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[Derk40]

I am finding that I have very short fuse with the general public.

Today, the lady handed me my coffee cup and the cup was sticky (from chocolate drizzle) and said "you will probably want to hold the cup with this napkin on it because I couldn't get all of the chocolate off" and SNAP, I'm pissed.  I hand it back to her and tell her, not ask her, for a new clean cup for my coffee.  My husband told me that "we are not THOSE people Ginet" 

Then, I had to stop at Walmart to get 8 things. 8 lousy things. One item was in the cosmetics area and a worker stops me to tell me that I need to pay for that item at the register in the cosmetics department that has now been set up in that section.  WTF????  I asked her to repeat that because I was sure I didn't hear correctly.  Yes, I needed to pay for the item in the cosmetics area.  I handed the item to her, asked her to hold it and I told her I would go get my other 7 items and then come back to pay for all of it. She told me "I'm not set up to ring up other items" to which I SNAPPED the reply "and I am not set up to pay at multiple registers in the same store!"

Wow.  I don't complain about my quit. I got myself into this shit and I get to deal with all of the shit that goes along with my quit.  I am NOT this Asshole of a Person.  What is going on.  I'd like to complain about my attitude!  Irritated.....

Hello Trollop,
I think we all get to snap, true we brought on our craves by starting with nic in the first place. But in certain situations we deserve out snaps. I have snapped at the coffee ladies/men. I remember a time I ordered a large coffee with 3 cream and 2 sugar, pretty simple right. I was given an extra large with 3 cream 2 sugar; I said I ordered a large. I was told so you got an extra large so your getting a deal, that is beside the point. I asked for a large, the girl proceeds to pour the extra large into a large cup, then gives it to me; here now you have a large.
I snapped no your not getting it I ordered a large, large. She doesn't get it, a large. I am sure most people would get it.
It is okay to snap in the right situation.

You will do this one day at at a time. You screwed your brain for years,, I say again YEARS!! I'll let you add the days up on your own. You'll probably need a calculator. I say that to say this,,, 26 days is just the beginning. I didn't begin feeling better until about 40 days in. Maybe you will be different though,, you never no. In time you will start to feel better and begin feeling somewhat normal. What is normal exactly!?!? Your guess is as good as mine.

There is a door you need to get to. This door is hard to get to and open. I can't tell you how far the door is or how long it will be before you get to this door. Keep your head pointed forward and make your way to the door. Nothing in back of you but a smelly good for nothing can of poison. Life is so much better without the poison. Glad to be quit with you.

In time you'll begin dealing with individuals with a better and new you. You'll be surprised with the new you. The new you will handle people and situations better than ever. Give it time ginet. You got this. Quit with you today.

It will take time. Hang in there.

Most people don't even realize they are acting like a jerk... you at least recognize that you have an issue. That is 90% of the battle. Knowing that -- you can take steps to fix it.

Early on, I found that I needed to really concentrate on my behavior around my family and out in public. I had to slow things down and breathe a lot when confronted with stressful scenarios. I also had to count to 10 a lot. Get on the site to vent, or reach out to folks via txt to vent. Try to redirect the steam!

Today at 215 days I still have moments... but that is life. Just never forget that stuffing your face with dip wont fix this. You got to hold your quit and trust us that it will get better with time.

QUit on!

[srans]

I am finding that I have very short fuse with the general public.

Today, the lady handed me my coffee cup and the cup was sticky (from chocolate drizzle) and said "you will probably want to hold the cup with this napkin on it because I couldn't get all of the chocolate off" and SNAP, I'm pissed.  I hand it back to her and tell her, not ask her, for a new clean cup for my coffee.  My husband told me that "we are not THOSE people Ginet" 

Then, I had to stop at Walmart to get 8 things. 8 lousy things. One item was in the cosmetics area and a worker stops me to tell me that I need to pay for that item at the register in the cosmetics department that has now been set up in that section.  WTF????  I asked her to repeat that because I was sure I didn't hear correctly.  Yes, I needed to pay for the item in the cosmetics area.  I handed the item to her, asked her to hold it and I told her I would go get my other 7 items and then come back to pay for all of it. She told me "I'm not set up to ring up other items" to which I SNAPPED the reply "and I am not set up to pay at multiple registers in the same store!"

