Hello all,
This is Day 1 for me and I'm sitting here with what seems like an empty stomach, jitters and nervousness. The worst part of this feeling is that it is flat out sad that I have let it come to this.
17 year addict, from kodiak to cope. Being surrounded by dippers at work never really helped any, but I've finally came to the realization that I need to break these chains.
Cans, pouches and whatever else have been purged and it's time to get this rolling.
Thanks,
p23
P23
You got a comment from cbird! Whatever he tells you, follow it with exactness. You can't fail if you follow his lead. I am 96 days quit and I wanted to quit but cbird, other vets and my group taught me how to control my addiction.
I wanted to respond because you said you were sad. It touched me because I was so sad when I quit. The realization that I was an addict was painful! How could I be an addict?
Stay quit. Stay close to kTC! I think you should use this intro as a journal of your quit. Write down your feelings, your triumphs and just you thoughts.
I was depressed but I realized that I was also having feelings of happiness! How could I be sad and happy? I was. I think quiting is painful, but controlling your addiction, keeping your word and feeling successful in quitting earns you freedom you haven't had since you where young.
It's a he'll of a ride. Embrace why you are sad and celebrate your victories in quitting...you too will feel sad and happy.
This is huge for your freedom. You are in hell. To get out, just keep walking. I am now 96 days quit. I no longer hump tobacco. I hate it, I declare war everyday I am awake. The burden of being quit is so light compared to allowing a can of tin rule me.
I want tobacco dead! I broke most of the ten commandments under its spell. It is a false god! You give your soul to it fo a buzz and risk cancer! What do you get back?
Nothing but sorrow. It is the biggest crock of shit snake oil.
Welcome to hell....just keep walking and you will feel a love and freedom in your life. The suck of this is worth it!
Check your pm, you have my number.