Better late than never

[cycleman]

I've been tested this week for sure. I'm nearing the end of the 80's and for some reason i have had some fairly intense craves this week. The strange thing is that during the first couple of weeks when the craves hit, it was clear that i was craving a big fat dip. I could almost visualize and taste it....squeezing out 1/4 of a can and shoving it in my pie hole.

The difference this week is that the craves are random and a bit intense, but i'm not wanting to shove a dip in my mouth. in fact the thought of a dip actually sounds terrible, almost nauseating....however the crave/buzzing feeling is still there. It's almost like an itch that you can't scratch. Very strange.

I envision the nic bitch, laying on the ground...half beaten and scarred...making a last ditch swipe at me but just does not have the same strength that she used too. Still able to inflict some pain...just not as much as she used too.

I love it...i feel like i am winning the battle!

[BrianG]

Glad to quit with you Cycleman. We have similar stories. This is it, we are quit!!!

[cycleman]

I figured it was about fricken time i came in here and wrote an intro. Maybe part of me was procrastinating....thinking this would just be another one of my failed attempts at quitting, only to be re-shackled to the nic bitch, stronger than the last time. Well, i have made it 86 days and this times for real....thanks to the great support of my fellow quitters her at KTC

It all started for me back when i was 15, playing soccer and wrestling in middle school in Eastern PA. I knew that smoking was not cool for a jock but a few of my fellow soccer buddies were dipping skoal. I was offered Skoal and so i decided to give it a go......it turned into a train wreck, within 5 minutes i was puking.

Why in Gods name i did not stop there and never touch the crap again, is beyond me. Fast forward 6 months later, and i was living in Houston Texas (my dad got transferred with his job) . Now that i was in Texas, it seemed like everyone dipped. My uncle, who lived in Texas thought it would be a good idea to give the 16 year old some Redman leaf....and that is where the addiction started. Switched to Cope shortly after and used that for about 8 years, until i transitioned to Kodiak. Finally at age 50, new years eve 2016, after 34 years of this damn addiction, i stumbled across the KTC site while planning ANOTHER new years resolution of quit.

Thanks to all you supporters, brother and sisters of quit, friends, accountability partners etc.....you are the ones that have helped me through the darkness and into the light. I can honestly say that this time is for good, however, i am still taking it just one day at a time.

Thanks KTC