Wow.  I don't complain about my quit. I got myself into this shit and I get to deal with all of the shit that goes along with my quit.  I am NOT this Asshole of a Person.  What is going on.  I'd like to complain about my attitude!  Irritated.....

Hello Trollop,
I think we all get to snap, true we brought on our craves by starting with nic in the first place. But in certain situations we deserve out snaps. I have snapped at the coffee ladies/men. I remember a time I ordered a large coffee with 3 cream and 2 sugar, pretty simple right. I was given an extra large with 3 cream 2 sugar; I said I ordered a large. I was told so you got an extra large so your getting a deal, that is beside the point. I asked for a large, the girl proceeds to pour the extra large into a large cup, then gives it to me; here now you have a large.
I snapped no your not getting it I ordered a large, large. She doesn't get it, a large. I am sure most people would get it.
It is okay to snap in the right situation.

You will do this one day at at a time. You screwed your brain for years,, I say again YEARS!! I'll let you add the days up on your own. You'll probably need a calculator. I say that to say this,,, 26 days is just the beginning. I didn't begin feeling better until about 40 days in. Maybe you will be different though,, you never no. In time you will start to feel better and begin feeling somewhat normal. What is normal exactly!?!? Your guess is as good as mine.

There is a door you need to get to. This door is hard to get to and open. I can't tell you how far the door is or how long it will be before you get to this door. Keep your head pointed forward and make your way to the door. Nothing in back of you but a smelly good for nothing can of poison. Life is so much better without the poison. Glad to be quit with you.

In time you'll begin dealing with individuals with a better and new you. You'll be surprised with the new you. The new you will handle people and situations better than ever. Give it time ginet. You got this. Quit with you today.

[twofingerdipper]

I am finding that I have very short fuse with the general public.

Today, the lady handed me my coffee cup and the cup was sticky (from chocolate drizzle) and said "you will probably want to hold the cup with this napkin on it because I couldn't get all of the chocolate off" and SNAP, I'm pissed.  I hand it back to her and tell her, not ask her, for a new clean cup for my coffee.  My husband told me that "we are not THOSE people Ginet" 

Then, I had to stop at Walmart to get 8 things. 8 lousy things. One item was in the cosmetics area and a worker stops me to tell me that I need to pay for that item at the register in the cosmetics department that has now been set up in that section.  WTF????  I asked her to repeat that because I was sure I didn't hear correctly.  Yes, I needed to pay for the item in the cosmetics area.  I handed the item to her, asked her to hold it and I told her I would go get my other 7 items and then come back to pay for all of it. She told me "I'm not set up to ring up other items" to which I SNAPPED the reply "and I am not set up to pay at multiple registers in the same store!"

Wow.  I don't complain about my quit. I got myself into this shit and I get to deal with all of the shit that goes along with my quit.  I am NOT this Asshole of a Person.  What is going on.  I'd like to complain about my attitude!  Irritated.....

Hello Trollop,
I think we all get to snap, true we brought on our craves by starting with nic in the first place. But in certain situations we deserve out snaps. I have snapped at the coffee ladies/men. I remember a time I ordered a large coffee with 3 cream and 2 sugar, pretty simple right. I was given an extra large with 3 cream 2 sugar; I said I ordered a large. I was told so you got an extra large so your getting a deal, that is beside the point. I asked for a large, the girl proceeds to pour the extra large into a large cup, then gives it to me; here now you have a large.
I snapped no your not getting it I ordered a large, large. She doesn't get it, a large. I am sure most people would get it.
It is okay to snap in the right situation.

[Ginet]

I am finding that I have very short fuse with the general public.

