Where do I begin?
I have been chewing since I was about ummm 17. I am now 32, with a wife and 3 kids. I think I am finally ready to do this for real. I quit chewing back in the 90Â’s once or twiceÂ…but it never lasted. I am done with running to the store, done with freaking out when I canÂ’t find my can in the house, done with not sleeping at night, done feeling depressed, done with worrying myself sick about cancer, done with being dehydrated, done with hiding spit bottles on a plane ride, etc, etc, etc.
In my mind right now It is like a race trackÂ…thoughts of quitting and thoughts of not quitting, thoughts of failing, thoughts, thoughts, thoughtsÂ….man I feel like a junky on drugs. In fact I am spitting in a coffee cup at my desk at work and it smells horribleÂ….done with that too. I am sitting here typing and just trying to fire myself up enough to ditch this can at midnight tonight and never look back. I donÂ’t want this crutch in my life anymore.
Ok – I am done rambling like an idiot. Thanks for reading folks. I am actually a very normal person …this addiction is just f-ing with my head and I want it gone. I think I am going to drop the can tonight at midnight.
Any suggestions, words of wisdom folks?