17 days

[CaseyB]

I thought you were a long term quitter when you posted on my introduction thread CaseyB. Keep the quit going and PM me if you ever need support. With luck I will never catch up to you but we will both remain tobacco free. :D

We are long term quitters. We just haven't flipped enough pages on our calendars yet. 'sac'

[CaseyB]

Whew, you're still here! Casey, congratulations on the three weeks. I'm glad you've been able to get some writing done. So, you mentioned fans. Do you post your stuff on DeviantArt or something of that nature? I like to write as well, but I've completely ran out of ideas for the moment. I'm sure you've been in a position where you'd like to write, but the inspiration and mood just is not there. It can't be forced! Well, it CAN, but the end result is usually sort of crappy.

Also, well done on the consecutive roll posts! The best thing to do is to make posting a part of your morning routine. It keeps ya honest!

Oh, and one more thing...I haven't even SEEN a Shoney's in probably 20 years. The jealousy is off the charts right now.

I'm Casey Bramble, author of the Windows fantasy novels series. Currently there's only the first book, A Broken Fairy Tale, out but the second, The Ivory Tower, will be coming out soon. Three more follow that. They're released on Amazon.

Sometimes forcing your way through writer's block is the best thing. Just sit down and type out utter crap. Our best tool as writers is editing.

Sort of like kicking the can in a way. Grit your teeth and get through it.

Maybe you can write about what it really means to be addicted to this shit! Quit on you're doing great, you will continue to compare things in your life to quitting, it's awesome!

Windows is, in essence, the tale of a psychotic demon trapped in the soul of an insane lesbian sorceress. Nothing is out of the realm of possibilities when I put finger to keyboard.

I could jot down a few short stories on occasion, when taking a break from the books. Post them here and on my website.

[Stranger999]

I thought you were a long term quitter when you posted on my introduction thread CaseyB. Keep the quit going and PM me if you ever need support. With luck I will never catch up to you but we will both remain tobacco free. :D

[pab1964]

Whew, you're still here! Casey, congratulations on the three weeks. I'm glad you've been able to get some writing done. So, you mentioned fans. Do you post your stuff on DeviantArt or something of that nature? I like to write as well, but I've completely ran out of ideas for the moment. I'm sure you've been in a position where you'd like to write, but the inspiration and mood just is not there. It can't be forced! Well, it CAN, but the end result is usually sort of crappy.

Also, well done on the consecutive roll posts! The best thing to do is to make posting a part of your morning routine. It keeps ya honest!

Oh, and one more thing...I haven't even SEEN a Shoney's in probably 20 years. The jealousy is off the charts right now.

I'm Casey Bramble, author of the Windows fantasy novels series. Currently there's only the first book, A Broken Fairy Tale, out but the second, The Ivory Tower, will be coming out soon. Three more follow that. They're released on Amazon.

Sometimes forcing your way through writer's block is the best thing. Just sit down and type out utter crap. Our best tool as writers is editing.

Sort of like kicking the can in a way. Grit your teeth and get through it.

Maybe you can write about what it really means to be addicted to this shit! Quit on you're doing great, you will continue to compare things in your life to quitting, it's awesome!

[CaseyB]

Whew, you're still here! Casey, congratulations on the three weeks. I'm glad you've been able to get some writing done. So, you mentioned fans. Do you post your stuff on DeviantArt or something of that nature? I like to write as well, but I've completely ran out of ideas for the moment. I'm sure you've been in a position where you'd like to write, but the inspiration and mood just is not there. It can't be forced! Well, it CAN, but the end result is usually sort of crappy.

Also, well done on the consecutive roll posts! The best thing to do is to make posting a part of your morning routine. It keeps ya honest!

Oh, and one more thing...I haven't even SEEN a Shoney's in probably 20 years. The jealousy is off the charts right now.

I'm Casey Bramble, author of the Windows fantasy novels series. Currently there's only the first book, A Broken Fairy Tale, out but the second, The Ivory Tower, will be coming out soon. Three more follow that. They're released on Amazon.

Sometimes forcing your way through writer's block is the best thing. Just sit down and type out utter crap. Our best tool as writers is editing.

Sort of like kicking the can in a way. Grit your teeth and get through it.

[KingNothing]

Keep it up Ms. B, it's going to keep getting better!

[invader]

Whew, you're still here! Casey, congratulations on the three weeks. I'm glad you've been able to get some writing done. So, you mentioned fans. Do you post your stuff on DeviantArt or something of that nature? I like to write as well, but I've completely ran out of ideas for the moment. I'm sure you've been in a position where you'd like to write, but the inspiration and mood just is not there. It can't be forced! Well, it CAN, but the end result is usually sort of crappy.

Also, well done on the consecutive roll posts! The best thing to do is to make posting a part of your morning routine. It keeps ya honest!

Oh, and one more thing...I haven't even SEEN a Shoney's in probably 20 years. The jealousy is off the charts right now.

[CaseyB]

Let's talk about rewards. Well, rewards for quitting.

For the first week of quitting, I got a night of... uhmmm... book reading with my husband. Yes, reading books. Big,long, hard cover tomes. Sent our son to my parents and flipped pages all night long.

Second week, all three of us went to eat at Umi's, a Japanese steak house and my favorite place for fancy dinner. Sushi and tempura fried soft shelled crab. Then we came home and Goof and I read under the covers.

Monday was day 21. Three whole weeks nicotine free. I got a Shoney's strawberry pie and Goof got a dildo. That way if he tried to touch my pie he could go f- himself.