Today, the lady handed me my coffee cup and the cup was sticky (from chocolate drizzle) and said "you will probably want to hold the cup with this napkin on it because I couldn't get all of the chocolate off" and SNAP, I'm pissed. I hand it back to her and tell her, not ask her, for a new clean cup for my coffee. My husband told me that "we are not THOSE people Ginet"

Then, I had to stop at Walmart to get 8 things. 8 lousy things. One item was in the cosmetics area and a worker stops me to tell me that I need to pay for that item at the register in the cosmetics department that has now been set up in that section. WTF???? I asked her to repeat that because I was sure I didn't hear correctly. Yes, I needed to pay for the item in the cosmetics area. I handed the item to her, asked her to hold it and I told her I would go get my other 7 items and then come back to pay for all of it. She told me "I'm not set up to ring up other items" to which I SNAPPED the reply "and I am not set up to pay at multiple registers in the same store!"

Wow. I don't complain about my quit. I got myself into this shit and I get to deal with all of the shit that goes along with my quit. I am NOT this Asshole of a Person. What is going on. I'd like to complain about my attitude! Irritated.....

[Emulator]

Day 23 pretty much has been messed up crap.  I found myself doing habitual actions like reaching over to the little shelf in my home office where I would keep my can, and opening my purse's side pouch for my can when I got in the car. The odd thing was I wasn't having a nicotine craving at that time. My hand just "went there"....no need for comments from Dr. Vadge and Coach......I know, I walked into that one and seem to do that a lot.  Anyway, that caught me off guard.  Why doesn't my body understand that I don't do that anymore? I feel out of sync with the determination and commitment in my heart/head compared to my body's actions. That makes me frustrated. I am so on edge and have been for like 2 days. I am tired too. I also have no patience for anything. I just feel like nothing can be more important that this quit right now. I want to explode and scream at my husband using that damn Copenhagen day after day but I know that will not work. I get pissed that he doesn't value being around for me, but then I know he hasn't read this information and that all of that is MY reaction and MY assumption. I was talking to him and I didn't even hear what he said at some point. I was staring at the Copenhagen in his lip. Just staring at it.  Not wanting it. Not hearing him. Just staring. It smelled. There was some in his teeth and some grains on his lip. I realized he had no freaking clue that he had a dip in. He doesn't get it yet.  I want to tell my employees to go F themselves for being so damn petty over shit that doesn't matter. Use that energy toward something positive and helpful and leave me alone. Bring me life changing shit or shut up. I hate the weather man on the local station. He always has his chuckle that is truly annoying.  See, this is how my day has been going......all over the place, short fused and negative.  Ugh.  Being positive, I won't have to do today again!

I sympathize with you having a partner that chews, not because you are tempted, but because you are out of sync. All you can do is be an inspiration..

I have to say though with the employee thing, that is right on the damn money.. There were so many times during my quit that I would look at my team and think, what in the f*** is going on in this place? am I the only one who sees this? Maybe I was, Maybe you are, but maybe too its that your mind is staging a little coup because you are winning the war on nic and nic is playing every card it has..

One day at a time

Hang tight there Ginet....in the mid 20s the adrenaline from the start of the quit is dropping, it is this point when you get tested to see if you are learning what we and the site offer, which you are and are passing with flying colors...

Keep Being Strong

And the wandering hand is common for going into places very strange and far....(there not only the good doc and coach can go anywhere with that...though their place may be worse off than others).

you are winning. and quit right with you each day

You have been given great advice so far, even from a fellow female quitter. I had several times like that where my addiction caused habits would come out. Hell I still tap my thumb on my left pocket when I stand up from a seat, because that was my old tin check, now though it hits my HOF coin and I remember that I am quit.

None of us are healed, but us fellow addicts help one another daily when needed. You are slowly making progress, continue to kick ass every day. My suggestion is to put something in those habit locations to use as a reminder that you are quite quit.

Those habits sure are hard to go away. After 1200+ days, I still double check the coke bottle or can to make sure its not a spitter. I guess the impact of taking a big swig several times has left a considerable neural impact. But I still do it.

