Daily affirmations-updated daily

[wastepanel]

Glad you are back.

Proud to have you looking over our shoulders.

Waste, the problem with the internet is one can't gauge context. I know you were upset with my post from last week. If this particular post is sincere, thanks a bunch. If there is intended Sarcasm, say what you got to say, get it off your chest and let's move on. Not in the mood to play guessing games however.


edit: and you mean I can't type 'sarcasm' without getting the little gay guy with the sign? cripes

No Sarcasm.

I've had those thoughts before (in the 20s), and I wonder if I'll have them again later.

You've done so much for me and this site that I thought I owed it to you to kick you in the ass. I would want somebody to do the same to me...

Waste I appreciate it and FWIW...had your post been sarcastic, I would have understood.


I know I came off as a 'diva' of sorts and I assure you guys I did not mean to. I probably wouldn't have come back on tonight, but that guy that caved in May after three hours pissed me off and made me realize I was being a doosh.

Stop fucking kicking yourself.

Most of us have been there.

No regrets. There's a lesson here.

[Instigator]

Glad you are back.

Proud to have you looking over our shoulders.

Waste, the problem with the internet is one can't gauge context. I know you were upset with my post from last week. If this particular post is sincere, thanks a bunch. If there is intended Sarcasm, say what you got to say, get it off your chest and let's move on. Not in the mood to play guessing games however.


edit: and you mean I can't type 'sarcasm' without getting the little gay guy with the sign? cripes

No Sarcasm.

I've had those thoughts before (in the 20s), and I wonder if I'll have them again later.

You've done so much for me and this site that I thought I owed it to you to kick you in the ass. I would want somebody to do the same to me...

Waste I appreciate it and FWIW...had your post been sarcastic, I would have understood.


I know I came off as a 'diva' of sorts and I assure you guys I did not mean to. I probably wouldn't have come back on tonight, but that guy that caved in May after three hours pissed me off and made me realize I was being a doosh.

[wastepanel]

Glad you are back.

Proud to have you looking over our shoulders.

Waste, the problem with the internet is one can't gauge context. I know you were upset with my post from last week. If this particular post is sincere, thanks a bunch. If there is intended Sarcasm, say what you got to say, get it off your chest and let's move on. Not in the mood to play guessing games however.


edit: and you mean I can't type 'sarcasm' without getting the little gay guy with the sign? cripes

No Sarcasm.

I've had those thoughts before (in the 20s), and I wonder if I'll have them again later.

You've done so much for me and this site that I thought I owed it to you to kick you in the ass. I would want somebody to do the same to me...

[Instigator]

Glad you are back.

Proud to have you looking over our shoulders.

Waste, the problem with the internet is one can't gauge context. I know you were upset with my post from last week. If this particular post is sincere, thanks a bunch. If there is intended Sarcasm, say what you got to say, get it off your chest and let's move on. Not in the mood to play guessing games however.


edit: and you mean I can't type 'sarcasm' without getting the little gay guy with the sign? cripes

[redtrain14]

Nice!

[luby]

Hee hee! wastepanel!, gator!, everybody getting all fired up!!! My quit is very excited right now!

[wastepanel]

Glad you are back.

Proud to have you looking over our shoulders.

[Instigator]

There comes a point where hard decisions have to be made.  Many times in life, decisions that aren't popular are the ones that are right for you.  Today's my day.

I've spent the past hour reading over today's events in April, 2012.  I admit, perhaps true to my name, I caused a fair amount of drama at scott h for what was probably honest mistakes in posting roll.  I'm known as a wise guy, a smart alec, and a guy that likes to get the last word.  As sincere as I can be right now, I have no idea why I did what I did in April, 2012, today.  I apologize to that group and scott h in particular.

Those actions have caused me to look at who I am.  Believe it or not, I am not the 'gator' character many know me as.  I'm a shy, quiet, boring guy.  Apparently, computer screens give you more courage and more personality to boot.  Not necessarily better personality, but more.

Anyway, back to my decision.  Today is day 655--I joined this site on April 5, 2010, a slave to the can.  I can't tell you how much this site has done for me in quitting dip.  I can't tell you how much I've grown to appreciate everyone on this site.

I have quite a few friends on here, even though I don't know the real names of 99 percent of you on here.  We've met in chat.  We've posted support together.  We've butted heads.  Most importantly, we've quit together.

Today, however, I tell you I need a break.  I've requested to be relieved as a chat mod.  I feel it is time someone else have a turn protecting the 'sanctity' of our little 'ghey' chat club.   :D   I also don't intend to post roll everyday as I have, give or take a few days, for the past 655 days.

