on here. The poison has had it's day in the sun. Dagranger,, hold that head high. Your a quitter bro,, 1, 10, 20, 100, 200,it don't matter. Glad to be quit with both yall today.

Wow all these posts give me quit wood that is lasting longer than 4 hours wonder if I should seek medical attention. I quit w you all today. It rocks to see hofers n newbs sharing the quit action.

Agreeing with trauma and Srans. You guys are strengthening everyone's quit with these post, not just your own, thus, keep rockin!!!

[traumagnet]

Day 12... Independence Day  Not Dependent Day.  One of my favorite days of the year.  Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed.  All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me.  Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze.  Day 10 got me thinking though.  What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.

#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life.  Something has just clicked in my head.  I can't explain it, I just know it.  I will never throw that shit in my mouth again.  Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over.  But I have never been more ready, willing and able. 

#2: I have the tools to quit.  Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing.  I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time.  Now, I got my emergency response kit.  The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC. 

Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done.  I used my tools and you all had my back.  That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me.  The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped.  That is just how it will be.  

Like it or not, WE are at war.  WE are at war with one tough SOB.  Know this...  WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men  women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB.  Ladies  Gentlemen, caving is not an option!

I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit.  I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC.  Fight the good fight!  Never give up and stay quit!

"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.) 

- Derk

Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.

Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...

Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!

Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!

Dagranger... 2 things. (1) remember that David whipped Goliath's a$$. A historic victory. One for the ages. That story is telling you that no challenge or fight is impossible. Be David. (2) The last 9 days for you have been a tie? A tie? Are u kidding me? This is a new season and the way i see it you are 10-0 this morning. 10 and fuckin 0. Who gives a shit about last season. The last 10 might have been tough but to pull a quote from the Fast and the Furious... "Ask any racer, any real racer. It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile; winning's winning." We are winning. Stay strong and quit bros. I am quit with u today.

Darn right derk. I see dagranger as a winner also. Not any tie going on here. The poison has had it's day in the sun. Dagranger,, hold that head high. Your a quitter bro,, 1, 10, 20, 100, 200,it don't matter. Glad to be quit with both yall today.

Wow all these posts give me quit wood that is lasting longer than 4 hours wonder if I should seek medical attention. I quit w you all today. It rocks to see hofers n newbs sharing the quit action.

[srans]

Day 12... Independence Day  Not Dependent Day.  One of my favorite days of the year.  Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed.  All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me.  Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze.  Day 10 got me thinking though.  What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.

#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life.  Something has just clicked in my head.  I can't explain it, I just know it.  I will never throw that shit in my mouth again.  Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over.  But I have never been more ready, willing and able. 

#2: I have the tools to quit.  Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing.  I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time.  Now, I got my emergency response kit.  The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC. 

Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done.  I used my tools and you all had my back.  That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me.  The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped.  That is just how it will be.  

Like it or not, WE are at war.  WE are at war with one tough SOB.  Know this...  WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men  women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB.  Ladies  Gentlemen, caving is not an option!

I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit.  I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC.  Fight the good fight!  Never give up and stay quit!

"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.) 

- Derk

Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.

Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...

Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!

Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!

Dagranger... 2 things. (1) remember that David whipped Goliath's a$$. A historic victory. One for the ages. That story is telling you that no challenge or fight is impossible. Be David. (2) The last 9 days for you have been a tie? A tie? Are u kidding me? This is a new season and the way i see it you are 10-0 this morning. 10 and fuckin 0. Who gives a shit about last season. The last 10 might have been tough but to pull a quote from the Fast and the Furious... "Ask any racer, any real racer. It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile; winning's winning." We are winning. Stay strong and quit bros. I am quit with u today.

Darn right derk. I see dagranger as a winner also. Not any tie going on here. The poison has had it's day in the sun. Dagranger,, hold that head high. Your a quitter bro,, 1, 10, 20, 100, 200,it don't matter. Glad to be quit with both yall today.

[Derk40]

Day 12... Independence Day  Not Dependent Day.  One of my favorite days of the year.  Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed.  All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me.  Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze.  Day 10 got me thinking though.  What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.

#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life.  Something has just clicked in my head.  I can't explain it, I just know it.  I will never throw that shit in my mouth again.  Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over.  But I have never been more ready, willing and able. 

#2: I have the tools to quit.  Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing.  I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time.  Now, I got my emergency response kit.  The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC. 

Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done.  I used my tools and you all had my back.  That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me.  The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped.  That is just how it will be.  

