After 3 days, I caved. I went out and purchased a tin, took one dip, then 5 minutes later I threw it away. I felt guilty and ashamed, so I didn't immediately come forward.
Why did it happen? I gave in to the crave. I was doing alright for the first two days, but was plagued by doubt. Sadly, I made the mistake of making the wrong choice when I should have texted someone and asked for help. In the end, it all came down to not honoring a commitment and feeling ashamed to admit weakness to myself and others. Pride was also a factor. I didn't fully take into account that I needed to approach this humbly and receptively.
What would I do differently? I would be absolutely forthcoming and receptive to any advice and help others are willing to give me. Being humble. Pride and arrogance are my worst traits, and I need to focus on approaching things from a more receptive standpoint. Others saw it right away, given the selfish nature of my initial intro. However, I see the mistake in that, and I need to do things differently. I'm really not a douchey kind of guy, but I armor myself emotionally. That needs to end right now. Also, I need to grow a backbone and learn to accept change in myself. I gave up drinking and drug use in the past, so why am I so stubborn when it comes to nicotine? My best guess is that I've used nicotine as a crutch when I should have learned to walk on my own two feet.
To rehash on what I would go through to achieve this quit, I would do whatever it takes. Sleepless nights, withdrawals, and rewiring my brain to adjust to new habits. I've put off things that would be more beneficial to my overall health (getting active, learning new things and hobbies, etc.), so I wil need to reconfigure the time I used while sitting around with a dip in my mouth by taking up new things to fill that time. I'll always have the urge to use tobacco, as nicotine addiction is sempiternal. When dealing with withdrawals, I just need to accept the fact that I'm going to have a hard time and better prepare myself. Right now, I'm on here and dealing with a headache, but I have some sugar free candy and water handy for whenever the urge to dip strikes. I also have a couple of phone numbers on hand for whenever I need to contact someone.