I dont know if this is the right place to post this but here goes......
For background information, I have this little habit of when i hear, feel, or sense something i end up with these silly little movies playing in my head.... I amuse myself, but when my wife asks what im thinking and i try to explain she never finds it as amusing as I do.... Perhaps you will perhaps you wont, perhaps this might help you through a craving as thinking about it did me.
When this craving hit a particular scene from the movie The Shining popped into my head, and the result thereof helped keep me away..
I was walking down the hall of an esquisite 5 star hotel, the hall was empty, I was all alone. I see a door ajar, I went to check on it as the hotel is closed for the season.... As I enter the room I see her in the bathroom, her back turned to me. Her outline is a vision of loveliness, just as I have pictured in my dreams over and over...... I start to walk closer, she hears my footsteps, as I enter the bathroom she starts turn around expecting my embrace. As she turns I start to see her face, and my jaw drops open, I see a hideous dead creature, her face rotting away, her teeth rotting her lips falling off. She continues to call for me reaching for me....
I guess were to the part of the story we all face, what do we do, we know what a monster the nic bitch is do we continue to hold it dear, or do we run like hell..... run for the help of our friends..... Its our call...... Im here and posted today again so i made my decision, I hope everyone who reads follows...