I am done with this habit

[Grizzfall]

Day 49... Some more perspective.

Quitting still fucking sucks.  I am at that dangerous set of crossroads in my quit.  49 days... I feel good most of the time.  I don't think about dip hardly ever, but there is a tradeoff in that... when it DOES cross my mind, it comes on like a 50 ton mack truck barreling down a hill with no brakes.  Today was no exception.  My superintendent handed me a tin this morning and said "try this" (citrus skoal, some "buddy" of his turned him on to it this past weekend).  Any other day it would have just been a "nah I'm good".  I have this quit thing down pat, after all I have been doing it for 49 days... I am in complete control... WRONG!!!

It felt like an eternity that the tin was in my hand.  I could even see in my head the exact steps that were between that very second, and my cave:  The sweet noise of the finger thudding against the can, the first aroma hitting my nose as the can gets opened, feeling the long cut between the fingers as I pinched a little bit out to place in my lip, and finally the familiar burn long forgotten. 

The disturbing part is that I can write that paragraph and still romanticize the very thing that was leading me to an early grave.  I am beyond fed-up with work.  I love my job, but LOATHE my current project and the commute associated with it.  It would have been so easy.  It would have made me FEEL so much better.  But that is a lie.  One problem + Nicotine = Two problems.  I know this.  I was strong.  I handed the tin back and said no thanks.  It was perhaps the single most blindsiding un-adulterated assault on my quit yet.  But I stayed quit.  The desire for the dip was strong, but my WILL TO QUIT was stronger. 

There is no reason to choose to poison yourself... I have made the correct choice hundreds of times over the past 49 days.  Today was one more time making the correct choice.  I am QUIT!

Great choice. I even love the verbiage you used to describe your mental apathy for the tin in your hand. I am so glad that I do not have to rail on you for being a spineless wuss that caved after this long. Instead I offer up a high five and a smile knowing that you are winning.

I know I don't have to say this but I will quit with you any and every day.

Pinched

The 49th day story is power. I feel that freight train crave too and am like, "wtf where the hell did this shit come from." Thanks for the new quit tool.
Grizzfall

[Pinched]

Congrats Dan.

[AppleJack]

Nice work brother!

[Jlud007]

Our first stop is in Maryland to pick up brinkhoffs52, who promised to bring us some Maryland blue crabs on the train! He is married with no children, brink started dipping at 18 with Camel Snus and Skoal. Brinkhoffs is a project manager for a construction company, enjoys working on his own home, playing golf, hockey and rooting for the Washington Capitals! His words of wisdom for everyone are "Everything about the nic bitch is a choice. A choice to put the poison in, a choice to never do it again. Always choose to save your own live." Brink singled out Dabean as a big inspiration, taking time away from his family to help him out through a particularly tough crave. Congrats Brinkhoffs52, hope you decide to stick around beyond 100!

[Pinched]

Day 49... Some more perspective.

Quitting still fucking sucks. I am at that dangerous set of crossroads in my quit. 49 days... I feel good most of the time. I don't think about dip hardly ever, but there is a tradeoff in that... when it DOES cross my mind, it comes on like a 50 ton mack truck barreling down a hill with no brakes. Today was no exception. My superintendent handed me a tin this morning and said "try this" (citrus skoal, some "buddy" of his turned him on to it this past weekend). Any other day it would have just been a "nah I'm good". I have this quit thing down pat, after all I have been doing it for 49 days... I am in complete control... WRONG!!!

It felt like an eternity that the tin was in my hand. I could even see in my head the exact steps that were between that very second, and my cave: The sweet noise of the finger thudding against the can, the first aroma hitting my nose as the can gets opened, feeling the long cut between the fingers as I pinched a little bit out to place in my lip, and finally the familiar burn long forgotten.

The disturbing part is that I can write that paragraph and still romanticize the very thing that was leading me to an early grave. I am beyond fed-up with work. I love my job, but LOATHE my current project and the commute associated with it. It would have been so easy. It would have made me FEEL so much better. But that is a lie. One problem + Nicotine = Two problems. I know this. I was strong. I handed the tin back and said no thanks. It was perhaps the single most blindsiding un-adulterated assault on my quit yet. But I stayed quit. The desire for the dip was strong, but my WILL TO QUIT was stronger.

