I'm such a girl

[Raider]

Saw the title of your intro and I thought it was Lipi's. My bad.

[AJK]

My thoughts for this Thursday night.

It's been a rough night for me. I will be so grateful for when I am past this very strange stage I'm in right now. I've not been Nicotine free for over 30 years, and i honestly don't know what it's like to not feel under the influence of something or other. I should probably be posting this in my intro, but know I will get more support here, from you all who have welcomed me like a lost puppy dog.

I have been doing much reconnaissance, reading until my eyes won't stay open. Reading the beginnings of all the current months, intros, and histories of many of you. I am gathering information and asking questions. I am comparing my situation and analyzing how I can do things different than those who have gone before me and caved. In reality, I can't compare. I have the same faults and difficulties as everyone who has failed. I honestly wondered how I can possibly succeed at this endeavor, until there was you guys. It's the only thing that right now is keeping me from walking 20 steps and dipping into my husband's stash. You guys scare the crap out of me, and what I would have to endure if I failed. I hope to never fall from your favor, because in this short time I have come to feel a kindred spirit with this group. Thanks for having me here, wish I could hug each and every one of you. Please help me by continuing your support, humoring me, and generally adopting me in your mayhemness which is pure awesomeness.

Xo
Amyjo
day 25

Amyjo,

That is the exact point. That is accountability. That is why we all stay quit. It is a part of the reason we rant and rave at cavers, because it strengthens our quits. Can you imagine the hell that would rain down on Lipi if he ever caved? My god it would be a bloodbath. I'm am fairly certain that just about nobody would talk to him here in May. That is an extra layer of quit right there that is almost as strong to me as honoring my word. Proud to have adopted you AJK.

Matt
249

Amy - you are dealing with what I thought was the hardest part of quitting. You are in uncharted waters I'm that you have never been quit this long, you are having foggy days and aren't quite sure what to do with your hands (insert YouTube video of Ricky Bobby). The days get better and easier. In the next 30 days you will suddenly realize that you are really quit. That will scare the shit out of you and please you in a way you never thought possible (that could be a good joke....). This group is a good place to learn a brand of quitting for the hard of hearts. It's hard, but there is no going back. We got to that place by going at it odaat. At some point, the thought of more than today will be doable. Just stick to day by day here and stay quit.

Also, check out my intro. I did a decent job of posting my weekly updated through hof.

Pope 252 (fucking a, over 250 days quit....Thanks guys)

Amy- I don't like to see you hurting, and I know that quitting is hard. I can't believe I did it sometimes.
But looking back now, there is obviously not a single guy in here who regrets going through it.
Just think about that. 100% of the people you have met in Mayhem not only made it through exactly what you are going through, we are all 100% sure that we made the right decision. How do you know that? Because we're still here.

A while ago I made a promise to everyone in Mayhem that if they caved, I would fucking destroy them, and I expect the same towards me. While there are lots of people on KTC that think we should be nice to cavers and hope they going to get it together, its a life worth saving, blah blah fucking blah.... Not on my watch, not in this room. I don't give a fuck if cavers start crying and never come back again. There are lots of places that can help you quit, and this is not a place for liars. That's what a caver is to me. A piece of shit liar.

After gaining an understanding of what it means to be here, and be a part of this group, to understand what a gift this place gives you, and how much energy we have all expended on each other- to throw that away is such an outrageous betrayal, and a show of such disrespect for everyone here, I would find it unforgivable.

I wrote a much longer and gnarlier post for you, but I deleted the second half. I'm not sure if you're ready for that yet. What you are ready for is to hear that you are in the right place, and we support you. So let's just forget about caving. Take that option off the table every morning with a roll post, honor your word, and sit around with us in here laughing, and kicking ass. I am so grateful you are here, because before you showed up, the only flirting was painfully awkward shit between Krusty and Doc.

AJK -

You want to know why this is so difficult? Why it hurts -- physically, psychologically, and emotionally -- to get through a few minutes, much less 24 hours?

Because you're getting clean. Gradually releasing decades of toxic build-up in your body  mind. You're healing, and it's going to require determination. Every. Fucking. Day.

The good news -- and there's a lot of it, but let's keep it simple for now -- is that this is not a complicated process. It's totally binary, and it's already second-nature for you: you wake up in the morning, and by posting roll (and, even better, hanging out in here for awhile), you've made your decision for the day to keep your word to all of us, but more importantly, to yourself. This is YOUR quit, and a direct reflection on your self-image and sense of self-worth. If you can trust a bunch of strangers (emphasis on strange) from the world wide interweb to give you advice on beating a nicotine addiction, then you sure as shit can look yourself in the eye each morning and say "I got this."

