Derk40

[Skoal Monster]

I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin

Follow this logic

As a chewer

A stressful event causes the body to release various chemicals like adrenaline. Think fight or flight chemicals. These fight or flight chemicals actually reduce the level of nicotine in the blood very rapidly. This results in withdrawal symptoms. Anxious, restless, craving etc. The withdrawal symptoms and discomfort associated with them are relieved when you have a dip.

YOU MISTAKENLY START TO BELIEVE THAT NICOTINE RELIEVES STRESS

The relief from withdrawal is all you felt. The original problem still exists.

Nicotine isn't good for anything but keeping you addicted to nicotine. An anchor, not a crutch. Having a dip doesn't cure bug bites or cancer, it won't fix the car, or heal a broken heart. It's just a weed.

Don't look over your shoulder derk40 there is nothing back there for you.

You got this

sM

[Derk40]

Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged.  Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right.  Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk.  Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank.  I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin.  Round fucking tin... Need it bad.  All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole.  I told mrs Derk I had to go.  She said why... I said got to go.  She said why....  The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone.  I just hung up.  Started to breath.  Still panicked.  Here I am now typing this down.  Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar.  Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude.  Agreed.  I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today.   Ok... I am regrouped.  I got this.  KMA dip.  I am stronger than your weak ass.  I am quit all day, everyday.  I am quit with all u today.  Derk, out.

Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.

It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.

You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.

Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.

Here is where the quit gets real brother. When everything is going good it's easy. This is when you realize you've been dealing with life's problems desensitized by a drug.

Now you have to learn to deal without it. Guess what? You'll do fine, millions do it everyday.

Me and my wife had a couple good arguments during the first 100. These are where i lost it and it took a couple days to get my bearings. Breathe and remember it's not you're wife and kids who put you here.

Everything gets better. Next bad moment will be easier, then the next and so forth. Say it with me brother,,,, screw you poison!!

LionHeartedGirl, thanks for that advice. I have done this for 25yrs solo, so throw feedback/advice at me if you got it. You are right on. I agree with u.

srans, SCREW the POISON! Ur right, that poison has been my go to problem fixer for years. Felt different to not to run to 7/11 and drop $5 on a can of copenhagen, then throw in a dip after a stressful situation. Before 6/23/13... that would have been the case no doubt.

I am doing better this minute, but I am still trying to bring the emotions under control. I know what to do, but my mind/body are still fighting me. I guess this was a panic attack. I was able to head it off thanks for my committment to this quit! 10 days is not somethiing to throw away. Having you KTC brothers and sisters in my corner makes me pretty damn powerful. Heading out for a run. Quit on!

[srans]

Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged.  Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right.  Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk.  Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank.  I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin.  Round fucking tin... Need it bad.  All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole.  I told mrs Derk I had to go.  She said why... I said got to go.  She said why....  The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone.  I just hung up.  Started to breath.  Still panicked.  Here I am now typing this down.  Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar.  Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude.  Agreed.  I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today.  Ok... I am regrouped.  I got this.  KMA dip.  I am stronger than your weak ass.  I am quit all day, everyday.  I am quit with all u today.  Derk, out.

Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.

It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.

You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.

Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.

Here is where the quit gets real brother. When everything is going good it's easy. This is when you realize you've been dealing with life's problems desensitized by a drug.

Now you have to learn to deal without it. Guess what? You'll do fine, millions do it everyday.

Me and my wife had a couple good arguments during the first 100. These are where i lost it and it took a couple days to get my bearings. Breathe and remember it's not you're wife and kids who put you here.

Everything gets better. Next bad moment will be easier, then the next and so forth. Say it with me brother,,,, screw you poison!!

[Dougie]

Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged.  Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right.  Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk.  Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank.  I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin.  Round fucking tin... Need it bad.  All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole.  I told mrs Derk I had to go.  She said why... I said got to go.  She said why....  The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone.  I just hung up.  Started to breath.  Still panicked.  Here I am now typing this down.  Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar.  Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude.  Agreed.  I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today.  Ok... I am regrouped.  I got this.  KMA dip.  I am stronger than your weak ass.  I am quit all day, everyday.  I am quit with all u today.  Derk, out.

Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.

It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.

You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.

Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.

I had the same moment the first week or so of my quit- sudden rage- when you are calmed down try to have an adult conversation with her about the changes you are going through- I told my wife that I will let her know when she is allowed to nag me about silly shit- (hopefully that day will never come 'winker' )

Stay strong and own your quit- remember that she didnt do this to you, you did it to yourself and you are going to undo this to yourself.

PM incoming-

[LionHeartedGirl]

Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today. Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.

Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.