Like it or not, WE are at war.  WE are at war with one tough SOB.  Know this...  WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men  women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB.  Ladies  Gentlemen, caving is not an option!

I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit.  I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC.  Fight the good fight!  Never give up and stay quit!

"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.) 

- Derk

Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.

Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...

Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!

Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!

Dagranger... 2 things. (1) remember that David whipped Goliath's a$$. A historic victory. One for the ages. That story is telling you that no challenge or fight is impossible. Be David. (2) The last 9 days for you have been a tie? A tie? Are u kidding me? This is a new season and the way i see it you are 10-0 this morning. 10 and fuckin 0. Who gives a shit about last season. The last 10 might have been tough but to pull a quote from the Fast and the Furious... "Ask any racer, any real racer. It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile; winning's winning." We are winning. Stay strong and quit bros. I am quit with u today.

[Dagranger]

Day 12... Independence Day  Not Dependent Day.  One of my favorite days of the year.  Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed.  All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me.  Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze.  Day 10 got me thinking though.  What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.

#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life.  Something has just clicked in my head.  I can't explain it, I just know it.  I will never throw that shit in my mouth again.  Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over.  But I have never been more ready, willing and able. 

#2: I have the tools to quit.  Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing.  I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time.  Now, I got my emergency response kit.  The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC. 

Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done.  I used my tools and you all had my back.  That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me.  The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped.  That is just how it will be.  

Like it or not, WE are at war.  WE are at war with one tough SOB.  Know this...  WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men  women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB.  Ladies  Gentlemen, caving is not an option!

I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit.  I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC.  Fight the good fight!  Never give up and stay quit!

"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.) 

- Derk

Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.

Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...

Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!

Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!

[B-loMatt]

Day 12... Independence Day  Not Dependent Day.  One of my favorite days of the year.  Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed.  All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me.  Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze.  Day 10 got me thinking though.  What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.

#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life.  Something has just clicked in my head.  I can't explain it, I just know it.  I will never throw that shit in my mouth again.  Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over.  But I have never been more ready, willing and able. 

#2: I have the tools to quit.  Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing.  I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time.  Now, I got my emergency response kit.  The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC. 

Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done.  I used my tools and you all had my back.  That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me.  The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped.  That is just how it will be.  

Like it or not, WE are at war.  WE are at war with one tough SOB.  Know this...  WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men  women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB.  Ladies  Gentlemen, caving is not an option!

I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit.  I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC.  Fight the good fight!  Never give up and stay quit!

"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.) 

- Derk

Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.

Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...

Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!

[srans]

Day 12... Independence Day  Not Dependent Day.  One of my favorite days of the year.  Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed.  All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me.  Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze.  Day 10 got me thinking though.  What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.

#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life.  Something has just clicked in my head.  I can't explain it, I just know it.  I will never throw that shit in my mouth again.  Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over.  But I have never been more ready, willing and able. 

#2: I have the tools to quit.  Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing.  I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time.  Now, I got my emergency response kit.  The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC. 

Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done.  I used my tools and you all had my back.  That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me.  The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped.  That is just how it will be. 

Like it or not, WE are at war.  WE are at war with one tough SOB.  Know this...  WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men  women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB.  Ladies  Gentlemen, caving is not an option!

I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit.  I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC.  Fight the good fight!  Never give up and stay quit!

"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.) 

- Derk

Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.

Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...

[jrod]

Day 12... Independence Day  Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.

#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.

#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.

Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be.

Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men  women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies  Gentlemen, caving is not an option!

I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!

"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)

- Derk

Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.

[Derk40]

Day 12... Independence Day  Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.

#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.

#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.

Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be.

Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men  women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies  Gentlemen, caving is not an option!

I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!

"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)

- Derk

[traumagnet]

Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged.  Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right.  Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk.  Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank.  I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin.  Round fucking tin... Need it bad.  All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole.  I told mrs Derk I had to go.  She said why... I said got to go.  She said why....  The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone.  I just hung up.  Started to breath.  Still panicked.  Here I am now typing this down.  Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar.  Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude.  Agreed.  I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today.   Ok... I am regrouped.  I got this.  KMA dip.  I am stronger than your weak ass.  I am quit all day, everyday.  I am quit with all u today.  Derk, out.

Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.

It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.

You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.

Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.

Here is where the quit gets real brother. When everything is going good it's easy. This is when you realize you've been dealing with life's problems desensitized by a drug.

Now you have to learn to deal without it. Guess what? You'll do fine, millions do it everyday.