I generally hate running, because it's easy to fall out of shape pretty quickly, and the full-body stiffness that has to be endured to get back to "neutral" sucks donkey schlong. That being said, once you're in shape and running regularly, the physical misery is nearly non-existent, or at least much more manageable than the first few days.

My advice to you: keep doing what you're doing, and you won't have to suck donkey schlong.

And, for the record, Lipi's right: before you started sauntering into Mayhem on a daily basis, I could religiously expect late-night texts from Lipi, meekly asking for a goodnight story about puppies and dolphins. Now I can snuggle with wifey's mammaries without my phone lighting up from "Mr Liz". For that, I thank you.

Oh little Amy JO... Be careful in your assessment that you have the same faults as everyone who has caved.... because they caved, you did not.

You asked last night some about my join date on KTC... Yes, I am here as a caver, a retread. As we talked about last night, I was about 200 days when I caved back in '08. The difference between that cave and my current quit... 1) Being active on the site and exchanging digits. Its all about building that net of support around you. 2) (atleast for me) I had to completely close the door. In '08 it was always one day at a time and found myself constantly fantasizing about dip. No more. Tobacco will kill you if you continue to use it. I finally got that when my dad was diagnosed last September with Pancreatic cancer (from dipping). I have chosen to keep my addict self alive for my two wonderful boys. I can't stand the thought of me killing myself with worm shit over spending a long life being here for my boys.

That is what works for me... You are in that weird place where you don't really know what will work for you... At this point in quit it is all mental. You can choose to battle daily with the nic bitch in your brain, or just ignore her completely... I have gotten really good at ignoring women selectively.

As far as accountability.... Yes it is hard sometimes but we must demand that people honor their word. At the end of the day that is all we have here. You bet your ass if I ever did consider taking a pinch all my mayhem brothers, yourself, and Smeds would all go thru my mind a keep me honest. I do not want to dishonor my word to any of you guys (gal).

You have to stay quit... This place needs a woman's touch to keep this bunch of sausage in check!

Amy Jo - If I'm you, I would cut/paste this string into your intro. Good quit wisdom throughout! You're in the right place hanging with the right guys. Mayhem is the extreme part of KTC. That's why I identify with them as well. My mom always told me to hang out with peeps you want to be like. Good advice. Don't for a second begin to entertain any notion of you being weak. That person is gone. You are quit. You said that day 1 when you tossed it. You got through yesterday. Now get through today. Eventually you'll see it does get better.

The other thing that keeps me going is regret. You said it as well in your initial post. It would be hard to come back to KTC and post a day 1. But it would be a mother fucker to have to look in the mirror. Stay quit. You got this.

This fucking rocks....and I have nothing of value to add other than to paste MonsterEMT's comment from yesterday in here since for me - it sums shit up perfectly...

Life is hard. Shit happens. I've been through hardship since I've been quit. So has Tyler. So have numerous other people. You know how people got through it? Brotherhood and accountability. Period.

That isn't to imply that currently your "life is hard and shit happens" but you can insert whateverthefuck you want before the question Monster asks and the answer provided remains the same.

You gotta push through these periods of self doubt missy and realize that you are winning and you are in fact, a bad ass quitter who IS getting it done.

AJK - Hang in there. You are in awesome company here and you're doing all the right things. Finding badasses and surrounding yourself with that will have a great and positive impact. It's honestly the only way to get through it. This stuff you are going through - first, it's normal. You'll have more times like that, but just take it one day at a time. That's not just a catchy phrase, it's important. Thinking about quitting forever scares me and will send me right back to the can.

Gheyhem, AJK's post today made me smile greatly thinking that what you guys are doing, is having a positive impact. Your antics will only attract the badasses of quit. Tip of the hat to you.

Back to you AJK - one of the secret weapons in the fight against nicotine is the Mayhem FAP. These guys are the captains of fap, fapping themselves constantly at their rhetorical brilliance, their unsurpassed intelligence, their scientific mastery of gordonian physics, being badasses of quit, sucking at fantasy football and just in general whenever they fell like it. So go rub one out early and often. If there is any doubt, always Fap drop and roll.

WINNING!

[AJK]

My thoughts for this Thursday night.

It's been a rough night for me. I will be so grateful for when I am past this very strange stage I'm in right now. I've not been Nicotine free for over 30 years, and i honestly don't know what it's like to not feel under the influence of something or other. I should probably be posting this in my intro, but know I will get more support here, from you all who have welcomed me like a lost puppy dog.

