hello all. I'm Jason. I'm 27 and as of today I have dipped for the past 11 years. I have never tried to quit before. I did kind of quit once when i got a cold, but that ended after 2 weeks when i met a friend at a bar and another one of his buddies were there dipping while drinking a cold bud light watching the Bama-LSU game last year....that was the most tempted i have ever been for anything in my entire life.
I am tired of it. I am tired of feeling like I have to dip. I am tired of seeing how my friends who i used to dip with have dropped the habit and moved on with their lives while i am still doing it after all of these years. I hate feeling like i am being controlled by something that has no business being in control over me. It makes me feel weak, and that has to stop.
I just cleaned my house, and i couldnt even count the dip bottles i had here. I took them, and my cans and threw them away in the trash. I am going to be dip free.
I know everyone here has been where i am now, but god dam this is going to be hard. Im gonna need some kind of hobby or something to get me through this. Everything i do reminds me of dip. working on my truck, being at work, studying for school, eating, driving, fishing, everything. Its gonna be hard but i can do it.
So, tomorrow I will go to the January 2010 quit group and post day one of roll call. If i can get the shit out of my system, I can do it. I have been through it once before, and i know what it is like. The only thing missing last time was a support group just like this site. If I had support back then, I am sure I would never had taken that dip that got me hooked again. I look forward to meeting a lot of you. What I have read so far has been very inspiring.