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Re: First Week
« Reply #237 on: November 20, 2025, 11:44:56 AM »
Day 157

Today I made the difficult decision to reach out for some help and start therapy again. Things have gotten heavy lately, to the point where I’ve been struggling just to feel present, and those feelings have been getting stronger each day. I’ve dealt with mental-health challenges for a long time, and as you can imagine, working in 9-1-1 and public safety takes a real toll on your mind and overall well-being.

Quitting nicotine has also brought some old wounds back to the surface—things I had been numbing instead of healing. And if I want to keep moving forward and become the person I know I can be, it’s time to work through those things with real support.

Admitting that I needed help wasn’t easy. But I spent some time talking with BRD, and he gave me the push I desperately needed. Thank you, brother. I appreciate you more than you know.

Here’s to doing the hard work and taking care of myself—one day at a time.
Proud of you for recognizing the need and taking that step to seek help. I leverage mental help resources myself and it's nothing to be ashamed about. Proud to be quit with you today!
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8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 | 32nd FL: 01.27.25 | 33rd FL: 03.07.25 | 34th FL: 08.15.25 |

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Re: First Week
« Reply #236 on: November 20, 2025, 11:26:11 AM »
Day 157

Today I made the difficult decision to reach out for some help and start therapy again. Things have gotten heavy lately, to the point where I’ve been struggling just to feel present, and those feelings have been getting stronger each day. I’ve dealt with mental-health challenges for a long time, and as you can imagine, working in 9-1-1 and public safety takes a real toll on your mind and overall well-being.

Quitting nicotine has also brought some old wounds back to the surface—things I had been numbing instead of healing. And if I want to keep moving forward and become the person I know I can be, it’s time to work through those things with real support.

Admitting that I needed help wasn’t easy. But I spent some time talking with BRD, and he gave me the push I desperately needed. Thank you, brother. I appreciate you more than you know.

Here’s to doing the hard work and taking care of myself—one day at a time.
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Re: First Week
« Reply #235 on: November 19, 2025, 10:42:03 AM »
Day 156

THE COST OF COMPLACENCY

At some point in your quit, you’re going to feel invincible—like you’ve finally crushed the cravings, buried the addiction, and walked away from the weak version of yourself that used to cave. But here’s the truth you better not forget that nic-bitch never left. She’s been lurking in the shadows the entire time.

While you were relaxing, she was training.
While you were feeling “safe,” she was sharpening her tactics.
While you were letting your guard down, she was studying your patterns, waiting for the exact moment you stop paying attention.

She watches you slack off.
She watches you post less.
She sees you skipping days, acting like you’re untouchable.

And that’s exactly when she moves in—quiet, calculated, patient—waiting for the tiniest crack in your armor so she can slam her way back into your life.

So how do you destroy her?

You beat her by doing the one thing she can’t handle:
Keeping your promise—24 hours at a time—no excuses, no negotiations.

When you stay alert, when you expect her games, when you plan for her ambushes, she’s powerless. She hates your vigilance. She knows she can’t break someone who refuses to get comfortable.

This fight never ends—not for an addict.
Complacency is the doorway she crawls through.
No matter your day count, no matter how strong you feel—
she is waiting. And she will strike the moment you stop fighting.

So don’t stop.
Don’t slack.
Don’t give her an inch.

You stay ready, or you pay the price.
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Re: First Week
« Reply #234 on: November 13, 2025, 06:49:03 AM »
Day 150

Due to recent events with our daughter, my wife and I had to make the tough decision to switch shifts. I’ll be moving to nights so that there’s always an adult at home with no gaps. It’s not an easy change — I worked hard to get back to daylight — but right now, this is what’s best for our family.

The move does come with a $3 an hour raise, which is nice, but honestly, it’s about more than that. It’s about doing what needs to be done. I don’t plan on this being a permanent shift, but for now, it’s the right call.

Through all of this, my quit remains solid. Navigating my daughter’s struggles with drugs and alcohol without leaning on nicotine has been a huge eye-opener. It’s shown me that if I can make it through this without caving, there’s nothing that can derail my quit.

That doesn’t mean I’m “safe” or “cured” — far from it. I know better than to take this for granted. I’ll keep showing up, one day at a time, until I can’t type the day count anymore.
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Re: First Week
« Reply #233 on: November 11, 2025, 09:44:46 PM »
Today was a complete disaster of epic proportions.
After bringing our son home from a medical procedure, we discovered that our 16-year-old daughter had gotten more marijuana and was using it while we were gone. Needless to say, that was the end of the line. This has already been a major point of tension between my wife and me, and today it came to a breaking point — I was faced with either a divorce or she had to go live elsewhere.

Thankfully, cooler heads prevailed. We agreed that she needs help, and we’re getting her into rehab for drug and alcohol treatment. But I won’t lie — today was one of the hardest tests to my quit I’ve ever faced.
Instead of driving to the convenience store like a little bitch, I sat in my car alone for a few minutes, trying to collect my thoughts. My head was spinning. I knew I couldn’t just pretend I wasn’t at risk of caving, so I picked up my phone and called MCARMO.
He didn’t have to talk me out of caving — because at this point, there is nothing I will ever face, no matter how awful or hard, that will push me to pick up that can again. But he did talk me off the life edge and helped me get my head straight.
Moral of the story: numbers — and real connections behind those numbers — are absolutely vital.