It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.

You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.

Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.

[Derk40]

Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today. Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.

[traumagnet]

Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books.  Had some great moments today  felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins.  Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?).  That was the plan all the way up until after dinner  a quick mow of the front yard.  I just could not wait 1 minute longer.  This discussion had to take place immediately.  Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for...  Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage.  But that is how it had to be.  Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done.  She was 100% onboard.  No judgement, just support.  Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life.  No more lies, no more BS...!!  I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders.  Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along.  She told me so.  Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was.  I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.

I stand strong with you all today.  Proud to be 8 days into my quit.  The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road.  It is a tough road.. But it is MY road  I own it.  Really grateful  proud to be quit with you.  Feeling great right now.  I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it.  Thanks for all the words and support to date.  We got this thing!  Failure is not an option.  Stay strong  stay quit!!!

They know. They always fucking know...

Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.

This is a great thing. Well done.

You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...

Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!

Check your box....

Good for you bro. Good for you.

now thats accountability.

'clap'

Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.

Sounds like "Zero" Derk 40 handled the situation deftly, like a Navy seal descending from a Blackhawk Helicopter. Now he's gonna tell the world - "CIA"in't kidding! He'll prove he's a "big"elow man by Cha"stain" quit. He just needs to Paki"stan" tall and "Osama Bin La"drink the kool-aid.

9:30 show is completely different from the 7:30 show. Try the veal.

dig it :ph43r:

:) good stuff.

from one military man to another bro I am proud of you, you are emerging as a leader of your group...drink the quit

[srans]

Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books.  Had some great moments today  felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins.  Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?).  That was the plan all the way up until after dinner  a quick mow of the front yard.  I just could not wait 1 minute longer.  This discussion had to take place immediately.  Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for...  Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage.  But that is how it had to be.  Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done.  She was 100% onboard.  No judgement, just support.  Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life.  No more lies, no more BS...!!  I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders.  Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along.  She told me so.  Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was.  I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.

I stand strong with you all today.  Proud to be 8 days into my quit.  The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road.  It is a tough road.. But it is MY road  I own it.  Really grateful  proud to be quit with you.  Feeling great right now.  I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it.  Thanks for all the words and support to date.  We got this thing!  Failure is not an option.  Stay strong  stay quit!!!

They know. They always fucking know...

Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.

This is a great thing. Well done.

You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...

Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!

Check your box....

Good for you bro. Good for you.

now thats accountability.

'clap'

Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.

Sounds like "Zero" Derk 40 handled the situation deftly, like a Navy seal descending from a Blackhawk Helicopter. Now he's gonna tell the world - "CIA"in't kidding! He'll prove he's a "big"elow man by Cha"stain" quit. He just needs to Paki"stan" tall and "Osama Bin La"drink the kool-aid.

9:30 show is completely different from the 7:30 show. Try the veal.

dig it :ph43r:

:) good stuff.

[B-loMatt]

You are winning my brother! Post roll, rinse and repeat! ODAAT and NAFAR.

[Skoal Monster]

Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books.  Had some great moments today  felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins.  Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?).  That was the plan all the way up until after dinner  a quick mow of the front yard.  I just could not wait 1 minute longer.  This discussion had to take place immediately.  Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for...  Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage.  But that is how it had to be.  Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done.  She was 100% onboard.  No judgement, just support.  Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life.  No more lies, no more BS...!!  I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders.  Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along.  She told me so.  Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was.  I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.

I stand strong with you all today.  Proud to be 8 days into my quit.  The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road.  It is a tough road.. But it is MY road  I own it.  Really grateful  proud to be quit with you.  Feeling great right now.  I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it.  Thanks for all the words and support to date.  We got this thing!  Failure is not an option.  Stay strong  stay quit!!!

They know. They always fucking know...

Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.

This is a great thing. Well done.

You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...

Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!

Check your box....

Good for you bro. Good for you.

now thats accountability.

'clap'

Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.

Sounds like "Zero" Derk 40 handled the situation deftly, like a Navy seal descending from a Blackhawk Helicopter. Now he's gonna tell the world - "CIA"in't kidding! He'll prove he's a "big"elow man by Cha"stain" quit. He just needs to Paki"stan" tall and "Osama Bin La"drink the kool-aid.

9:30 show is completely different from the 7:30 show. Try the veal.

dig it :ph43r:

[FuFuTheSnu]

Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books.  Had some great moments today  felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins.  Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?).  That was the plan all the way up until after dinner  a quick mow of the front yard.  I just could not wait 1 minute longer.  This discussion had to take place immediately.  Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for...  Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage.  But that is how it had to be.  Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done.  She was 100% onboard.  No judgement, just support.  Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life.  No more lies, no more BS...!!  I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders.  Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along.  She told me so.  Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was.  I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.