I also hide my father in laws can. Its funny watching him scratch his head....where'd I leave that damn thing.....

"G" your one of a kind. Your at the top of the heap on your quit. Sure it sucks, it sucks really hard, "G" your much stronger than nicotine. I know it, most of all You know it. You save me every day "G". ... Shout out loud Fuck you Nic Bitch.... for your RESOLUTE BASTARD BROTHERS AND SISTERS.

[tarpon17]

Day 23 pretty much has been messed up crap.  I found myself doing habitual actions like reaching over to the little shelf in my home office where I would keep my can, and opening my purse's side pouch for my can when I got in the car. The odd thing was I wasn't having a nicotine craving at that time. My hand just "went there"....no need for comments from Dr. Vadge and Coach......I know, I walked into that one and seem to do that a lot.  Anyway, that caught me off guard.  Why doesn't my body understand that I don't do that anymore? I feel out of sync with the determination and commitment in my heart/head compared to my body's actions. That makes me frustrated. I am so on edge and have been for like 2 days. I am tired too. I also have no patience for anything. I just feel like nothing can be more important that this quit right now. I want to explode and scream at my husband using that damn Copenhagen day after day but I know that will not work. I get pissed that he doesn't value being around for me, but then I know he hasn't read this information and that all of that is MY reaction and MY assumption. I was talking to him and I didn't even hear what he said at some point. I was staring at the Copenhagen in his lip. Just staring at it.  Not wanting it. Not hearing him. Just staring. It smelled. There was some in his teeth and some grains on his lip. I realized he had no freaking clue that he had a dip in. He doesn't get it yet.  I want to tell my employees to go F themselves for being so damn petty over shit that doesn't matter. Use that energy toward something positive and helpful and leave me alone. Bring me life changing shit or shut up. I hate the weather man on the local station. He always has his chuckle that is truly annoying.  See, this is how my day has been going......all over the place, short fused and negative.  Ugh.  Being positive, I won't have to do today again!

I sympathize with you having a partner that chews, not because you are tempted, but because you are out of sync. All you can do is be an inspiration..

I have to say though with the employee thing, that is right on the damn money.. There were so many times during my quit that I would look at my team and think, what in the f*** is going on in this place? am I the only one who sees this? Maybe I was, Maybe you are, but maybe too its that your mind is staging a little coup because you are winning the war on nic and nic is playing every card it has..

One day at a time

Hang tight there Ginet....in the mid 20s the adrenaline from the start of the quit is dropping, it is this point when you get tested to see if you are learning what we and the site offer, which you are and are passing with flying colors...

Keep Being Strong

And the wandering hand is common for going into places very strange and far....(there not only the good doc and coach can go anywhere with that...though their place may be worse off than others).

you are winning. and quit right with you each day

You have been given great advice so far, even from a fellow female quitter. I had several times like that where my addiction caused habits would come out. Hell I still tap my thumb on my left pocket when I stand up from a seat, because that was my old tin check, now though it hits my HOF coin and I remember that I am quit.

None of us are healed, but us fellow addicts help one another daily when needed. You are slowly making progress, continue to kick ass every day. My suggestion is to put something in those habit locations to use as a reminder that you are quite quit.

Those habits sure are hard to go away. After 1200+ days, I still double check the coke bottle or can to make sure its not a spitter. I guess the impact of taking a big swig several times has left a considerable neural impact. But I still do it.

I also hide my father in laws can. Its funny watching him scratch his head....where'd I leave that damn thing.....