Me and my wife had a couple good arguments during the first 100. These are where i lost it and it took a couple days to get my bearings. Breathe and remember it's not you're wife and kids who put you here.

Everything gets better. Next bad moment will be easier, then the next and so forth. Say it with me brother,,,, screw you poison!!

LionHeartedGirl, thanks for that advice. I have done this for 25yrs solo, so throw feedback/advice at me if you got it. You are right on. I agree with u.

srans, SCREW the POISON! Ur right, that poison has been my go to problem fixer for years. Felt different to not to run to 7/11 and drop $5 on a can of copenhagen, then throw in a dip after a stressful situation. Before 6/23/13... that would have been the case no doubt.

I am doing better this minute, but I am still trying to bring the emotions under control. I know what to do, but my mind/body are still fighting me. I guess this was a panic attack. I was able to head it off thanks for my committment to this quit! 10 days is not somethiing to throw away. Having you KTC brothers and sisters in my corner makes me pretty damn powerful. Heading out for a run. Quit on!

you are badass derk


keep it up and doin great!

Have your safety plan in place ahead of time. have your phone fully charged with numbers packed into it. have your quit kit ready seeds fireballs gum bag of assholes whatever it takes to keep quit. Oh ya go caulk the windows before Mrs Derk inserts it into your nicotine free ass. have a good 4th

[Minny]

I'm day 12 with you, Derk. Keep goin', man.

[mikemul]

Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged.  Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right.  Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk.  Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank.  I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin.  Round fucking tin... Need it bad.  All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole.  I told mrs Derk I had to go.  She said why... I said got to go.  She said why....  The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone.  I just hung up.  Started to breath.  Still panicked.  Here I am now typing this down.  Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar.  Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude.  Agreed.  I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today.   Ok... I am regrouped.  I got this.  KMA dip.  I am stronger than your weak ass.  I am quit all day, everyday.  I am quit with all u today.  Derk, out.

Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.

It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.

You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.

Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.

Here is where the quit gets real brother. When everything is going good it's easy. This is when you realize you've been dealing with life's problems desensitized by a drug.

Now you have to learn to deal without it. Guess what? You'll do fine, millions do it everyday.

Me and my wife had a couple good arguments during the first 100. These are where i lost it and it took a couple days to get my bearings. Breathe and remember it's not you're wife and kids who put you here.

Everything gets better. Next bad moment will be easier, then the next and so forth. Say it with me brother,,,, screw you poison!!

LionHeartedGirl, thanks for that advice. I have done this for 25yrs solo, so throw feedback/advice at me if you got it. You are right on. I agree with u.

srans, SCREW the POISON! Ur right, that poison has been my go to problem fixer for years. Felt different to not to run to 7/11 and drop $5 on a can of copenhagen, then throw in a dip after a stressful situation. Before 6/23/13... that would have been the case no doubt.

I am doing better this minute, but I am still trying to bring the emotions under control. I know what to do, but my mind/body are still fighting me. I guess this was a panic attack. I was able to head it off thanks for my committment to this quit! 10 days is not somethiing to throw away. Having you KTC brothers and sisters in my corner makes me pretty damn powerful. Heading out for a run. Quit on!

you are badass derk


keep it up and doin great!

[srans]

I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin

Follow this logic

As a chewer

A stressful event causes the body to release various chemicals like adrenaline. Think fight or flight chemicals. These fight or flight chemicals actually reduce the level of nicotine in the blood very rapidly. This results in withdrawal symptoms. Anxious, restless, craving etc. The withdrawal symptoms and discomfort associated with them are relieved when you have a dip.

YOU MISTAKENLY START TO BELIEVE THAT NICOTINE RELIEVES STRESS

The relief from withdrawal is all you felt. The original problem still exists.

Nicotine isn't good for anything but keeping you addicted to nicotine. An anchor, not a crutch. Having a dip doesn't cure bug bites or cancer, it won't fix the car, or heal a broken heart. It's just a weed.

Don't look over your shoulder derk40 there is nothing back there for you.

You got this

sM

Good stuff in this. Sm knows how to spell things out.

[B-loMatt]

Don't know about the rest of you people in relationships, but I had arguments with my wife when I was dipping... I was short and rude at times with a fatty lip turd in, and I have been short and rude at times since my first day quit. My wife was sometimes in a bitch mood when I dipped, and she is still a bitch sometimes now that I am quit. Found that the nic bitch lost a lot of volume whispering in my ear once I realized that people who have never smoked or dipped or chewed etc. still have good days and bad.