Well, I got my jakes mint chew in the mail today, and it couldn't have come sooner. I ordered the variety pack, and opened the cinimon first. It is very good. Gives a nice little tingle in the lip, and satisfies the oral craving. It is a bit loose when pinching but packs well in the lip. It feels like putting a dip in that has already been in the lip for a while. Does the trick though. I have 10 cans right now and am hoping that that will take me through the major cravings over the next few weeks or so. After I get further along in my quit, I would like to cut out th oral stuff as well. For now this is helping out a lot. I am so happy that I found this community.
Since I am using this intro post as a journal, I thought I would talk about how I started chewing. The first time I put a dip in was about 9 years ago. A buddy and I were out setting up our deer stands for the year. He offered me a pinch, and I obliged. I put the first lipper in and got a buzz that I will never forget, dizzy to the moon. I bought my first tin on the way home, and the rest is history. I chose Copenhagen because my father was a Copenhagen chewrer when I was a kid. The smell of Copenhagen brought back pleasant childhood memories. He quit the chew when I was young, but it is amazing how those childhood memories stick with you. This is one of the biggest reasons that I want to quit. I don't want my son to associate me with the smell of chew. This should be a reminder to all those whoe have kids. What we do around our children sticks with them for the rest of their lives. I am 30 now and still associate the smell of Copenhagen with my father.
I was about a tin a week adict for many years. Over the past few months that addiction turned into a tin every two to three days. I was hiding it from my wife and at work. The addiction kept growing and it ceased to be fun many years ago. I tried to quit many times but always sucame to the whispering voices in my head and went back on the shit every time. This time feels different. I am dedicated to posting roll. I want people to keep me accountable, and I have shared everything with my wife. I am so sick of feeling dependant on that shit. I am deep in the fog right now. I can't concentrate on work, and have a constant nagging feeling like I am forgetting something. I can't wait to get through the fog and continue with life. I appreciate and respect all those who have gone before me in the quitting process.