There is no reason to choose to poison yourself... I have made the correct choice hundreds of times over the past 49 days. Today was one more time making the correct choice. I am QUIT!

Great choice. I even love the verbiage you used to describe your mental apathy for the tin in your hand. I am so glad that I do not have to rail on you for being a spineless wuss that caved after this long. Instead I offer up a high five and a smile knowing that you are winning.

I know I don't have to say this but I will quit with you any and every day.

Pinched

[mattyf118]

Day 49... Some more perspective.

Quitting still fucking sucks. I am at that dangerous set of crossroads in my quit. 49 days... I feel good most of the time. I don't think about dip hardly ever, but there is a tradeoff in that... when it DOES cross my mind, it comes on like a 50 ton mack truck barreling down a hill with no brakes. Today was no exception. My superintendent handed me a tin this morning and said "try this" (citrus skoal, some "buddy" of his turned him on to it this past weekend). Any other day it would have just been a "nah I'm good". I have this quit thing down pat, after all I have been doing it for 49 days... I am in complete control... WRONG!!!

It felt like an eternity that the tin was in my hand. I could even see in my head the exact steps that were between that very second, and my cave: The sweet noise of the finger thudding against the can, the first aroma hitting my nose as the can gets opened, feeling the long cut between the fingers as I pinched a little bit out to place in my lip, and finally the familiar burn long forgotten.

The disturbing part is that I can write that paragraph and still romanticize the very thing that was leading me to an early grave. I am beyond fed-up with work. I love my job, but LOATHE my current project and the commute associated with it. It would have been so easy. It would have made me FEEL so much better. But that is a lie. One problem + Nicotine = Two problems. I know this. I was strong. I handed the tin back and said no thanks. It was perhaps the single most blindsiding un-adulterated assault on my quit yet. But I stayed quit. The desire for the dip was strong, but my WILL TO QUIT was stronger.

There is no reason to choose to poison yourself... I have made the correct choice hundreds of times over the past 49 days. Today was one more time making the correct choice. I am QUIT!

Congrats on another day brother. I had a similar experience over the weekend when I walked into a buddies house, and sitting there on the counter was a tin of skoal mint. I 9 days at the time at damn, it was like I could hear the tin calling my name. I ended up having to plant myself on the other side of the room, but even then that didn't help. I found myself stealing glances all night. Luckily, i had my seeds with me, so I was constantly chewing them. But it was behind me that I heard it, the thump of the can, the opening/closing of the lid, I could smell it. It was at this time that the wife saw him, and saw me, and said "TIME TO GO!".

[Felcie]

Great job staying quit!!!
Your words ring so true to me! Even after 56 days All the sites,sounds and smells are sooo powerful!
I'm lucky in that there are very few dippers in my circle of friends and coworkers so the temptation isn't there in my face every day.

Again awesome job on staying quit!

[krf150]

Day 49... Some more perspective.

Quitting still fucking sucks. I am at that dangerous set of crossroads in my quit. 49 days... I feel good most of the time. I don't think about dip hardly ever, but there is a tradeoff in that... when it DOES cross my mind, it comes on like a 50 ton mack truck barreling down a hill with no brakes. Today was no exception. My superintendent handed me a tin this morning and said "try this" (citrus skoal, some "buddy" of his turned him on to it this past weekend). Any other day it would have just been a "nah I'm good". I have this quit thing down pat, after all I have been doing it for 49 days... I am in complete control... WRONG!!!

It felt like an eternity that the tin was in my hand. I could even see in my head the exact steps that were between that very second, and my cave: The sweet noise of the finger thudding against the can, the first aroma hitting my nose as the can gets opened, feeling the long cut between the fingers as I pinched a little bit out to place in my lip, and finally the familiar burn long forgotten.

