Don't shoot, it's just me!

[elkhills]

Congrats on the true hundo. Nice first step.

Thank you, sir.

And thanks for the love. Tough love, dealt out by a dickhead maybe, but still... YOOOO- OO- OO LOOOOOOOOOOVE ME!!!

XOXOXOX
3 3 3 3 3

:)

[loot]

Cuts LOOT...cuts LOOT deep.

Congrats on the true hundo. Nice first step.

[elkhills]

Day 104.

Fuck you LOOT.

That is all.



:)

[loot]

*LOOT pulls up a chair and gets good and comfy*

The next update should be on Day 100...tomorrow.

This should be good. Been a while since LOOT got a big ol FU in a HOF speech.

[Radman]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

Sounds like life to me.

Way to reach for the baac off and not the real shit. Way to stay quit. Do whatever it takes.

Badass. Ipods suck anyway.

Proud to be quit with you today.

J2B: you aren't still kicking it with an 8-track, are you?

Seriously, though: nice way to use the tools, Elkhills. Glad to be quit with you.

Nope. I got a record player.

How do you download tunes to that thing? 'crackup'

Rolling down the street in my 64....

with all the bitches singing Let me Ride

You damn right it was a good day.

Sittin here bobbing my head like a fool. Co-workers think I've lost it. B)

[J2b]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

Sounds like life to me.

Way to reach for the baac off and not the real shit. Way to stay quit. Do whatever it takes.

Badass. Ipods suck anyway.

Proud to be quit with you today.

J2B: you aren't still kicking it with an 8-track, are you?

Seriously, though: nice way to use the tools, Elkhills. Glad to be quit with you.

Nope. I got a record player.

How do you download tunes to that thing? 'crackup'

Rolling down the street in my 64....

with all the bitches singing Let me Ride

[razz]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

Sounds like life to me.

Way to reach for the baac off and not the real shit. Way to stay quit. Do whatever it takes.

Badass. Ipods suck anyway.

Proud to be quit with you today.

J2B: you aren't still kicking it with an 8-track, are you?

Seriously, though: nice way to use the tools, Elkhills. Glad to be quit with you.

Nope. I got a record player.

How do you download tunes to that thing? 'crackup'

Rolling down the street in my 64....

[Radman]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

Sounds like life to me.

Way to reach for the baac off and not the real shit. Way to stay quit. Do whatever it takes.

Badass. Ipods suck anyway.

Proud to be quit with you today.

J2B: you aren't still kicking it with an 8-track, are you?

Seriously, though: nice way to use the tools, Elkhills. Glad to be quit with you.

Nope. I got a record player.

How do you download tunes to that thing? 'crackup'

[J2b]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

Sounds like life to me.

Way to reach for the baac off and not the real shit. Way to stay quit. Do whatever it takes.

Badass. Ipods suck anyway.

Proud to be quit with you today.

J2B: you aren't still kicking it with an 8-track, are you?

Seriously, though: nice way to use the tools, Elkhills. Glad to be quit with you.

Nope. I got a record player.

[loot]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

Sounds like life to me.

Way to reach for the baac off and not the real shit. Way to stay quit. Do whatever it takes.

Badass. Ipods suck anyway.

Proud to be quit with you today.

You didn't cave you dooshbag. You used the tools at your disposal. Be pissed about the wife, the truck, the ipod, your back, the fact LOOT won't send you nekkid pics despite the fact you continue to stalk LOOT via PM, etc.

Be pissed at life, however, at this moment, on this board, be proud that you paid enough attention to NOT cave.

*LOOT stands and give a rousing one man ovation in honor of Elkhills this morning*

You made LOOTs day fag. Goo work.

[Nolaq]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

Sounds like life to me.

Way to reach for the baac off and not the real shit. Way to stay quit. Do whatever it takes.

Badass. Ipods suck anyway.

Proud to be quit with you today.

This is no cave. This is progress.

I still think you need to seriously look at some of your definitions. The reason I say that is, I see a things in what you post that may be setting you up for failure.

You call using back off a cave. It's just not. It's not even a failure, or a set back. It's a VICTORY!

You're still counting days you haven't used tobacco, and counting separate days you haven't used nicotine. Brother, understand your enemy. I get that you're proud and look at them both as a victory, but if you understood how using nicotine actually IS a cave, I think (just my opinion here) that this battle will be a little easier for you. Maybe not necessarily easier, but certainly more focused.

Again, just my opinion. I'm proud to quit with you today, ipod, or no ipod.

[Radman]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

Sounds like life to me.

Way to reach for the baac off and not the real shit. Way to stay quit. Do whatever it takes.

Badass. Ipods suck anyway.

Proud to be quit with you today.

J2B: you aren't still kicking it with an 8-track, are you?

Seriously, though: nice way to use the tools, Elkhills. Glad to be quit with you.

[J2b]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

Sounds like life to me.

Way to reach for the baac off and not the real shit. Way to stay quit. Do whatever it takes.

Badass. Ipods suck anyway.

Proud to be quit with you today.

[elkhills]

Caved tonight... kinda. First dip of Baac Off fake stuff in a long time. Just really pissed off right now and I don't really know why. Well, yeah I do- 23 nightshifts in a row. Lack of sleep. My back is killing me  I think its because of the 20+ lbs I've gained since quitting. Wife been lying to me about $$$. Ran my truck out of gas  wrapped my ipod cord in the seat mechanism somehow... anyway that's cut in two now. Just having a bad day I guess. Waaah poor me!

[elkhills]

Okay then, if Loot's done being mean to me I can return to documenting how awesome/fucked up I am.
Tobacco has not passed these lips for 68 days! I can hardly believe that number! After 20 plus years of enslavement I feel liberated- I honestly don't have nicotine cravings anymore. What I crave is the fake stuff. I know its weird but I think at this point its fair to say that I am addicted to the habit more than the drug. I guess after 20 odd years of ALWAYS having a dip in my lip I'm going to have to relearn what normal is. I was never a closet dipper, id do it right in front of anybody and all the time. If I was awake I had a dip inl and I work shift work which means I'm damn near always awake :) Today is day 3 without my Binky and I'm doing that one day at a time just like roll call. I won't use tobacco, nicotine or the fake stuff today.
My fucked up shrivelled bottom lip is now smooth and full. My gums are a nice healthy pink and don't hurt or bleed when I brush anymore, though they are still disturbingly thin and receded past the roots. All my teeth hurt much more than they did before I quit- dentist said the pH of tobacco spit is more inhospitable to bacteria and so actually can help prevent tooth decay in that way. Whatever, my front bottom teeth hurt and he won't touch them until I see an oral surgeon next month. He did tell me I have gum disease even on the sides of my mouth and bone loss where I dipped. Fuck.
Docs got me on prescription Wellbutrin which is really helping. If I have to stay on it forever then so be it, but I think maybe a year is more realistic.