First Week

[KingNothing]

Today I decided enough is enough......

I have been drinking since about 16 years old I'm now 28 years old. I'm not an "alcoholic" by true definition, but a functioning alcoholic. I mean that I still hold down a job, family and I do all that well. I just have an issue with alcohol just like dip I can't just have 1.... I don't drink to be social or have a good time I drink to get fucked up and at this point I'm a seasoned veteran so it takes a lot of booze...

I think I continued with my drinking for so long because I used it as an outlet for built up frustration and emotional train wrecks I avoid. I have an extremely stressful job dealing with death and generally terrible things happening to people day in and day out as a 9-1-1 Dispatcher. Add to that 12 years of service to a fairly busy volunteer Fire career where instead of just being on the phone I get to see those horrors first hand.

Now I would not trade any of what I do for the world because I'm 99.9% sure I was put on this earth to help people and I do it well.... I just need to focus some of that help on myself since I'm destroying my life slowly.

I have an amazing wife who is extremely supportive (I don't see how) just last night we were hanging out and we spent some great time together, but she had to work in the morning and went to bed early. I'm a night shift worker so I cannot sleep when I'm off.....Guess what I'm normally doing you got it throwing back some drinks.

I took my final drink last night because since I have joined KTC I have had my eyes opened wide and I can now see the destruction I'm causing.

I'm scared I will lose my wife because I spend less and less time with her at night just to get hammered.

I'm scared eventually it will get out of control even more and affect my job to the point I would be left go.

I'm scared my children will think it is ok since they have watched Daddy do this for so long.

I'm scared of starting all over after throwing away everything I worked so hard for.

IÂ’m tired of being fucking scared and I'm taking back control today!!!!

Good for you D. This is a tough realization to come to sometimes, but just like with dip, the hardest thing to do is usually the right thing. Count me in as a supporter in your newest quest.

[DWEIRICK]

Today I decided enough is enough......

I have been drinking since about 16 years old I'm now 28 years old. I'm not an "alcoholic" by true definition, but a functioning alcoholic. I mean that I still hold down a job, family and I do all that well. I just have an issue with alcohol just like dip I can't just have 1.... I don't drink to be social or have a good time I drink to get fucked up and at this point I'm a seasoned veteran so it takes a lot of booze...

I think I continued with my drinking for so long because I used it as an outlet for built up frustration and emotional train wrecks I avoid. I have an extremely stressful job dealing with death and generally terrible things happening to people day in and day out as a 9-1-1 Dispatcher. Add to that 12 years of service to a fairly busy volunteer Fire career where instead of just being on the phone I get to see those horrors first hand.

Now I would not trade any of what I do for the world because I'm 99.9% sure I was put on this earth to help people and I do it well.... I just need to focus some of that help on myself since I'm destroying my life slowly.

I have an amazing wife who is extremely supportive (I don't see how) just last night we were hanging out and we spent some great time together, but she had to work in the morning and went to bed early. I'm a night shift worker so I cannot sleep when I'm off.....Guess what I'm normally doing you got it throwing back some drinks.

I took my final drink last night because since I have joined KTC I have had my eyes opened wide and I can now see the destruction I'm causing.

I'm scared I will lose my wife because I spend less and less time with her at night just to get hammered.

I'm scared eventually it will get out of control even more and affect my job to the point I would be left go.

I'm scared my children will think it is ok since they have watched Daddy do this for so long.

I'm scared of starting all over after throwing away everything I worked so hard for.

IÂ’m tired of being fucking scared and I'm taking back control today!!!!

[pab1964]

Dweirick 2 mnths badass my friend! Keep helping others, remember how much it helped you! Quit on!

[B-loMatt]

Just reading this intro, and great stuff here! Keep doing what has gotten you here, and hate the poison. Congrates on 60 days, that is bad assed quit right there. Still some hard quit in front of you, but it gets so much better...

[DWEIRICK]

Just dropping by to say Congrats Dustin! You've made it 60 days. Nice little milestone for you. You're quit is strong and you're a great contributor around here. Keep it going because you're killing this quit. Today I quit with you!

Thank you Brother!

[jimthins]

Just dropping by to say Congrats Dustin! You've made it 60 days. Nice little milestone for you. You're quit is strong and you're a great contributor around here. Keep it going because you're killing this quit. Today I quit with you!

[Old Dog New Tricks]

I started a journal before I joined KTC thinking I could do this on my own thankfully I was smart enough to do some research and I found this place. I stopped writing in my journal after only nine days and this is why:


Day – 56 I have neglected my journal because I have thrown myself into KTC 110%. I have been tracking down quitters who do not post roll, I give support to new quitters, I help with my groups SSOA and I live in CHAT while I’m at work. My daily journal is now KTC…

Dweirick my friend, that's some awesome shit! The more involved, the more accountability! Do all you can do for new guy's remember how you felt first couple weeks. Proud of you! Quit with you anyday!