[CaseyB]

Now I've posted roll two days in a row. Maybe three. Eh, I don't like numbers much.

Tonight a lot of work was finished on a chapter. Bunch of violence. Some humor. Gore. You know, fun stuff. It's the first night I've written for more than an hour since I stopped dipping. This makes me happy for two reasons. One, I'm closer to my fans not stringing me up by my toenails. Secondly, and arguably more importantly but I do like my toenails, it was also the first night I didn't reach for the can. Dipped the ever loving hell out of some cotton balls though.

Another thing that has interested me is how quickly extra cash starts showing up. This week-end we spent my dip money. Ate Chinese (they have stuffed crab to die for), hit Books-A-Million for a large mocha frappe with an extra shot of espresso and a chocolate milk, got three books for my son, and we got him a Skylander figure since he dealt so well with evil-mommy for a week.

The only weird thing I've noticed is my sleeping. Sarah* always used to shake her head at me only needing six hours a night. Dipping was always assumed to be the cause, except now I'm down to roughly five. Maybe R.E.M. state is happening faster?

[Grievous Angel]

Glad to see that you checked in and that you're still quit. But what really makes me happy is to see your name on that roll post in November. I know, it feels like such a silly thing. Writing your name down with a bunch of internet strangers and promising to them that you won't use any nicotine for that day. Like, who the hell are these people, and why do they give a flying hoot if I write my name on this list? We care because we're addicts and at one point in our lives we all became so desperate to quit and stay quit that only each other could really keep it that way.

It's the accountability you see. Having to be accountable to someone other than yourself. I'm 635 days in as of this post, I have close to 40 phone numbers in my cell of people I met here. My name/handle is known across this entire site. If I cave to nicotine at this point, it would be epic. It will never happen...at least not for today. I made my roll post and my promise. The one thing I'm not anymore is a liar, not since I've quit nicotine. And it all starts with posting roll. Keep posting roll , get involved, and I would love to see you keep up this intro page. It's always a joy to read entries that are more eloquently written compared to the chicken scratch I put down.

Agreed. We see a lot of names and faces come and go in the intros section. Lots of "i'm sick of this shit" and good intentions.

It's the ones who post roll and do it EDD (and do it with integrity) who have about a 100% chance of success.

Welcome to freedom! Glad to have you aboard.

[Steakbomb18]

Glad to see that you checked in and that you're still quit. But what really makes me happy is to see your name on that roll post in November. I know, it feels like such a silly thing. Writing your name down with a bunch of internet strangers and promising to them that you won't use any nicotine for that day. Like, who the hell are these people, and why do they give a flying hoot if I write my name on this list? We care because we're addicts and at one point in our lives we all became so desperate to quit and stay quit that only each other could really keep it that way.

It's the accountability you see. Having to be accountable to someone other than yourself. I'm 635 days in as of this post, I have close to 40 phone numbers in my cell of people I met here. My name/handle is known across this entire site. If I cave to nicotine at this point, it would be epic. It will never happen...at least not for today. I made my roll post and my promise. The one thing I'm not anymore is a liar, not since I've quit nicotine. And it all starts with posting roll. Keep posting roll , get involved, and I would love to see you keep up this intro page. It's always a joy to read entries that are more eloquently written compared to the chicken scratch I put down.

[CaseyB]

Thanks for the support.

Instead of a romance novel, because eww, let's have nicotine as that little voice in your head whispering that secrets are what you never tell until no one can stop you. Sure we'll have the bashing-your-face-into-a-mirror-to-drown-out-the-voice-because-you're-only-hurting-yourself scene since novels need some sort of message, but mostly I'm thinking lots of violence.

Or we can go with nicotine as the siren of myth, leading folks to their doom. Sort of a fantasy novel. The heroine, that's me, has a magical crystal that revels the truth. That beguiling beauty is actually a toxic pile of noxious sludge. Imagine Clayface from Batman, but darker and slimier. For the denouement we learn the antagonist has no real power, relying on their charm. Of course the end will be left open since, like any good villain, nicotine addiction is never completely beaten. And there will be lots and lots of violence. A popular character dissolving in a black morass. More violence.

Now to stop talking about novels because it's reminding me of the angry lesbians demanding my second, tomorrow will be 21 days. YAY!!! To celebrate I'm getting a strawberry pie from Shoney's. I still find myself reaching for the can that isn't there. No real desire to dip, just really used to grabbing a can. Tomorrow the plan is to go buy one of those little can of breath mints and stuff it full of cotton.

I will do my absolute best to post roll every day.

[pab1964]

I'm thinking this may be a little hard for you, I mean giving birth probably ranks right up there with it. Put your big girl panties on snug them up and get this shit done!

[Steakbomb18]

Your last activity was September 4th as of this posting...So, I guess you got this all under control and all figured out. That 19-year love affair with dip you just described will simply fade away into the sunset; should make for a great novel.

If by chance you do come back and read your intro, take a few minutes and heed the advice of those who have posted before me, most namely Bean. Read and learn why we post roll. If you want that nicotine romance novel to become more like an action thriller where you kick the crap out of your nicotine addiction every day....then post roll. I'd rather read that book.

[SirDerek]

Sounds like you are on the right path finding some alternatives.

Now its time to make the connection with a few others in your month and in this community to fight this thing together. It is never weak but rather smart to reach out to ask for help and to let others know what you are going through as there will be those who feel EXACTLY the way you do.

You are not alone.

You will do this.

Learn each day the power that your promise holds.