All addicts are liars...

[DirtyHarry10]

I didn't see you in roll call. What's it going to be?

Own your addiction, then post roll and start to own your quit. I'll own it with you.

[E&C's Dad]

My Father told me about a year ago that all addicts are liars. It was in reference to a close family member who was wrestling with a drug addiction. He didn't know then, and he doesn't know now that I'm addicted to cope, but I was struck hard that night with the realization that I lie and scheme 24/7 in order to get my fix. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of my teeth hurting when I drink hot or cold fluids because my gum lines have receded so much. I'm sick of looking at my mouth in the rear view mirror and wondering if I'd be able to tell if I had cancer. I'm sick of wasting evening after evening waiting for my beautiful, loving, wife to go to bed so I can sneak out and by dip.

I'm worried because I feel like my story is a little atypical. I don't do a can every two days. It's not uncommon for me to go a whole three or four days, sometimes even a week without a lip in. But I binge. I'll go through a whole can of cope in two hours, six pouches at a time, and then I'll drive right back to the gas station and buy another can. If I'm super busy or traveling and I can't dip, sometimes I don't even miss it. But the minute I try to relax or unwind, I get antsy. I've convinced myself many times that I'm not addicted after I've gone a week with no dip. Then I'll allow myself one last dip. And you all know how that ends.

A small part of me deep down inside doesn't even want to quit. I want to be free for a hundred days so that I can claim the chains of bondage can be broken, and then I'll have an occasional dip once a month or so. You know, in a controlled manner. I'm fighting to kill that desire even now, on day one. I think I'll start strong. My issues are going to come one week in when I start to tell myself, "see? You were never really that addicted. Just go ahead and have one can a month. You've got it all under control now." This is going to be rough.

You are such a fucking liar read the third paragraph you wrote again it makes me want to choke a puppy. You are addicted there is no fucking chains that are magically broken after 100 or 1000 days. One is too many and two is never enough. There is no can a month you fucking addict. You better check your fucking gut before you post roll in these sacred halls.

Its simple here Post Roll Everyday honor your word and be a man of honesty and integrity

just what we needed another special butterfly

[Thumblewort]

Hey now fellas, he's right. I stopped once for 8 months, then bought a can for my bachelor party, and it only took me 11 years to put it down. That counts right?

Do you see how stupid that sentence reads? I am a nicotine addict, if I use just ONCE I may never stop. Are you a nicotine addict?

[copingwithoutcopen]

Welcome Semi! You're Dad was right. This is a battle we win daily.

[FMBM707]

Nicotine is a drug, it is scientifically proven to be addictive.

Either your QUIT or you're not. It's a matter of making a choice every day and only you can make that choice.

If you STOP for a 100 days it only proves you can stop, it doesn't mean you can QUIT. Being a former 'stopper' myself what I found out was when you go back you will dip more than you did before the stop- maybe not right away but it'll happen. It's called the Law of addiction. Read this: http://www.killthecan.org//?s=law+of+addiction

There are a lot of great people on here willing to help, provide support, but YOU are the only person that can make your QUIT happen.

Admit to the addiction. It's difficult to do, understanding that reality will strengthen a QUIT.

I'm in your October group, if you are serious about QUITTING PM me and I'd be happy to provide you with my number.

[AppleJack]

Yeah... I coulda wrote that too.

The longer you're here you'll realize you story is not atypical though. We've all been that guy to varying degrees.

Like Waste said above... Today. That's all you have to worry about. Not a week... Not a month... Not 100 days. Just today bro. Trust me... It works. I've done it for 463 days. It's a drop in the bucket after using for 25 years but that's ok. I win... Every day.

You can too. Own it...

[Derk40]

My Father told me about a year ago that all addicts are liars. It was in reference to a close family member who was wrestling with a drug addiction. He didn't know then, and he doesn't know now that I'm addicted to cope, but I was struck hard that night with the realization that I lie and scheme 24/7 in order to get my fix. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of my teeth hurting when I drink hot or cold fluids because my gum lines have receded so much. I'm sick of looking at my mouth in the rear view mirror and wondering if I'd be able to tell if I had cancer. I'm sick of wasting evening after evening waiting for my beautiful, loving, wife to go to bed so I can sneak out and by dip.

I'm worried because I feel like my story is a little atypical. I don't do a can every two days. It's not uncommon for me to go a whole three or four days, sometimes even a week without a lip in. But I binge. I'll go through a whole can of cope in two hours, six pouches at a time, and then I'll drive right back to the gas station and buy another can. If I'm super busy or traveling and I can't dip, sometimes I don't even miss it. But the minute I try to relax or unwind, I get antsy. I've convinced myself many times that I'm not addicted after I've gone a week with no dip. Then I'll allow myself one last dip. And you all know how that ends.

