Day One

[aabye1]

Thanks kdip!

Gotta admit, i'm getting hit pretty hard today. A ton of anxiety, panic attacks, etc. I tend to be a bit of a hypochondriac (the irony of putting cancer causing substances into my lip is not lost on me), and today is bad. I keep thinking i'm going to die, that I already have cancer, etc. Even though there is nothing in my mouth.

Ugh, not fun.

BUT, as horrible as it is, it is also pissing me off. Pissing me off that I did damage to my body for so long, pissing me off that I waited until now to quit, pissing me off that I didn't get pissed off sooner!!!

The pissed is giving the quit strengh. I'll take it. I can't wait to post roll call tomorrow morning!

[Kdip]

Thanks for the support everyone.  Day 2 is done.  16 hours at work.  Would have normally been a two can day.  Today, it was a no can day.  The quit is alive and kicking.

Just make sure you bring your ass back here tomorrow and make it day 3 !!!

Nice work abbye1!!!! tomorrow will be the last day you will have nic in your system!!!! We will see you post tomorrow on Day 3!!!

[Greg5280]

Thanks for the support everyone. Day 2 is done. 16 hours at work. Would have normally been a two can day. Today, it was a no can day. The quit is alive and kicking.

Just make sure you bring your ass back here tomorrow and make it day 3 !!!

[aabye1]

Thanks for the support everyone. Day 2 is done. 16 hours at work. Would have normally been a two can day. Today, it was a no can day. The quit is alive and kicking.

[Greg5280]

Good evening,

This morning I settled into my desk at work, put in my first ritual dip, grabbed my coffee, and settled into my chair to spend my first hard earned hour... browsing the internet.  Then something struck me funny... "why the hell am I doing this?".  I hate it, I hate the taste, I hate the cost, I hate the constant worry and fear everytime I get a sore in my mouth, and most of all, I hate the fact that my lovely wife of three years doesn't know I do it.  Talk about being a liar. 

So I said that's it.  Took my six dollar can out to the dumpster (where I couldn't go and dig it out in an hour) and told myself this quit is "The Quit".

Now, like many here (from what I can tell, anyways, I just found this site about five minutes after I got back from the dumpster) I have attempted to quit before.  Always fear. Fear of the C.  Fear of the gum disease, fear of getting caught. 

Fear never worked.

But it clicked this morning, and I pray it sticks.  It's not fear.  It's love.  I love my life.  I love my wife.  I want to love the children we hope to have for as long as possible. 

Day 1 of the rest of my life.

Well I just want to say welcome aabye1, you're in the right place. It may sound strange, but if you need to talk to anyone just message me and I'll gladly respond. I know what its like and I'm still dealing with it everyday. And in response to the praying, I'd say go for it, you can use all the help you can get. It sounds like your finally being honest with yourself. And let me just saying honesty for me is one of my top priorities because if I don't tell someone that I'm thinking about dipping, I'm setting myself up for a relapse. Sharing on this website is extremely important to me and all of us. Once again, Welcome.


- gregggg

Welcome to the site. It is going to be hard but well worth it.

I will tell you like I tell every newbie that shows up in here. READ, READ, READ. Knowing what is coming and what to expect is huge.

Settle in and lets get this shit done.

[Gregggg]

Good evening,

This morning I settled into my desk at work, put in my first ritual dip, grabbed my coffee, and settled into my chair to spend my first hard earned hour... browsing the internet. Then something struck me funny... "why the hell am I doing this?". I hate it, I hate the taste, I hate the cost, I hate the constant worry and fear everytime I get a sore in my mouth, and most of all, I hate the fact that my lovely wife of three years doesn't know I do it. Talk about being a liar.

So I said that's it. Took my six dollar can out to the dumpster (where I couldn't go and dig it out in an hour) and told myself this quit is "The Quit".

Now, like many here (from what I can tell, anyways, I just found this site about five minutes after I got back from the dumpster) I have attempted to quit before. Always fear. Fear of the C. Fear of the gum disease, fear of getting caught.

Fear never worked.

But it clicked this morning, and I pray it sticks. It's not fear. It's love. I love my life. I love my wife. I want to love the children we hope to have for as long as possible.

Day 1 of the rest of my life.

Well I just want to say welcome aabye1, you're in the right place. It may sound strange, but if you need to talk to anyone just message me and I'll gladly respond. I know what its like and I'm still dealing with it everyday. And in response to the praying, I'd say go for it, you can use all the help you can get. It sounds like your finally being honest with yourself. And let me just saying honesty for me is one of my top priorities because if I don't tell someone that I'm thinking about dipping, I'm setting myself up for a relapse. Sharing on this website is extremely important to me and all of us. Once again, Welcome.


- gregggg

[kevinsravens]

Good evening,

This morning I settled into my desk at work, put in my first ritual dip, grabbed my coffee, and settled into my chair to spend my first hard earned hour... browsing the internet. Then something struck me funny... "why the hell am I doing this?". I hate it, I hate the taste, I hate the cost, I hate the constant worry and fear everytime I get a sore in my mouth, and most of all, I hate the fact that my lovely wife of three years doesn't know I do it. Talk about being a liar.

So I said that's it. Took my six dollar can out to the dumpster (where I couldn't go and dig it out in an hour) and told myself this quit is "The Quit".

Now, like many here (from what I can tell, anyways, I just found this site about five minutes after I got back from the dumpster) I have attempted to quit before. Always fear. Fear of the C. Fear of the gum disease, fear of getting caught.

Fear never worked.

But it clicked this morning, and I pray it sticks. It's not fear. It's love. I love my life. I love my wife. I want to love the children we hope to have for as long as possible.

Day 1 of the rest of my life.

I don't know about all the praying and what not . . but congrats on the quit.

In 3 days the worst will be behind you. . . and as long as you never dip again, you won't ever have to go through these days.

so click here and post a day 1 in roll call in your quit group . . . October 2010 HOF Class

index.php?showtopic=3519

congrats and welcome abord . . one day at a time it really adds up . . .
KR - 886 Days

[aabye1]

Good evening,

This morning I settled into my desk at work, put in my first ritual dip, grabbed my coffee, and settled into my chair to spend my first hard earned hour... browsing the internet. Then something struck me funny... "why the hell am I doing this?". I hate it, I hate the taste, I hate the cost, I hate the constant worry and fear everytime I get a sore in my mouth, and most of all, I hate the fact that my lovely wife of three years doesn't know I do it. Talk about being a liar.

So I said that's it. Took my six dollar can out to the dumpster (where I couldn't go and dig it out in an hour) and told myself this quit is "The Quit".

Now, like many here (from what I can tell, anyways, I just found this site about five minutes after I got back from the dumpster) I have attempted to quit before. Always fear. Fear of the C. Fear of the gum disease, fear of getting caught.

Fear never worked.

But it clicked this morning, and I pray it sticks. It's not fear. It's love. I love my life. I love my wife. I want to love the children we hope to have for as long as possible.

Day 1 of the rest of my life.