I stand strong with you all today.  Proud to be 8 days into my quit.  The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road.  It is a tough road.. But it is MY road  I own it.  Really grateful  proud to be quit with you.  Feeling great right now.  I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it.  Thanks for all the words and support to date.  We got this thing!  Failure is not an option.  Stay strong  stay quit!!!

They know. They always fucking know...

Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.

This is a great thing. Well done.

You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...

Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!

Check your box....

Good for you bro. Good for you.

now thats accountability.

'clap'

Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.

Sounds like "Zero" Derk 40 handled the situation deftly, like a Navy seal descending from a Blackhawk Helicopter. Now he's gonna tell the world - "CIA"in't kidding! He'll prove he's a "big"elow man by Cha"stain" quit. He just needs to Paki"stan" tall and "Osama Bin La"drink the kool-aid.

9:30 show is completely different from the 7:30 show. Try the veal.

[Scowick65]

Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books.  Had some great moments today  felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins.  Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?).  That was the plan all the way up until after dinner  a quick mow of the front yard.  I just could not wait 1 minute longer.  This discussion had to take place immediately.  Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for...  Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage.  But that is how it had to be.  Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done.  She was 100% onboard.  No judgement, just support.  Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life.  No more lies, no more BS...!!  I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders.  Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along.  She told me so.  Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was.  I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.

I stand strong with you all today.  Proud to be 8 days into my quit.  The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road.  It is a tough road.. But it is MY road  I own it.  Really grateful  proud to be quit with you.  Feeling great right now.  I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it.  Thanks for all the words and support to date.  We got this thing!  Failure is not an option.  Stay strong  stay quit!!!

They know. They always fucking know...

Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.

This is a great thing. Well done.

You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...

Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!

Check your box....

Good for you bro. Good for you.

now thats accountability.

'clap'

Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.

I love a redemtion story. This post makes me :)

[LionHeartedGirl]

Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books.  Had some great moments today  felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins.  Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?).  That was the plan all the way up until after dinner  a quick mow of the front yard.  I just could not wait 1 minute longer.  This discussion had to take place immediately.  Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for...  Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage.  But that is how it had to be.  Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done.  She was 100% onboard.  No judgement, just support.  Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life.  No more lies, no more BS...!!  I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders.  Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along.  She told me so.  Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was.  I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.

I stand strong with you all today.  Proud to be 8 days into my quit.  The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road.  It is a tough road.. But it is MY road  I own it.  Really grateful  proud to be quit with you.  Feeling great right now.  I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it.  Thanks for all the words and support to date.  We got this thing!  Failure is not an option.  Stay strong  stay quit!!!

They know. They always fucking know...

Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.

This is a great thing. Well done.

You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...

Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!

Check your box....

Good for you bro. Good for you.

now thats accountability.

'clap'

Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.

[Keddy]

Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books.  Had some great moments today  felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins.  Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?).  That was the plan all the way up until after dinner  a quick mow of the front yard.  I just could not wait 1 minute longer.  This discussion had to take place immediately.  Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for...  Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage.  But that is how it had to be.  Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done.  She was 100% onboard.  No judgement, just support.  Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life.  No more lies, no more BS...!!  I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders.  Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along.  She told me so.  Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was.  I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.

I stand strong with you all today.  Proud to be 8 days into my quit.  The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road.  It is a tough road.. But it is MY road  I own it.  Really grateful  proud to be quit with you.  Feeling great right now.  I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it.  Thanks for all the words and support to date.  We got this thing!  Failure is not an option.  Stay strong  stay quit!!!

They know. They always fucking know...

Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.

This is a great thing. Well done.

You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...

Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!

Check your box....

Good for you bro. Good for you.

now thats accountability.

'clap'

[tarpon17]

Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books.  Had some great moments today  felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins.  Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?).  That was the plan all the way up until after dinner  a quick mow of the front yard.  I just could not wait 1 minute longer.  This discussion had to take place immediately.  Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for...  Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage.  But that is how it had to be.  Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done.  She was 100% onboard.  No judgement, just support.  Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life.  No more lies, no more BS...!!  I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders.  Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along.  She told me so.  Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was.  I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.

I stand strong with you all today.  Proud to be 8 days into my quit.  The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road.  It is a tough road.. But it is MY road  I own it.  Really grateful  proud to be quit with you.  Feeling great right now.  I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it.  Thanks for all the words and support to date.  We got this thing!  Failure is not an option.  Stay strong  stay quit!!!

They know. They always fucking know...

Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.

This is a great thing. Well done.

You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...

Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!

Check your box....

Good for you bro. Good for you.

now thats accountability.