[Pinched]

Day 23 pretty much has been messed up crap.  I found myself doing habitual actions like reaching over to the little shelf in my home office where I would keep my can, and opening my purse's side pouch for my can when I got in the car. The odd thing was I wasn't having a nicotine craving at that time. My hand just "went there"....no need for comments from Dr. Vadge and Coach......I know, I walked into that one and seem to do that a lot.  Anyway, that caught me off guard.  Why doesn't my body understand that I don't do that anymore? I feel out of sync with the determination and commitment in my heart/head compared to my body's actions. That makes me frustrated. I am so on edge and have been for like 2 days. I am tired too. I also have no patience for anything. I just feel like nothing can be more important that this quit right now. I want to explode and scream at my husband using that damn Copenhagen day after day but I know that will not work. I get pissed that he doesn't value being around for me, but then I know he hasn't read this information and that all of that is MY reaction and MY assumption. I was talking to him and I didn't even hear what he said at some point. I was staring at the Copenhagen in his lip. Just staring at it.  Not wanting it. Not hearing him. Just staring. It smelled. There was some in his teeth and some grains on his lip. I realized he had no freaking clue that he had a dip in. He doesn't get it yet.  I want to tell my employees to go F themselves for being so damn petty over shit that doesn't matter. Use that energy toward something positive and helpful and leave me alone. Bring me life changing shit or shut up. I hate the weather man on the local station. He always has his chuckle that is truly annoying.  See, this is how my day has been going......all over the place, short fused and negative.  Ugh.  Being positive, I won't have to do today again!

I sympathize with you having a partner that chews, not because you are tempted, but because you are out of sync. All you can do is be an inspiration..

I have to say though with the employee thing, that is right on the damn money.. There were so many times during my quit that I would look at my team and think, what in the f*** is going on in this place? am I the only one who sees this? Maybe I was, Maybe you are, but maybe too its that your mind is staging a little coup because you are winning the war on nic and nic is playing every card it has..

One day at a time

Hang tight there Ginet....in the mid 20s the adrenaline from the start of the quit is dropping, it is this point when you get tested to see if you are learning what we and the site offer, which you are and are passing with flying colors...

Keep Being Strong

And the wandering hand is common for going into places very strange and far....(there not only the good doc and coach can go anywhere with that...though their place may be worse off than others).

you are winning. and quit right with you each day

You have been given great advice so far, even from a fellow female quitter. I had several times like that where my addiction caused habits would come out. Hell I still tap my thumb on my left pocket when I stand up from a seat, because that was my old tin check, now though it hits my HOF coin and I remember that I am quit.

None of us are healed, but us fellow addicts help one another daily when needed. You are slowly making progress, continue to kick ass every day. My suggestion is to put something in those habit locations to use as a reminder that you are quite quit.

[racetrackcowgirl]

Hang in there.....i'm having one of those days (hell it's been a full week). Breathe, don't dip and don't kill anyone that's all we can promise for today......

[dave1984]

...

[SirDerek]

Day 23 pretty much has been messed up crap.  I found myself doing habitual actions like reaching over to the little shelf in my home office where I would keep my can, and opening my purse's side pouch for my can when I got in the car. The odd thing was I wasn't having a nicotine craving at that time. My hand just "went there"....no need for comments from Dr. Vadge and Coach......I know, I walked into that one and seem to do that a lot.  Anyway, that caught me off guard.  Why doesn't my body understand that I don't do that anymore? I feel out of sync with the determination and commitment in my heart/head compared to my body's actions. That makes me frustrated. I am so on edge and have been for like 2 days. I am tired too. I also have no patience for anything. I just feel like nothing can be more important that this quit right now. I want to explode and scream at my husband using that damn Copenhagen day after day but I know that will not work. I get pissed that he doesn't value being around for me, but then I know he hasn't read this information and that all of that is MY reaction and MY assumption. I was talking to him and I didn't even hear what he said at some point. I was staring at the Copenhagen in his lip. Just staring at it.  Not wanting it. Not hearing him. Just staring. It smelled. There was some in his teeth and some grains on his lip. I realized he had no freaking clue that he had a dip in. He doesn't get it yet.  I want to tell my employees to go F themselves for being so damn petty over shit that doesn't matter. Use that energy toward something positive and helpful and leave me alone. Bring me life changing shit or shut up. I hate the weather man on the local station. He always has his chuckle that is truly annoying.  See, this is how my day has been going......all over the place, short fused and negative.  Ugh.  Being positive, I won't have to do today again!

