End of day five and I survived another 4 hour drive. Glad I stumbled onto ktc because the support and accountability has already made a difference. For those who have reached out and those part of my August quit group I will give a bit more on who I'm because I plan on being here for a long time.
My parents were both teachers at a boarding school and as a result i started dipping early. First dip was skoal wintergreen. Slowly moved to Kodiak and remember by sophomore summer legion ball I was fully committed. Continued into college Ball with a back and forth the between cope and the bear. 25 years later a wife , son, and two daughters multiple "quits" with nicorette and I finally came to the realization that not only could I live without her but nicotine has never given only taken.
All ready 5 days? You are 5 and 0 with the nic bitch. To remain undefeated, only focus and only worry about the match you are in. Tomorrow's match doesn't matter until you win today.
BTW. Making it 5 days is huge! The physical battle is tough. Now your brain has a long period of rewireing. You have fogs, funks, constipation and triggers. It gets easier but you won't feel normal or better. You can handle it. You are mentally healing. You will have some surprisingly good days but some tough days too. That's what we are here for. When its tough, get a lifeline.
In short enjoy the experience just dismiss the nic bitch. Don't entertain her, just say, not now, not today. If you can't seem to dismiss her, pm for backup.
GbPid, stay focused but love the victories! The more you have, the more you want. Each quit day and you will feel more and more confident that you are quit. I'm here for you anytime! Anyone at kTC is here for you.
Keep writing. Helps me get to know you better.