The disturbing part is that I can write that paragraph and still romanticize the very thing that was leading me to an early grave. I am beyond fed-up with work. I love my job, but LOATHE my current project and the commute associated with it. It would have been so easy. It would have made me FEEL so much better. But that is a lie. One problem + Nicotine = Two problems. I know this. I was strong. I handed the tin back and said no thanks. It was perhaps the single most blindsiding un-adulterated assault on my quit yet. But I stayed quit. The desire for the dip was strong, but my WILL TO QUIT was stronger.

There is no reason to choose to poison yourself... I have made the correct choice hundreds of times over the past 49 days. Today was one more time making the correct choice. I am QUIT!

Awesome work man. I bet that was tough as hell. I'm only on day 12 right now and when I think about chew, it's all I can think about for around 5-10 minutes. Anyway, congrats on not caving, that was a big test for your willpower and you passed.

[brinkhoffs52]

Day 49... Some more perspective.

Quitting still fucking sucks. I am at that dangerous set of crossroads in my quit. 49 days... I feel good most of the time. I don't think about dip hardly ever, but there is a tradeoff in that... when it DOES cross my mind, it comes on like a 50 ton mack truck barreling down a hill with no brakes. Today was no exception. My superintendent handed me a tin this morning and said "try this" (citrus skoal, some "buddy" of his turned him on to it this past weekend). Any other day it would have just been a "nah I'm good". I have this quit thing down pat, after all I have been doing it for 49 days... I am in complete control... WRONG!!!

It felt like an eternity that the tin was in my hand. I could even see in my head the exact steps that were between that very second, and my cave: The sweet noise of the finger thudding against the can, the first aroma hitting my nose as the can gets opened, feeling the long cut between the fingers as I pinched a little bit out to place in my lip, and finally the familiar burn long forgotten.

The disturbing part is that I can write that paragraph and still romanticize the very thing that was leading me to an early grave. I am beyond fed-up with work. I love my job, but LOATHE my current project and the commute associated with it. It would have been so easy. It would have made me FEEL so much better. But that is a lie. One problem + Nicotine = Two problems. I know this. I was strong. I handed the tin back and said no thanks. It was perhaps the single most blindsiding un-adulterated assault on my quit yet. But I stayed quit. The desire for the dip was strong, but my WILL TO QUIT was stronger.

There is no reason to choose to poison yourself... I have made the correct choice hundreds of times over the past 49 days. Today was one more time making the correct choice. I am QUIT!

[kana]

39 Days into this...

Time for a little perspective.  I still think about dip.  I still would relish the opportunity to pack a lip and just settle in for the ride.  But there is a difference now... It is not that all consuming "dear god I need to find a can to get this shit in my lip before I murder somebody".  It is almost more of a reminiscence.  Kind of like thinking back in time to "huh, there were some great times with that ex, but for the love of christ I wouldnt deal with that again".

Craves are few and far between, Im almost beginning to feel normal the majority of the time.  It's a good feeling.  Work is still stressing me the fuck out, but fewer times I find myself having to fight the urge to use nicotine as a crutch.  It isn't easy in construction.  A lot of guys smoke and or dip on the site.  But I am able to look at it as I would something else that is a personal choice, kind of like "oh, ok, so you want to maim your body.  Enjoy that choice.  I'm not going to partake". 

Every day still has it's moments, but there is a lull in the war... I kind of enjoy it.  I know that there will be ambush attacks in the future for which I must be prepared, but that doesn't mean I can't enjoy the good days....

Awesome work congrats BH on making it 39 days!

day 40 for you, and you're doing great.. just relish in the thought that eventually you won't think about it at all.. it does happen.. The amount of time it takes is different for everybody, but if you just quit for one day at a time, you will get there... I ran into my old neighbor yesterday.. Basically he looked like shit.. over weight, huffing  puffing from walking? He's a nice guy, but a drinker  dipper.. He's only 2 years older than me, but looks more like 20.
thank god I woke my ass up! never again for any reason..