I sympathize with you having a partner that chews, not because you are tempted, but because you are out of sync. All you can do is be an inspiration..

I have to say though with the employee thing, that is right on the damn money.. There were so many times during my quit that I would look at my team and think, what in the f*** is going on in this place? am I the only one who sees this? Maybe I was, Maybe you are, but maybe too its that your mind is staging a little coup because you are winning the war on nic and nic is playing every card it has..

One day at a time

Hang tight there Ginet....in the mid 20s the adrenaline from the start of the quit is dropping, it is this point when you get tested to see if you are learning what we and the site offer, which you are and are passing with flying colors...

Keep Being Strong

And the wandering hand is common for going into places very strange and far....(there not only the good doc and coach can go anywhere with that...though their place may be worse off than others).

you are winning. and quit right with you each day

[MN_Ben]

Day 23 pretty much has been messed up crap. I found myself doing habitual actions like reaching over to the little shelf in my home office where I would keep my can, and opening my purse's side pouch for my can when I got in the car. The odd thing was I wasn't having a nicotine craving at that time. My hand just "went there"....no need for comments from Dr. Vadge and Coach......I know, I walked into that one and seem to do that a lot. Anyway, that caught me off guard. Why doesn't my body understand that I don't do that anymore? I feel out of sync with the determination and commitment in my heart/head compared to my body's actions. That makes me frustrated. I am so on edge and have been for like 2 days. I am tired too. I also have no patience for anything. I just feel like nothing can be more important that this quit right now. I want to explode and scream at my husband using that damn Copenhagen day after day but I know that will not work. I get pissed that he doesn't value being around for me, but then I know he hasn't read this information and that all of that is MY reaction and MY assumption. I was talking to him and I didn't even hear what he said at some point. I was staring at the Copenhagen in his lip. Just staring at it. Not wanting it. Not hearing him. Just staring. It smelled. There was some in his teeth and some grains on his lip. I realized he had no freaking clue that he had a dip in. He doesn't get it yet. I want to tell my employees to go F themselves for being so damn petty over shit that doesn't matter. Use that energy toward something positive and helpful and leave me alone. Bring me life changing shit or shut up. I hate the weather man on the local station. He always has his chuckle that is truly annoying. See, this is how my day has been going......all over the place, short fused and negative. Ugh. Being positive, I won't have to do today again!

I sympathize with you having a partner that chews, not because you are tempted, but because you are out of sync. All you can do is be an inspiration..

I have to say though with the employee thing, that is right on the damn money.. There were so many times during my quit that I would look at my team and think, what in the f*** is going on in this place? am I the only one who sees this? Maybe I was, Maybe you are, but maybe too its that your mind is staging a little coup because you are winning the war on nic and nic is playing every card it has..

One day at a time

[Ginet]

Day 23 pretty much has been messed up crap. I found myself doing habitual actions like reaching over to the little shelf in my home office where I would keep my can, and opening my purse's side pouch for my can when I got in the car. The odd thing was I wasn't having a nicotine craving at that time. My hand just "went there"....no need for comments from Dr. Vadge and Coach......I know, I walked into that one and seem to do that a lot. Anyway, that caught me off guard. Why doesn't my body understand that I don't do that anymore? I feel out of sync with the determination and commitment in my heart/head compared to my body's actions. That makes me frustrated. I am so on edge and have been for like 2 days. I am tired too. I also have no patience for anything. I just feel like nothing can be more important that this quit right now. I want to explode and scream at my husband using that damn Copenhagen day after day but I know that will not work. I get pissed that he doesn't value being around for me, but then I know he hasn't read this information and that all of that is MY reaction and MY assumption. I was talking to him and I didn't even hear what he said at some point. I was staring at the Copenhagen in his lip. Just staring at it. Not wanting it. Not hearing him. Just staring. It smelled. There was some in his teeth and some grains on his lip. I realized he had no freaking clue that he had a dip in. He doesn't get it yet. I want to tell my employees to go F themselves for being so damn petty over shit that doesn't matter. Use that energy toward something positive and helpful and leave me alone. Bring me life changing shit or shut up. I hate the weather man on the local station. He always has his chuckle that is truly annoying. See, this is how my day has been going......all over the place, short fused and negative. Ugh. Being positive, I won't have to do today again!

