Ok, so my big departure lasted all of eight days. Welcome back, Gator, you old diva.
So what's up? First let me say that the only reason I'm writing this is because it helps me. And also, guys behind me, you need to know these things are going to come your way.
Last week I thought I was walking away from the site. I still don't know why, but I needed a break. Just post, stay out of chat, not get involved. Someone older and wiser than I told me he had done the same thing at just about the same point in his quit. He told me this too shall pass.
Friday night, last night, I was just lurking about when I saw the douchenozzle in May that posted in his intro that he had caved after three hours, even though he had posted roll. It incensed me that someone had taken quitting so lightly, as it were a game. It incensed me more that a little can of crud has that power of a human.
But, Gator, you walked away, you can't say anything. That's when I realized my break was over. During the last week, I wouldn't have cared enough to want to respond. Last night, I did.
I hope you guys behind me make it to the 650-660 point, and you will if you just do what you are currently doing. Even at that point, there are bumps. Funks. You may need to step away. Don't step completely away, but also don't force yourself into doing more than you feel like doing. The past week, if I had forced myself to be in chat som much, or involved in a group, the burn out may have pushed me away for good.
I do thank everyone for the texts, PMs and posts. The ones of supports were needed, but so were the ones kicking my butt. I apologize only for being a bit dramatic about the situation. But then again, when is this place not dramatic?
Pushing forward,
Gator
