Hello from rdad

[rdad]

I have been thinking a lot today about this journey we are on and wanted to get it down so I don't forget these feelings. Some ups and downs lately (but mostly ups) Getting longer and longer glimpses of what life can be like without nicotine. For me this quit has become my main job. It is the most important thing in my life right now because it (my quit) is new and fragile. I am trying to add layers of armour (thanks Sir Derek) each day. Working out, eating healthy,drinking less. I need to get physically stronger. Being a quitter is tiring.

So I have been feeling pretty good lately and I thought I might,possibly,perhaps have enough energy to reach out to a "newer newbie" than me. Texted support, how you doing, call for any reason...... since Christmas, nothing, gone. SADNESS.

If you are still quit come back and post. If you caved come back and quit. To anyone struggling, the two main things that are helping me are this site and studying.

You have to know your enemy to kill it. Please read to understand everything about nicotine, what it does to our brains. A little understanding can take away a lot of the fear you are feeling about saying goodbye to this poison. I could write all night about what I have learned, but if you REALLY want this you make the effort. This is on you. No-one can do it for you. Help-yes. Support- yes. Babysit you- NO. These last 40 days have been the hardest,yet most rewarding days for me that I can remember.

I'm getting pretty old and I wish I had done this a long time ago. Do not waste one more second as a slave. Take your life back. There are literally thousands of quitters here that want the same for me and you. Someday I will meet them and thank them for helping me find my way home.

There.....I feel a lot better.

[Erussell]

Rdad 35 days is huge and 1700+ days is huge! but no bigger than one day really. When Frazz(a bad ass quitter that has supported my quit everyday) hit 1000 days I praised him, he simply said thanks and commenced to throw more quit knowledge onto me. He made it clear why he post roll every day and how we are all still only $5 and a bad decision away from slavery. And with that he reminded me to stay ODAAT and remain vigilant. It gets easier with every minute, hour, day, and crave you win on the nic bitch, but easier doesn't mean finished. Rdad you are rocking your quit and I am proud to watch from the side lines. Your Spirit is a strength to my quit, keep doing what your doing! I quit with you, Erussell day 242

[rdad]

Thanks srans!
I have to remind myself to stay grounded and think ODAAT. Have a good Christmas. I'll be quitting with you again tomorrow.

[srans]

I am so looking forward to this. Going years without a crave?

Let this ^^^^^ thinking go away my friend. This quit will be so much easier if you take it one day at a time. We have no promise for tomorrow. Ready got to 1,774 one day at a time. He wasn't in a hurry for it,,, it just happened.

said in my heart a forever goodbye to nictotine

Change forever ^^^^^^ to today.

Holy shit is that even possible?

Today is possible,, ^^^^ you are proving it.

Your demonstrating determination drive and integrity. It will take a little while for your mind to catch up to your heart, but it will and a lot sooner than you think. One day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it. I'm damn proud to be quit with you on this fine holiday.

[rdad]

Ready - Day 1,774

This site has made my life unbelievably better. You folks keep me quit.

I remember what it was like to be a slave because I remain here and see the carnage nicotine has reaped upon people. I see the new quitters with their open gaping wounds. I see the desperation in their posts and know where I came from.

I enjoy life so much more now. It's been quite some time since I have had a crave. And when I say "quite some time" I mean years. It gets so much better.

I am not cured. "Just one" will put me right back in prison, of that, I have no doubt.

I will bottom line this for you.

I'm here. I post roll giving my word of Honor that I will not use nicotine in any way shape or form. I keep my word. You hold me to my word.

Period.

Thanks for the help Wt57! I couldn't figure out how to put a quote box around Ready's quote so I figured out how to make it blue. That works for me.

I am so looking forward to this. Going years without a crave? Holy shit is that even possible? I really feel like I am in full control of this quit because I have said in my heart a forever goodbye to nictotine. I hate it and don't want it in my life. But my stupid weak brain is yapping for its fix till I tell it no. (Its kinda like training a puppy.) Do the same thing over and over consistently and things will just become the norm. (I hope). Sometimes it really pisses me off. Why cant it just shut the fuck up and go away, I guess it doesn't believe me that I am fucking done, done, done with it! I am going to keep posting roll everyday, keep my promise every day and take the word of Ready that it does get better and the fucking chirping of this addiction will eventually start to quiet down a little.

[Wt57]

Can anyone help me?
Is there a way I can quote (copy) something from someone elses intro thread and put it in mine to comment on and/or just have for me to read for strength and inspiration. I have been writing them down but if I could just put them in my thread that would be helpful. I'm always worried about screwing something up in here. I guess that's good that this is my biggest problem at the moment. :D
Thanks!