[Mike from AB]

39 Days into this...

Time for a little perspective. I still think about dip. I still would relish the opportunity to pack a lip and just settle in for the ride. But there is a difference now... It is not that all consuming "dear god I need to find a can to get this shit in my lip before I murder somebody". It is almost more of a reminiscence. Kind of like thinking back in time to "huh, there were some great times with that ex, but for the love of christ I wouldnt deal with that again".

Craves are few and far between, Im almost beginning to feel normal the majority of the time. It's a good feeling. Work is still stressing me the fuck out, but fewer times I find myself having to fight the urge to use nicotine as a crutch. It isn't easy in construction. A lot of guys smoke and or dip on the site. But I am able to look at it as I would something else that is a personal choice, kind of like "oh, ok, so you want to maim your body. Enjoy that choice. I'm not going to partake".

Every day still has it's moments, but there is a lull in the war... I kind of enjoy it. I know that there will be ambush attacks in the future for which I must be prepared, but that doesn't mean I can't enjoy the good days....

Awesome work congrats BH on making it 39 days!

[brinkhoffs52]

39 Days into this...

Time for a little perspective. I still think about dip. I still would relish the opportunity to pack a lip and just settle in for the ride. But there is a difference now... It is not that all consuming "dear god I need to find a can to get this shit in my lip before I murder somebody". It is almost more of a reminiscence. Kind of like thinking back in time to "huh, there were some great times with that ex, but for the love of christ I wouldnt deal with that again".

Craves are few and far between, Im almost beginning to feel normal the majority of the time. It's a good feeling. Work is still stressing me the fuck out, but fewer times I find myself having to fight the urge to use nicotine as a crutch. It isn't easy in construction. A lot of guys smoke and or dip on the site. But I am able to look at it as I would something else that is a personal choice, kind of like "oh, ok, so you want to maim your body. Enjoy that choice. I'm not going to partake".

Every day still has it's moments, but there is a lull in the war... I kind of enjoy it. I know that there will be ambush attacks in the future for which I must be prepared, but that doesn't mean I can't enjoy the good days....

[Derk40]

I told myself for years that the only reason I didn't quit is because I didn't want to.  I enjoyed it too much.  Day 4 is rough, I won't lie.  Getting a dip would make me feel better in a hurry.  I could focus more on work and get more done, however, I am realizing just how much control this little can had over my life and there is no way in hell something that stupid is gonna tell me how to act, feel, live......

Bama, I respectfully disagree on a couple points. Contrary to popular belief, as you'll soon see, everything is better without the shit in your lip. If doesn't magically make you smarter, calmer or more productive. Think about what your saying... that's her, whispering. 'Finger' Nicbitch.

You got to realize that a dip only feeds the nicotine Addiction. You are a drug addict! Nicotine is a drug. I equate what u are saying as to what a heroin addict would say... Just give me that next fix and all will be better. That is utter BS! Things will not be better. You won't concentrate any better. I can tell you one thing. You will readjust your daily focus on getting that next fix. Back to being a slave to a can. U do not want that. Remember why u quit and quit reminiscing a out how great it was... It wasn't great. In fact it sucked!! Stay the course! You can do this. Quit with you today!

[copingwithoutcopen]

I told myself for years that the only reason I didn't quit is because I didn't want to. I enjoyed it too much. Day 4 is rough, I won't lie. Getting a dip would make me feel better in a hurry. I could focus more on work and get more done, however, I am realizing just how much control this little can had over my life and there is no way in hell something that stupid is gonna tell me how to act, feel, live......

Bama, I respectfully disagree on a couple points. Contrary to popular belief, as you'll soon see, everything is better without the shit in your lip. If doesn't magically make you smarter, calmer or more productive. Think about what your saying... that's her, whispering. 'Finger' Nicbitch.

[BamaHutch]

I told myself for years that the only reason I didn't quit is because I didn't want to. I enjoyed it too much. Day 4 is rough, I won't lie. Getting a dip would make me feel better in a hurry. I could focus more on work and get more done, however, I am realizing just how much control this little can had over my life and there is no way in hell something that stupid is gonna tell me how to act, feel, live......