I am done with this habit

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Quote from: brinkhoffs52Today is a another "day 1". I previously quit June/July of 2012. I got through the first hurdles. I was good to go... I made it through 6 months.... And then January hit... WOrk got real... I got weak... and started my subtle slide back down into the pit.... The lies, the concealing spitters, the hiding cans... Working in construction made it easy to do it at work, but that was just an excuse for my weakness...

I read my introduction to force myself to look in the mirror and figure out "what's changed?" why this time? Why won't the nic bitch take back over...

Is this time different? The answer is yes and no... It is the exact same as last time... I want to end the lies, and end the habit that controls me.... It is different in perhaps the most important way possible... I am wiser and no longer naieve enough to believe that I will ever be "cured". I will get to the HOF... I will get beyond the HOF... I will get to 2+ hofs (if that is even a term), but I will never be cured. I will always have to be vigilant of the evil nature that lurks when I get sloppy and succumb to the nicotine whore....
Well you only get one thread a mod can fix that for you. Just a quick look at your total posts and your join date YOUR plan had holes a shit ton of holes...
It still has holes we dont worry about 100 days from now we focus on today only...the rest dont matter. I think you should really try on the the 3 questions again....

What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are going to do differently next time?

Do some reading lots of it get involved this time be accountable. Brotherhood Accountabilty Success POST ROLL is how this place works.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

MY HOF speech

brinkhoffs52

Today is a another "day 1". I previously quit June/July of 2012. I got through the first hurdles. I was good to go... I made it through 6 months.... And then January hit... WOrk got real... I got weak... and started my subtle slide back down into the pit.... The lies, the concealing spitters, the hiding cans... Working in construction made it easy to do it at work, but that was just an excuse for my weakness...

I read my introduction to force myself to look in the mirror and figure out "what's changed?" why this time? Why won't the nic bitch take back over...

Is this time different? The answer is yes and no... It is the exact same as last time... I want to end the lies, and end the habit that controls me.... It is different in perhaps the most important way possible... I am wiser and no longer naieve enough to believe that I will ever be "cured". I will get to the HOF... I will get beyond the HOF... I will get to 2+ hofs (if that is even a term), but I will never be cured. I will always have to be vigilant of the evil nature that lurks when I get sloppy and succumb to the nicotine whore....
Quit Date: 7/30/13
Do, or do not... There is no "try"

brinkhoffs52

Thanks for the support so far.

I feel stupid for not having done this sooner, but not going to look back now.

Roll is posted, and I am in for the long, down and dirty haul.

-Dan
Quit Date: 7/30/13
Do, or do not... There is no "try"

G

Quote from: SmokeygThis is not a habit. It is an addiction. You are addicted. So am I.
Yep. No reason to pretend that just because you're not in an alley with a needle in your arm that this is a habit.

Smokeyg

This is not a habit. It is an addiction. You are addicted. So am I.

Roamcountry

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Quote from: brinkhoffs52Good Morning KTC Folks,

I have been looking at this site for several months on and off trying to prepare myself for the quit.Ã,  I have tried numerous times in the past to quit, and would be successful for a week, maybe 2.Ã,  I would fight the urges, I would fight the cravings, and get through them, and then finally I would get sick of fighting, or get weak from the fight and cave in.Ã,  After all, one dip cant set me too far back right?.Ã,  Then one led to the excuse for the next one, and in no time flat I was back on the dipping wagon.

This post today is to say no more.Ã,  I look forward to not having to hide spitters, conceal cans, lie to my fiance, and worst off all lie to myself about pretending to quit.

I look forward to talking with you all, and hopefully as I get stronger, I look forward to helping others quit this despicable habit.

Thanks
-Dan
Good decision on kicking your nicotine habit to the curb. This site can help. There are no short cuts, but here are some links that will help you navigate this site. Rule number one, this is a no nicotine site, period, end of story.

Biggest thing to do is get acquainted with this site. Highly recommend you go here: WELCOME CENTER

What to Expect When You Quit Dipping

Spousal Support

This a a NO NICOTINE SITE, period, no discussion.

We "Post Roll Call" daily ( our promise to ourselves and to our brothers not to use nicotine today)- We DO THIS DAILY
Make posting roll the first step of your daily proactive quit.

Where to post roll call: PRE NOV HOF 2012

How to post roll

Read, read, read: Read for knowledge, to fight a crave, combat a cave or sheer entertainment
Intros
Hall of Fame Speeches
Words of Wisdom

Need to CHAT
Welcome to the party Dan! Cbirds got you set up with some great links, make sure you take the time to read up on them. Honor your word and post roll daily. Develop a quit plan for yourself and stick to it. Its a bumpy ride at first but if you hang in there, the freedom is worth it!!

cbird65

Quote from: brinkhoffs52Good Morning KTC Folks,

I have been looking at this site for several months on and off trying to prepare myself for the quit. I have tried numerous times in the past to quit, and would be successful for a week, maybe 2. I would fight the urges, I would fight the cravings, and get through them, and then finally I would get sick of fighting, or get weak from the fight and cave in. After all, one dip cant set me too far back right?. Then one led to the excuse for the next one, and in no time flat I was back on the dipping wagon.

This post today is to say no more. I look forward to not having to hide spitters, conceal cans, lie to my fiance, and worst off all lie to myself about pretending to quit.

I look forward to talking with you all, and hopefully as I get stronger, I look forward to helping others quit this despicable habit.

Thanks
-Dan
Good decision on kicking your nicotine habit to the curb. This site can help. There are no short cuts, but here are some links that will help you navigate this site. Rule number one, this is a no nicotine site, period, end of story.

Biggest thing to do is get acquainted with this site. Highly recommend you go here: WELCOME CENTER

What to Expect When You Quit Dipping

Spousal Support

This a a NO NICOTINE SITE, period, no discussion.

We "Post Roll Call" daily ( our promise to ourselves and to our brothers not to use nicotine today)- We DO THIS DAILY
Make posting roll the first step of your daily proactive quit.

Where to post roll call: PRE NOV HOF 2012

How to post roll

Read, read, read: Read for knowledge, to fight a crave, combat a cave or sheer entertainment
Intros
Hall of Fame Speeches
Words of Wisdom

Need to CHAT
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brinkhoffs52

Good Morning KTC Folks,

I have been looking at this site for several months on and off trying to prepare myself for the quit. I have tried numerous times in the past to quit, and would be successful for a week, maybe 2. I would fight the urges, I would fight the cravings, and get through them, and then finally I would get sick of fighting, or get weak from the fight and cave in. After all, one dip cant set me too far back right?. Then one led to the excuse for the next one, and in no time flat I was back on the dipping wagon.

This post today is to say no more. I look forward to not having to hide spitters, conceal cans, lie to my fiance, and worst off all lie to myself about pretending to quit.

I look forward to talking with you all, and hopefully as I get stronger, I look forward to helping others quit this despicable habit.

Thanks
-Dan
Quit Date: 7/30/13
Do, or do not... There is no "try"