I have been exactly 63 HOURS without tobacco touching me or my mouth. This is not yet three days, but I am determined to beat this shit. I am 39 and have been dipping Cope for 25 YEARS. That's right, they got me as a little boy; the mother fuckers! Believe it or not, I actually smoked before I started dipping; the dipping helped me stop smoking for a year until I fucked up and started smoking again as well. I quit smoking 25 DAYS ago, which I had already tapered down to one or two cigs a day; I'm not having much difficulty with staying away from them, it's the fucking DIP!
I went out searching for an alternative and all I could find in my city was wintergreen Bacc-off. It's full of sticks that poke the shit out of my lip. I have some in my mouth right now; it makes me feel guilty, like I'm cheating. My main concern is, notwithstanding that Cope is probably the filthiest shit on Earth, that I am now exposing myself to other harmful agents, not to mention that the inside of my lip is probably rougher than if I was using Cope; this shit tears up a lip. That can't be good for one, right? So, I have ordered some Hoochsnuff through the mail; can't get here soon enough! The craving is coming on strong and all I have to deal with it is this Bacc-off, which is like a bunch of broken up toothpicks that taste like candy. Is any of this even acceptable to ya'll.
My jaw hurts; does this sound familiar to anyone?
Please excuse my ignorance, but will someone tell me how to use this website? Am I doing right so far? I can't think straight or concentrate; I just know I can't touch tobacco anymore; that is where all my efforts are going right now. Help me Brethren!
A Freemason