Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