I have been doing much reconnaissance, reading until my eyes won't stay open. Reading the beginnings of all the current months, intros, and histories of many of you. I am gathering information and asking questions. I am comparing my situation and analyzing how I can do things different than those who have gone before me and caved. In reality, I can't compare. I have the same faults and difficulties as everyone who has failed. I honestly wondered how I can possibly succeed at this endeavor, until there was you guys. It's the only thing that right now is keeping me from walking 20 steps and dipping into my husband's stash. You guys scare the crap out of me, and what I would have to endure if I failed. I hope to never fall from your favor, because in this short time I have come to feel a kindred spirit with this group. Thanks for having me here, wish I could hug each and every one of you. Please help me by continuing your support, humoring me, and generally adopting me in your mayhemness which is pure awesomeness.

Xo
Amyjo
day 25

Amyjo,

That is the exact point. That is accountability. That is why we all stay quit. It is a part of the reason we rant and rave at cavers, because it strengthens our quits. Can you imagine the hell that would rain down on Lipi if he ever caved? My god it would be a bloodbath. I'm am fairly certain that just about nobody would talk to him here in May. That is an extra layer of quit right there that is almost as strong to me as honoring my word. Proud to have adopted you AJK.

Matt
249

Amy - you are dealing with what I thought was the hardest part of quitting. You are in uncharted waters I'm that you have never been quit this long, you are having foggy days and aren't quite sure what to do with your hands (insert YouTube video of Ricky Bobby). The days get better and easier. In the next 30 days you will suddenly realize that you are really quit. That will scare the shit out of you and please you in a way you never thought possible (that could be a good joke....). This group is a good place to learn a brand of quitting for the hard of hearts. It's hard, but there is no going back. We got to that place by going at it odaat. At some point, the thought of more than today will be doable. Just stick to day by day here and stay quit.

Also, check out my intro. I did a decent job of posting my weekly updated through hof.

Pope 252 (fucking a, over 250 days quit....Thanks guys)

Amy- I don't like to see you hurting, and I know that quitting is hard. I can't believe I did it sometimes.
But looking back now, there is obviously not a single guy in here who regrets going through it.
Just think about that. 100% of the people you have met in Mayhem not only made it through exactly what you are going through, we are all 100% sure that we made the right decision. How do you know that? Because we're still here.

A while ago I made a promise to everyone in Mayhem that if they caved, I would fucking destroy them, and I expect the same towards me. While there are lots of people on KTC that think we should be nice to cavers and hope they going to get it together, its a life worth saving, blah blah fucking blah.... Not on my watch, not in this room. I don't give a fuck if cavers start crying and never come back again. There are lots of places that can help you quit, and this is not a place for liars. That's what a caver is to me. A piece of shit liar.

After gaining an understanding of what it means to be here, and be a part of this group, to understand what a gift this place gives you, and how much energy we have all expended on each other- to throw that away is such an outrageous betrayal, and a show of such disrespect for everyone here, I would find it unforgivable.

I wrote a much longer and gnarlier post for you, but I deleted the second half. I'm not sure if you're ready for that yet. What you are ready for is to hear that you are in the right place, and we support you. So let's just forget about caving. Take that option off the table every morning with a roll post, honor your word, and sit around with us in here laughing, and kicking ass. I am so grateful you are here, because before you showed up, the only flirting was painfully awkward shit between Krusty and Doc.

AJK -

You want to know why this is so difficult? Why it hurts -- physically, psychologically, and emotionally -- to get through a few minutes, much less 24 hours?

Because you're getting clean. Gradually releasing decades of toxic build-up in your body  mind. You're healing, and it's going to require determination. Every. Fucking. Day.

The good news -- and there's a lot of it, but let's keep it simple for now -- is that this is not a complicated process. It's totally binary, and it's already second-nature for you: you wake up in the morning, and by posting roll (and, even better, hanging out in here for awhile), you've made your decision for the day to keep your word to all of us, but more importantly, to yourself. This is YOUR quit, and a direct reflection on your self-image and sense of self-worth. If you can trust a bunch of strangers (emphasis on strange) from the world wide interweb to give you advice on beating a nicotine addiction, then you sure as shit can look yourself in the eye each morning and say "I got this."

I generally hate running, because it's easy to fall out of shape pretty quickly, and the full-body stiffness that has to be endured to get back to "neutral" sucks donkey schlong. That being said, once you're in shape and running regularly, the physical misery is nearly non-existent, or at least much more manageable than the first few days.

