Hey Mike,
I know where you're at. I'll quit next week, after the trip with the guys is over, but until you make the choice that it's over, then there will always be a trip or next week. I am a 35 yr addict, but I'm 16 days on the other side and will tell you you can do it too. It is scary thinking about a future without it, until you finally realize that it is killing you. There are a lot of good guys on this site that will support and hold you accountable. We are all just a group making the same promise to each other every day. When you are ready to change, find your group and post roll. Just leave that next Friday talk at the door.