I have been following your quit and your thread. We have spoken in chat a few times. I know you are a young college Missouri boy and feel like I know what you are like. I would like to give you some advice because I was where you are long ago. The main difference is that you can still quit while you are young, unlike me.
I'm sure you have heard that fewer than 3% of young quitters make it. The reason for that I think is that quitting takes a level of maturity that only comes with father time. I don't mean that as a slam. Hell I envy your youth...but youth is wasted on the young. I, too, ran the bars when I was your age and got black out drunk. Smart...no. Fun...hell yes (I think). Conducive to quitting an addiction...absolutely not.
My advice to you is to realize your immaturity on some levels and not put yourself in a position to cave until you are far enough along in your quit to handle it. At the same time, realize that you are way more mature than most of us, including me, when we were your age because you are here trying like hell to quit.
I think you are for real and sincere about your quit but do stupid shit that most men your age do. If you want to succeed with your quit, you have to control the variables. Learn your lesson from your cave and go on. 3% means 3 out of every 100 make it. There's no reason you can't be one of the three.
Keep your word and I will stand with you.
QLF EDD NAFAR!
Doc-I'm quit right now
This is the greatest fucking thing I've ever read. I agree with everything in here, every damn drop of it. I wish I had the balls back then, too. I knew that dipping was cockblocking me, that the sluts would see me with that fatty in and say "you'd be so much cuter without all that spit" and I'd tell them fuck off you whore. I should have told the nic bitch that.
Anyway, TLS... we all go through struggles in life. If you don't have any, you're not living. Your cave comes at the same time as my own personal struggles, struggles that are different than yours but are preventing me from being the support that you need right now. I wish I could, because I know I had help along the way, lots of help. I just can't right now. Your cave affected me more than I imagined it would- it made me realize how close I am to losing nearly two years of hard-fought quit fight. I hope that when I get out of this fog I'm in, I see you with all +1's.
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