[srans]

Our only option is to "keep on keepin on and uphold our promise for today.

Let's put this ^^^^^^^ profound statement right up top for the world to see.

[Ginet]

Hey emulator. ..yes I quit today...guaran dam teed as union would say

That's right G!!! I love your quit and it has to be clock-work. Guaran-damn-tee no nic today!!! Let it rip!!!

Today started with an immediate crave at 8:05 am. I just keep reminding myself, that she creeps in and it gets tough, but I had already decided I would need to be tougher from day one. This quit takes focus and dedication. No slowing down or change in attitude. Keep it on the front burner of everything you do. Maybe that changes down the road but in order to get that far, I need to deal with today. Today, I quit. Today, I am on guard. Today I protect this quit guaran damn teed!

It DOES get easier. I PROMISE. These battles that you win now are going to pay off down the road.

It's like a new job. In the beginning you might seem overwhelmed, confused, don't like the way certain things are done, question if you can really do it, and maybe even think of quitting and going back to your old shitty job. Like a whimp would do.

Then, over time you get into a nice grove and remember why you took the new job in the first place, and wonder why you used to think it was so hard. You still might have a shitty day once in awhile, just like you might at work, but they will become waaaay less frequent and much easier to deal with.

Just got to give it time.

Quit on...

This day 19 finds me back at day 2 or 3 . like yesterday exhaustion / insomnia set in , I am sure that you know what im talking about. I want to think of these "reattempts" of the nic Bitch are just the death writhes of a bitch that never dies but just comes back ever so often to let you know she will always be there

Hi Emulator,
Yes, Day 19 and 20 were like that for me. Irritated and really sleepy all day. I guess it is just part of it. Just remember that every day we think is "sucking" or not what we would consider "easier", we need to be reminded of how we put ourselves here in the first place. We have to battle thru for ourselves because no one else is gonna do it for us. Keep in contact with each other and remain strong. Our only option is to "keep on keepin on" and uphold our promise for today. That nic bitch can bring on what she wants for tomorrow, cuz we will deal with her then. We got this today!

[Emulator]

Hey emulator. ..yes I quit today...guaran dam teed as union would say

That's right G!!! I love your quit and it has to be clock-work. Guaran-damn-tee no nic today!!! Let it rip!!!

Today started with an immediate crave at 8:05 am. I just keep reminding myself, that she creeps in and it gets tough, but I had already decided I would need to be tougher from day one. This quit takes focus and dedication. No slowing down or change in attitude. Keep it on the front burner of everything you do. Maybe that changes down the road but in order to get that far, I need to deal with today. Today, I quit. Today, I am on guard. Today I protect this quit guaran damn teed!

It DOES get easier. I PROMISE. These battles that you win now are going to pay off down the road.

It's like a new job. In the beginning you might seem overwhelmed, confused, don't like the way certain things are done, question if you can really do it, and maybe even think of quitting and going back to your old shitty job. Like a whimp would do.

Then, over time you get into a nice grove and remember why you took the new job in the first place, and wonder why you used to think it was so hard. You still might have a shitty day once in awhile, just like you might at work, but they will become waaaay less frequent and much easier to deal with.

Just got to give it time.

Quit on...

This day 19 finds me back at day 2 or 3 . like yesterday exhaustion / insomnia set in , I am sure that you know what im talking about. I want to think of these "reattempts" of the nic Bitch are just the death writhes of a bitch that never dies but just comes back ever so often to let you know she will always be there