My advice to you: keep doing what you're doing, and you won't have to suck donkey schlong.

And, for the record, Lipi's right: before you started sauntering into Mayhem on a daily basis, I could religiously expect late-night texts from Lipi, meekly asking for a goodnight story about puppies and dolphins. Now I can snuggle with wifey's mammaries without my phone lighting up from "Mr Liz". For that, I thank you.

Oh little Amy JO... Be careful in your assessment that you have the same faults as everyone who has caved.... because they caved, you did not.

You asked last night some about my join date on KTC... Yes, I am here as a caver, a retread. As we talked about last night, I was about 200 days when I caved back in '08. The difference between that cave and my current quit... 1) Being active on the site and exchanging digits. Its all about building that net of support around you. 2) (atleast for me) I had to completely close the door. In '08 it was always one day at a time and found myself constantly fantasizing about dip. No more. Tobacco will kill you if you continue to use it. I finally got that when my dad was diagnosed last September with Pancreatic cancer (from dipping). I have chosen to keep my addict self alive for my two wonderful boys. I can't stand the thought of me killing myself with worm shit over spending a long life being here for my boys.

That is what works for me... You are in that weird place where you don't really know what will work for you... At this point in quit it is all mental. You can choose to battle daily with the nic bitch in your brain, or just ignore her completely... I have gotten really good at ignoring women selectively.

As far as accountability.... Yes it is hard sometimes but we must demand that people honor their word. At the end of the day that is all we have here. You bet your ass if I ever did consider taking a pinch all my mayhem brothers, yourself, and Smeds would all go thru my mind a keep me honest. I do not want to dishonor my word to any of you guys (gal).

You have to stay quit... This place needs a woman's touch to keep this bunch of sausage in check!

Amy Jo - If I'm you, I would cut/paste this string into your intro. Good quit wisdom throughout! You're in the right place hanging with the right guys. Mayhem is the extreme part of KTC. That's why I identify with them as well. My mom always told me to hang out with peeps you want to be like. Good advice. Don't for a second begin to entertain any notion of you being weak. That person is gone. You are quit. You said that day 1 when you tossed it. You got through yesterday. Now get through today. Eventually you'll see it does get better.

The other thing that keeps me going is regret. You said it as well in your initial post. It would be hard to come back to KTC and post a day 1. But it would be a mother fucker to have to look in the mirror. Stay quit. You got this.

[Thumblewort]

Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.

Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!

Girl Power :)

It's raining too hard to meet today, I'd melt and get swept into Lake Michigan. Hang tough Amy, I'll buy a pizza for us soon.

Hey have you tried the Pizza at the Filling Station?

Are you in the buildings just south of the library?

Pizza and Quit talk...You guys are lucky!
Quit on!

Some quit talk, some Human Centipede talk, and my billing rate is $125 an hour. I have not had that pizza, and yes, I can hit a 7 iron to the library from here, and throw a golf ball into Boardman Lake.

Hey, we can watch the homeless dudes deal drugs for lunch, that always makes me smile!

[30isEnuff]

Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.

Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!

Girl Power :)

It's raining too hard to meet today, I'd melt and get swept into Lake Michigan. Hang tough Amy, I'll buy a pizza for us soon.

Hey have you tried the Pizza at the Filling Station?

Are you in the buildings just south of the library?

Pizza and Quit talk...You guys are lucky!
Quit on!

[AJK]

And THANK YOU Ginet! 3

[AJK]

Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.

Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!

Girl Power :)

It's raining too hard to meet today, I'd melt and get swept into Lake Michigan. Hang tough Amy, I'll buy a pizza for us soon.

Hey have you tried the Pizza at the Filling Station?

Are you in the buildings just south of the library?

[Cindy]

Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.

The blah means you're winning. Don't let it get you down.

[Thumblewort]

Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.

Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!

Girl Power :)

It's raining too hard to meet today, I'd melt and get swept into Lake Michigan. Hang tough Amy, I'll buy a pizza for us soon.

[Ginet]

Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.

Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!

Girl Power :)

[AJK]

Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.

[AJK]

Is that an axe you are holding in your FB pic?

Chainsaw baby! LOL

[Thumblewort]

Is that an axe you are holding in your FB pic?

Amy - Be careful, I used to live there too and had to move because of Thumble. 'no'

Someone had to take the rap for the dead mule bro, and it wasn't gonna be me..........

[Done4Me]

Is that an axe you are holding in your FB pic?

Amy - Be careful, I used to live there too and had to move because of Thumble. 'no'

[Thumblewort]

Is that an axe you are holding in your FB pic?