I started 'dipping' 13 years ago in high school. I blame it on peer pressure and playing baseball. It was a casual habit, usually some side hack during practice or on a drive. My parents caught me once and I gave it up. No big deal right? Fast forward 4 years to my Junior year in college. The stress of hitting the books every night got to me. A dip would calm me down. Again, mostly Redman or Levi. Once I finished up college, I didn't dip for 2 years. Then one stressful day at the office had me pop one in to calm my nerves. It worked. I've been dipping on occasion for the better part of the last 5-6 years. It wasn't a consistent habit. I would dip for a couple weeks, then go without one for several weeks or even months. I didn't see myself as an addict. Last spring, I decided to give it up for good. I went 7 months without a dip. Until one Saturday, my buddy and I were going to tailgate for a college football game and I thought that it would be cool to get a good buzz on while drinking, so I bought 1 can. I've been dipping ever since, with a couple breaks here and there. But, I finally came to terms that I am an addict.
I told myself that I would quit by the time I turned 30. However, on October 1st, I decided it was time and I wasn't going to wait. I got tired of the dip burning my gums, turning them white and wrinkly, and ultimately controlling my life. My wife doesn't know that I dipped, and she would be truely upset if she found out. I couldn't hide it from her anymore so I pledged to give it up before we start a family. My future is way more important to me.
So on October 1st I did some research and found this site. I knew it wouldn't be easy so having some support will be very beneficial. After reading some of the stories, they reaffirmed that I needed to quit before I get cancer. I don't want to become a statistic.
So its been a week since I threw my last can away.The first couple days were rough, but the nicotine is finally gone from my system. The hard part now is dealing with the triggers. My triggers are basically work, golf, and sporting events. Two days ago, I almost caved. I was walking to my truck at lunch to go buy a can and was able to stop half way and turn back around. Seeds and Smokey Mountain are helping but I know I've got a long road.
I hope it gets easier...