hey mich 34, This is very crucial to your quit...read and re-read what Mthomas has said...
my 2 cents....
I am 88 days quit, this summer would have been 30 yrs, 1-2 can a day addiction, 24/7 addiction.
I crave everyday, some days it is less than other days. I don't worry, cannot worry, will not worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow is not a reality, now and today is all we have to be quit. One day at a time and we quit everyday.
On the really bad daze, I get into chat, I know the support is there for me and everyone who participates.
If I ever think I will really buy a can of poison, I know that I have to call MY ANGELS that I have plugged into my phone. My goal is to never have to call them. They are super powerful to me. They helped me on day 1 and I tell people and show people MY AnGELS speed dials on my phone, with tears in my eyes, I tell people that they are there for ME. It doesn't get any stronger than that. To know that WE are not ALONE in our addiction and daily fight/quit against the nicotine addiction.
p.s. get your wife a little more involved. It will strengthen your quit and help her to support you in a stronger way, especially if she has no addictions.
Remember, there are many VETS of QUIT who have gone before us that make this quit easier and possible with the tools of quit and this site.
Welcome to getting your life back. Proud to be quit with YOU brother! 'zombie'