A small part of me deep down inside doesn't even want to quit. I want to be free for a hundred days so that I can claim the chains of bondage can be broken, and then I'll have an occasional dip once a month or so. You know, in a controlled manner. I'm fighting to kill that desire even now, on day one. I think I'll start strong. My issues are going to come one week in when I start to tell myself, "see? You were never really that addicted. Just go ahead and have one can a month. You've got it all under control now." This is going to be rough.

I read your first 2 paragraphs and I was feeling it. Then paragraph 3.... You better figure out if you want to quit bud. If deep down you don't want to quit then You WILL fail. Period. You are an addict. Your story is not atypical. You sound a lot like me in some ways. I dipped 25 years and would have bouts of time where I didn't dip. I'd go a week here or week there. Then would plow thru 15 cans of Copenhagen on a 3 day business trip. That is a lot of cope and I was a disaster back then.

Big difference between me and you though... I came here to quit. I have not used nicotine in 396 days. I can't have just 1 dip on occasion. As an addict we can't do that.

Figure out if you want this. Otherwise you are wasting your time and our time.

[wastepanel]

My Father told me about a year ago that all addicts are liars. It was in reference to a close family member who was wrestling with a drug addiction. He didn't know then, and he doesn't know now that I'm addicted to cope, but I was struck hard that night with the realization that I lie and scheme 24/7 in order to get my fix. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of my teeth hurting when I drink hot or cold fluids because my gum lines have receded so much. I'm sick of looking at my mouth in the rear view mirror and wondering if I'd be able to tell if I had cancer. I'm sick of wasting evening after evening waiting for my beautiful, loving, wife to go to bed so I can sneak out and by dip.

I'm worried because I feel like my story is a little atypical. I don't do a can every two days. It's not uncommon for me to go a whole three or four days, sometimes even a week without a lip in. But I binge. I'll go through a whole can of cope in two hours, six pouches at a time, and then I'll drive right back to the gas station and buy another can. If I'm super busy or traveling and I can't dip, sometimes I don't even miss it. But the minute I try to relax or unwind, I get antsy. I've convinced myself many times that I'm not addicted after I've gone a week with no dip. Then I'll allow myself one last dip. And you all know how that ends.

A small part of me deep down inside doesn't even want to quit. I want to be free for a hundred days so that I can claim the chains of bondage can be broken, and then I'll have an occasional dip once a month or so. You know, in a controlled manner. I'm fighting to kill that desire even now, on day one. I think I'll start strong. My issues are going to come one week in when I start to tell myself, "see? You were never really that addicted. Just go ahead and have one can a month. You've got it all under control now." This is going to be rough.

Today.

Today.

We quit for today.

Doesn't matter how awesome you are...you can't quit 100 days in just 1. Quit for today.

[Seminole]

UPDATE: I caved. See post at bottom.

My Father told me about a year ago that all addicts are liars. It was in reference to a close family member who was wrestling with a drug addiction. He didn't know then, and he doesn't know now that I'm addicted to cope, but I was struck hard that night with the realization that I lie and scheme 24/7 in order to get my fix. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of my teeth hurting when I drink hot or cold fluids because my gum lines have receded so much. I'm sick of looking at my mouth in the rear view mirror and wondering if I'd be able to tell if I had cancer. I'm sick of wasting evening after evening waiting for my beautiful, loving, wife to go to bed so I can sneak out and by dip.

I'm worried because I feel like my story is a little atypical. I don't do a can every two days. It's not uncommon for me to go a whole three or four days, sometimes even a week without a lip in. But I binge. I'll go through a whole can of cope in two hours, six pouches at a time, and then I'll drive right back to the gas station and buy another can. If I'm super busy or traveling and I can't dip, sometimes I don't even miss it. But the minute I try to relax or unwind, I get antsy. I've convinced myself many times that I'm not addicted after I've gone a week with no dip. Then I'll allow myself one last dip. And you all know how that ends.

A small part of me deep down inside doesn't even want to quit. I want to be free for a hundred days so that I can claim the chains of bondage can be broken, and then I'll have an occasional dip once a month or so. You know, in a controlled manner. I'm fighting to kill that desire even now, on day one. I think I'll start strong. My issues are going to come one week in when I start to tell myself, "see? You were never really that addicted. Just go ahead and have one can a month. You've got it all under control now." This is going to be rough.