Day 80 and little has changed, except now some people are noticing and bringing the subject up. I had a scout parent yesterday ask if I had quit while we were handing out food boxes. We talked for a while and found out that she and her husband had quit smoking years ago. It really is amazing that almost everyone I work with is a smoking quitter. It is kind of scary when you talk to them and they say that they had cravings for a couple of years after quitting. I guess if you feed your addiction for year after year there are going to be some side effects.
So it came up yesterday also about my Assistant Scoutmaster that smokes. Now this dude is the biggest ninja smoker in the world! I have only seen him smoke once because I went looking for him and happened to catch him do it. He will not smoke around any of the kids, his wife (doubt she knows he smokes), he even mentioned he won't smoke in his truck. But he says that it is because the kids shouldn't be exposed to it, but while I agree they shouldn't he is in full fledged denial that he is hiding it because he is ashamed of his actions. I didn't let him get away unscathed and made sure that he knew while I had no room to talk about nicotine addiction and the stupid things we do, I made sure he knew I felt that he was in full denial and now he knows I think he is the biggest ninja I know.
The pre-hof funk has come but the good news is that it is slowing down a bit and becoming more manageable every day. The craves are getting better, they still hit several times everyday, but only last for a few seconds. Thanks to the guys that gave me advice, it really does help. Get back to the basics of quit, quit for today, fuck tomorrow, and if need be quit minute by minute.
Quit with you today!