I know what many will say.  Gator's planning to cave.  Gator's giving up on the philosophy.  Gator's turning his back on us.  Well, let me say this.  After 655 days, posting roll on here everyday does not keep me quit.  The realization I'm still an addict and will always be one keeps me quit.  The desire to never have cancer keeps me quit.  The honest lack of desire to ever put that stuff in my mouth again keeps me quit.  So, I'm not planning to cave.  I'm not giving up on the philosophy because I think the philosophy of this site is the only chance most of us addicts ever have.  And I'm not turning my back on anyone.  I've got over two dozen numbers, and will pop in from time to time to see how you guys are doing.  Anyone that wants to, pm me anytime, text me, or get my number so we can stay in touch.

So why is gator making this announcement?  Honestly, I owe it to you guys.  I know every day long time posters quit posting without any explanation or closure.  radtech did it and upset many people by just stopping.  I don't want that.  Bash me for this thread if you want, and many will...but I owe all of you an explanation of what I'm doing and why.

Do I recommend anyone else stop posting? Do I recommend anyone posting forever?  It's as we always say on here...take what works, leave the rest.  I definitely think the decision to stop posting is one that should not be made lightly.  Guy hits hof today, don't think tomorrow you got it beat so I'm not posting.  If you need and want to post forever, go for it.  If that isn't who you want to be, do everything you can to make sure.

Personally, I know I'll be back posting again, and it won't be a freaking day one.  I will not do that to myself or you guys.  It will be with all my old groups and probably a few new ones.  I just don't know when.

I want to thank chewie for saving my life.  I want to thank klark, copehater, redtrain, markr, NOLAQ and wheelchairguy for being my genuine best quit friends.  I want to thank all the mods and all the quitters that work so hard in here.  I literally cannot list all my friends on here, vets, newbies, doesn't matter.  forbes, dippshit, moa, radtech, ryan...the list is endless.  The memories and the lessons are too.

Guys, I love you all and, as we say, not in a ghey way.

Thank you.

Greg

Break's over. F--- that.

Allow me to elucidate on the above...


I haven't been myself for awhile. I don't know why. Maybe gator needs meds. But a week from this place has done me a lot of good.

I'm back with a vengeance. No excuses...no apologies.


And anyone want to diss me for being all flip-floppy...let me save you the trouble...


Stuff it.

[Bean]

Thanks for clarifying. Nic free is the key. Stay strong, stay quit!

[markr]

Someone tell me what's going on here. What does "taking a break" mean? I fear it means that somebody thinks they can take a dip? Fuck that.

Look, anyone can make a mistake. But planning to make a mistake...are you fucking kidding me? I hope I am misunderstanding something here.

Bean

Gator has decided to step away from his role a s a Moderator but he will post roll. He is not caving nor did he imply that he would cave. Gator is a damn fine quitter I am his first contact if he wants to use again and I can tell you he will call if he needs to.
There comes a time in your quit when you need to back off this place and catch your breath. Most of the long time quitters here have done that at some point in their quit myself included. I have been quit for more than 1,000 days I left for awhile I didn't cave and I came back with a new outlook towards this place and my quit. So give Gator some room let him do what he needs to do. There may be other reasons that he needs to step out of here that he is not telling us and it doesn't involve caving or the BS that happened the other day.

[Bean]

Someone tell me what's going on here. What does "taking a break" mean? I fear it means that somebody thinks they can take a dip? Fuck that.

Look, anyone can make a mistake. But planning to make a mistake...are you fucking kidding me? I hope I am misunderstanding something here.

[wastepanel]

Daedalus By Thrice

I stand on the cliffs with my son next to me
This island our prison, our home
And everyday we look out at the sea
This place is all he's ever known

But I've got a plan and some wax and some string;
some feathers I stole from the birds
We leap from the cliff and we hear the wind
sing a song that's too perfect for words

But son, please keep a steady wing
And know your the only one that means anything to me
Steer clear of the sun, or you'll find yourself in the sea

Now safely away, I let out a cry
"We'll make the mainland by noon"
But Icarus climbs higher still in the sky
Maybe I've spoken too soon

Oh son, please keep a steady wing
And know your the only one that means anything to me
Steer clear of the sun, or you'll find yourself in the sea
Won't you look at your wings
They're coming undone
They're splitting at the seams
Steer clear of the sun, for once won't you listen to me?

O, Gods!
Why is this happening to me?
All I wanted was a new life for my son to grow up free
And now you took the only thing that meant anything to me
I will never fly again, I will hang up my wings
O, Gods!
Why is this happening to me?
All I wanted was a new life for my son to grow up free
And now you took the only thing that meant anything to me
I will never fly again, I will hang up my wings!
O, Gods!

[DJS]

See Ya around Gator. I think you manned up by announcing your decision and not just vanishing. I appreciate it and respect your decision. Stay strong.

[Scowick65]

Perhaps you will take just a small respite like Klark had to do. Hope to see you soon again. Now, go get refreshed. There is more new quit coming down the pike. We will need you.

[davidc67]

Greg, never really got to know you on this site but have watched you over the last year and all that you have done. You will be missed. Thank you for all of the lives you helped save. Dave