Just go to the thread you want to quote, begin like you were going to make a comment. Select, copy or cut and then go back to your thread and paste there. At the top of the wildcard section is a test thread where you can try stuff out.

[rdad]

Can anyone help me?
Is there a way I can quote (copy) something from someone elses intro thread and put it in mine to comment on and/or just have for me to read for strength and inspiration. I have been writing them down but if I could just put them in my thread that would be helpful. I'm always worried about screwing something up in here. I guess that's good that this is my biggest problem at the moment. :D
Thanks!

[B-loMatt]

rdad, great stuff here. Keep quitting! As far as earning your stripes goes consider yourself post-worthy. Your thread is here for you to chronicle your quit; for your future benefit and for others following your path. You earned the right to post here day 1 my friend. Quit on.

[rdad]

rdad, I don't know you but I'm thankful you're in my quit group.  I appreciate your contributions to the board, dedication, and voice of support.  I'll look forward to seeing you on roll each day.  There's no quittin' the quit.

Oh we do know each other. We are the same in the only thing that matters here. We are addicts who decided to get our shit together. QLF with you EDD!

[pbrain04]

Rdad is crushing his quit one day at a time. Like a champ.

[Steakbomb18]

rdad, I don't know you but I'm thankful you're in my quit group. I appreciate your contributions to the board, dedication, and voice of support. I'll look forward to seeing you on roll each day. There's no quittin' the quit.

[rdad]

How's it going there rdad? 

You doing ok, or are "bright images flashing by, like a windshield towards a fly?"

Hey Diesel
Things are going great. Just kinda been laying low and working on my quit. Don't wanna spout off too much till I've earned a few more stripes. Been reading a lot.

I really am surprised on how much I like not dipping!
I like the simplicity of it all. I like how better things taste. I like how much more energy I have at the gym. I like how my brain is more focused now that the fog had cleared. I like how clean my mouth feels and that its not sore all the fucking time. I like not having to make sure I am stocked up when I go on a trip. ((They don't sell Husky hardly anywhere around here) I like it that my kids and wife are finally getting to be around a clean Dad.

Thanks for checking up on me and I will leave you with these words by "professor Pratt"
"Ceiling unlimited, windows open wide
Feeling unlimited eyes on the prize, changes never end, never end" :D

[Diesel2112]

How's it going there rdad?

You doing ok, or are "bright images flashing by, like a windshield towards a fly?"

[rdad]

I told Pinched the other day I am following his thread cuz it makes my quit stronger but then I PM-ed him back and admitted it was really because of his avatar. that's so funny you said that. I am glomming on to all your posts too Neon. Very inspirational. This is some good shit for sure.

I went in "my" Chevron this morning where I used to buy my logs of Husky every third day. I plopped a can of V-8 on the counter and the guy I know opened the back counter. (That's were they kept the shit they ordered special for me cuz nobody else carried it. They probably bought it by the case.)
I told him just the V8 and he could stop ordering my "Blue Husky". I walked out to my truck feeling like the baddest man alive.

Hey Nic Bitch... Eat those Cookies!

oh man, if you like Pinched's avatar then you need to check out MikeA, OneImpressiveBall or even Grizzly25 and there are many more.....HA

Anyway what a great victory and you should be walking tall and proud after that....

I also recommend Jbags5 from October 2011, nice soapy BOOBIES!!!

I hate my stupid trout now. Oh well I am clinging on to all your shirt tails anyway. I might as well embrace your boobies too! Quit on my brothers. Today is going to be a good day!

[Pinched]

I told Pinched the other day I am following his thread cuz it makes my quit stronger but then I PM-ed him back and admitted it was really because of his avatar. that's so funny you said that. I am glomming on to all your posts too Neon. Very inspirational. This is some good shit for sure.

I went in "my" Chevron this morning where I used to buy my logs of Husky every third day. I plopped a can of V-8 on the counter and the guy I know opened the back counter. (That's were they kept the shit they ordered special for me cuz nobody else carried it. They probably bought it by the case.)
I told him just the V8 and he could stop ordering my "Blue Husky". I walked out to my truck feeling like the baddest man alive.

Hey Nic Bitch... Eat those Cookies!

oh man, if you like Pinched's avatar then you need to check out MikeA, OneImpressiveBall or even Grizzly25 and there are many more.....HA

Anyway what a great victory and you should be walking tall and proud after that....

I also recommend Jbags5 from October 2011, nice soapy BOOBIES!!!