I remember when you first walked into this dojo my friend. You are now one of the masters and we are the benefactors of your friendship and strength. I just love seeing the growth of every person who walks through our dojo doors. Doesn't matter who you are or where you are from, you just need to have the desire to improve yourself. I see a lot of individual growth on a daily basis in this dojo, and it's not just quitting dip. The funny thing is that quitting dip may turn out to be just the beginning of a longer journey towards health, humanity and happiness. We are all changing our lives for the better, and the best part is, that we're helping each other do it...and YOUR contribution, with Brianl and EOD, has become a very big part of our dojo. So, thank you. And well done brother.

[pab1964]

I started a journal before I joined KTC thinking I could do this on my own thankfully I was smart enough to do some research and I found this place. I stopped writing in my journal after only nine days and this is why:


Day – 56 I have neglected my journal because I have thrown myself into KTC 110%. I have been tracking down quitters who do not post roll, I give support to new quitters, I help with my groups SSOA and I live in CHAT while I’m at work. My daily journal is now KTC…

Dweirick my friend, that's some awesome shit! The more involved, the more accountability! Do all you can do for new guy's remember how you felt first couple weeks. Proud of you! Quit with you anyday!

[DWEIRICK]

I started a journal before I joined KTC thinking I could do this on my own thankfully I was smart enough to do some research and I found this place. I stopped writing in my journal after only nine days and this is why:


Day – 56 I have neglected my journal because I have thrown myself into KTC 110%. I have been tracking down quitters who do not post roll, I give support to new quitters, I help with my groups SSOA and I live in CHAT while I’m at work. My daily journal is now KTC…

[DWEIRICK]

Today marks fifty days nicotine free and I must say this has been one hell of a journey!! From two weeks of fog, shakes, rage, depression, headaches, self-loathing and so on to holy shit this feels great. IÂ’m still a little bitchy here and there and IÂ’m still getting cravings, but with each +1 there getting easier to combat.


In these first fifty days I have lived in chat, September Group Me, got tons of numbers (some not even from my quit group), kept 100% roll post, reached out to new quitters and last, but certainty not least I have secured my quit further by helping with the September Spreadsheet of accountability.


So here is to the next 50 days with my brothers and sisters of September just one day at a timeÂ…..

[DWEIRICK]

Almost lost my infant son to a near drowning incident yesterday by far the ultimate test to my quit.

I was at the Firehouse doing training as we always do on Monday nights and my wife took my son for a walk like she does everyday. I could hear my phone ringing about an hour into training, but I did not recognize the number so I blew it off. I blew off a frantic lady trying to reach me to say she had my wife and infant son who was in his stroller and the stroller brakes failed to engage and my son went down a large ramp right into the river. A white car pulls up front of the fire station and my wife steps out soaked from jumping in the river to get our son. She is crying so bad I can barley understand her and I look in the car confused as to why the hell she is in someones car that I have never met and I see my son soaked and marks on his head sitting there with a big ass smile when he sees daddy. I mange to calm my wife a little she explains what happened and I tell her we need to go to the ER right away to have him checked out.

Now at this point I'm beyond fucking pissed at my wife how could she just let my fucking baby almost drown yeah not many good thoughts going threw my head at that point. (It was a complete accident and I held in my rage towards my wife in doing so probably saved my marriage since I was not in the right mindset at the time) I won't lie though I didn't even think about dip I was so worried about my son that we got in our truck and raced to the ER. My son checked out in great health couple bumps and bruises, but he will be fine. Three kids were swimming in the river when this shit went down these three kids did not know my wife or my son, but they swam to the sinking stroller and rescued my boy as my wife jumped in to get him. I will never forget what these kids did for me and my family.

I'm extremely proud that I stayed committed to my quit when I could've just walked away because my mind was shattered. In the back of my head I knew I made a promise to my brothers and sisters to not use and no matter what I would not use....

To all the Cavers and Newbs reading this no matter what shit your going threw during your quit it's never ok to Cave. I just went threw absolute hell and putting that garbage back in my mouth never crossed my mind so remember that when you hit the hard times....

Damn.....just damn! Good Lord was smiling on you and yours! Glad everything worked out!

Most definitely was Pab thanks brother!

[pab1964]

Almost lost my infant son to a near drowning incident yesterday by far the ultimate test to my quit.

I was at the Firehouse doing training as we always do on Monday nights and my wife took my son for a walk like she does everyday. I could hear my phone ringing about an hour into training, but I did not recognize the number so I blew it off. I blew off a frantic lady trying to reach me to say she had my wife and infant son who was in his stroller and the stroller brakes failed to engage and my son went down a large ramp right into the river. A white car pulls up front of the fire station and my wife steps out soaked from jumping in the river to get our son. She is crying so bad I can barley understand her and I look in the car confused as to why the hell she is in someones car that I have never met and I see my son soaked and marks on his head sitting there with a big ass smile when he sees daddy. I mange to calm my wife a little she explains what happened and I tell her we need to go to the ER right away to have him checked out.

