Yesterday, I was late posting role. I had a friend who passed away early yesterday morning, and I was at their house most of the day. When I got home that evening, I went straight to the computer and posted roll. It is kind of strange, but I actually had the ridiculous thought that I have got this thing whipped. Last night, as I was sleeping, I had a dip dream that seemed so real that I actually was disgusted with myself when I woke up. Thankfully, it was just a dream, but it reminded me that the little weed is always lurking in the background looking for an opening. Stay strong, stay quit and have a great day!
Hey game, sorry to hear about your friend.
As far as having this thing whipped... by now, you know what it takes to stay quit for a day. Don't ever forget it. It takes understanding that you are an addict and can never have just 1. It takes a daily commitment to staying quit... ODAAT. It takes you staying on top your game daily. Thinking you have this beat is a recipe for a cave. Don't forget that. Remember how bad day 1 sucked.
Stay on this quit daily brother. For the rest of your life - on it daily. I am quit with you in September. Quit on!
In the 70's a little bit of funk is normal. The dreams are a good thing, they fucking suck for sure, but they are a sign that your quit is sinking in.
Keep it up, you got this
My regards for your friend as well. I can relate,, trust me....
I think the same things as well sometimes. I ask myself,, Do I have this whipped? This is the way i think sometimes. The problem is I've been told, taught and read not to let my guard down. To keep my quit high priority.
Then after a hard day, when I'm feeling down. Been driving for 12 hours, and Can't wait for the day to end. Bam,,,, the CRAVE!! The thoughts that i believed were beat. The thoughts that i hoped were long gone. The thoughts that without keeping my guard up, will mean slavery once again.
As long as i keep the doors bolt locked and my watchdogs ((ktc brothers and sisters)) on call i will keep this addiction beat.
Just when we think we got this wrapped up is when we start leaving ourselves vulnerable. I've seen to many with a lot more days than me and you bite the dust. Not us,, not today my friend.
The poison probes. It seeks for that opportune moment. Quit with you today.