Now at this point I'm beyond fucking pissed at my wife how could she just let my fucking baby almost drown yeah not many good thoughts going threw my head at that point. (It was a complete accident and I held in my rage towards my wife in doing so probably saved my marriage since I was not in the right mindset at the time) I won't lie though I didn't even think about dip I was so worried about my son that we got in our truck and raced to the ER. My son checked out in great health couple bumps and bruises, but he will be fine. Three kids were swimming in the river when this shit went down these three kids did not know my wife or my son, but they swam to the sinking stroller and rescued my boy as my wife jumped in to get him. I will never forget what these kids did for me and my family.

I'm extremely proud that I stayed committed to my quit when I could've just walked away because my mind was shattered. In the back of my head I knew I made a promise to my brothers and sisters to not use and no matter what I would not use....

To all the Cavers and Newbs reading this no matter what shit your going threw during your quit it's never ok to Cave. I just went threw absolute hell and putting that garbage back in my mouth never crossed my mind so remember that when you hit the hard times....

Damn.....just damn! Good Lord was smiling on you and yours! Glad everything worked out!

[DWEIRICK]

Almost lost my infant son to a near drowning incident yesterday by far the ultimate test to my quit.

I was at the Firehouse doing training as we always do on Monday nights and my wife took my son for a walk like she does everyday. I could hear my phone ringing about an hour into training, but I did not recognize the number so I blew it off. I blew off a frantic lady trying to reach me to say she had my wife and infant son who was in his stroller and the stroller brakes failed to engage and my son went down a large ramp right into the river. A white car pulls up front of the fire station and my wife steps out soaked from jumping in the river to get our son. She is crying so bad I can barley understand her and I look in the car confused as to why the hell she is in someones car that I have never met and I see my son soaked and marks on his head sitting there with a big ass smile when he sees daddy. I mange to calm my wife a little she explains what happened and I tell her we need to go to the ER right away to have him checked out.

Now at this point I'm beyond fucking pissed at my wife how could she just let my fucking baby almost drown yeah not many good thoughts going threw my head at that point. (It was a complete accident and I held in my rage towards my wife in doing so probably saved my marriage since I was not in the right mindset at the time) I won't lie though I didn't even think about dip I was so worried about my son that we got in our truck and raced to the ER. My son checked out in great health couple bumps and bruises, but he will be fine. Three kids were swimming in the river when this shit went down these three kids did not know my wife or my son, but they swam to the sinking stroller and rescued my boy as my wife jumped in to get him. I will never forget what these kids did for me and my family.

I'm extremely proud that I stayed committed to my quit when I could've just walked away because my mind was shattered. In the back of my head I knew I made a promise to my brothers and sisters to not use and no matter what I would not use....

To all the Cavers and Newbs reading this no matter what shit your going threw during your quit it's never ok to Cave. I just went threw absolute hell and putting that garbage back in my mouth never crossed my mind so remember that when you hit the hard times....

[pab1964]

So I posted this in my Group over at September, but I think I should add it here as well:

I have to tell all of you this story quick.... So I like most of you have an addictive personality not only am I addicted to nicotine, but I'm also a "functioning alcoholic" what I mean by this is I have a full time job, a part time job, a family, the fire department and my dear friend booze. I have off every other Wednesday to Friday and normally I would get lit at least one of those night's. I'm off this week so guess what I would normally be doing.... I was at the store today to get diaper's, wipes etc, but since I have completely changed my lifestyle since I joined KTC I bought a case of water instead of my normal booze run... Man this place has a huge effect on me and not just my nicotine abuse....I freaking love it here!!!!

D my friend that is huge! I myself am damn proud of you! Takes a great man not only to admit he's an addict but be willing to just quit 2 extremely hard addictions at once! Thanks to you my quit is stronger today! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!

[Fastball35]

So I posted this in my Group over at September, but I think I should add it here as well:

I have to tell all of you this story quick.... So I like most of you have an addictive personality not only am I addicted to nicotine, but I'm also a "functioning alcoholic" what I mean by this is I have a full time job, a part time job, a family, the fire department and my dear friend booze. I have off every other Wednesday to Friday and normally I would get lit at least one of those night's. I'm off this week so guess what I would normally be doing.... I was at the store today to get diaper's, wipes etc, but since I have completely changed my lifestyle since I joined KTC I bought a case of water instead of my normal booze run... Man this place has a huge effect on me and not just my nicotine abuse....I freaking love it here!!!!

That is EXACTLY what this website is for. Quitting nicotine and tobacco can lead to so many other awesome lifestyle changes due to the fact that the nic and tobacco caused negative lifestyle changes in the first place. I also have found my alcohol intake to have gone down mainly because one of my favorite times to dip was after a nice buzz. Sometimes the only reason I got a buzz! So pathetic to realize things like this. But keep on going strong D you get it