I called Mike because I’ve known him since my first failed quit back in 2015. He was the first quitter I ever met in person. He knows my old situation and my current one, and that’s because we text every day, even if it’s just to share our day count.
I’ve got plenty of other brothers and sisters I could have called too — because over time, I’ve built genuine relationships, not just stored phone numbers.
You are the key to your own success. Use every tool here — they’re free, and they work. Build those connections before you need them. When the storm hits, you’ll be grateful you did.
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Re: First Week
« Reply #232 on: November 11, 2025, 03:26:01 PM »
Day 148

Today we had to take our 7 year old boy in for an upper GI scope and they had to insert a tube to measure his acid production as he has been having issues with acid reflux, choking and some other symptoms. He is back home resting and we go back down tomorrow to have the acid device removed. Today was the first time that I had to be in the hospital with one of the kids without that shitty nic bitch and let me tell you it felt freaking awesome. It was awesome to not think to myself "where and when can I sneak off to throw a cat turd in" Making progress ODAAT..

On top of this issue with our boy we are still struggling with our teen daughter and that has been an absolute train wreck shit show but realizing that dip won't solve anything has allowed me to further prove that I can get through anything this life throws at me without the nic bitch. Life might be stressful and chaotic as hell right now, but my quit is solid and more protected and guarded then it has ever been!!
Prayers for you and your family brother! For me, without nic or alcohol, it's scary to face life's challenges without those crutches. But in reality, the mental clarity that comes with being quit allows us to face life's challenges head on with precision and the proper headspace to make the best decisions for our families. Keep up the solid quit!
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8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 | 32nd FL: 01.27.25 | 33rd FL: 03.07.25 | 34th FL: 08.15.25 |

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Re: First Week
« Reply #231 on: November 11, 2025, 02:21:37 PM »
Day 148

Today we had to take our 7 year old boy in for an upper GI scope and they had to insert a tube to measure his acid production as he has been having issues with acid reflux, choking and some other symptoms. He is back home resting and we go back down tomorrow to have the acid device removed. Today was the first time that I had to be in the hospital with one of the kids without that shitty nic bitch and let me tell you it felt freaking awesome. It was awesome to not think to myself "where and when can I sneak off to throw a cat turd in" Making progress ODAAT..

On top of this issue with our boy we are still struggling with our teen daughter and that has been an absolute train wreck shit show but realizing that dip won't solve anything has allowed me to further prove that I can get through anything this life throws at me without the nic bitch. Life might be stressful and chaotic as hell right now, but my quit is solid and more protected and guarded then it has ever been!!
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Re: First Week
« Reply #230 on: November 03, 2025, 04:22:11 PM »
Day 140

39 Years Today — and My Final Quit

Today I turn 39, and I find myself reflecting on all the birthdays I once swore I’d be quit by — yet couldn’t get my head out of my ass long enough to make it stick. Back in 2015, I was given an incredible opportunity to quit for good when I joined KTC — and I torched it. Then again in 2018, I was given another chance… and I repeated the same behavior. Another shot, another flame-out.
Ten more years of birthdays spent using this poison. Ten more years of abusing my body and hiding from the brothers who once believed in me and supported me — until I gave them every reason not to. But not anymore. From this birthday forward, there will be no more “I’ll be quit by my 40th” or any other future milestone. That ends today — because I am quit. This is my final quit.

Getting the nod to conduct again lit my quit on fire. Not that it wasn’t already burning, but being given this second opportunity — one I truly didn’t deserve — has been an incredible boost. I will make this one stick. I will not tarnish the halls of KTC or the legacy of all the badass conductors who’ve carried this role before me. To those who believed in me — who saw that I could change, and that I did change — thank you. It means the world to me. The best birthday gift I could ever ask for is right here, right now: being free from this soul-sucking addiction.
Happy birthday sir!! So happy you are here; one day at a time!!
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8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 | 32nd FL: 01.27.25 | 33rd FL: 03.07.25 | 34th FL: 08.15.25 |

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Re: First Week
« Reply #229 on: November 03, 2025, 03:44:04 PM »
Day 140

39 Years Today — and My Final Quit

Today I turn 39, and I find myself reflecting on all the birthdays I once swore I’d be quit by — yet couldn’t get my head out of my ass long enough to make it stick. Back in 2015, I was given an incredible opportunity to quit for good when I joined KTC — and I torched it. Then again in 2018, I was given another chance… and I repeated the same behavior. Another shot, another flame-out.
Ten more years of birthdays spent using this poison. Ten more years of abusing my body and hiding from the brothers who once believed in me and supported me — until I gave them every reason not to. But not anymore. From this birthday forward, there will be no more “I’ll be quit by my 40th” or any other future milestone. That ends today — because I am quit. This is my final quit.

Getting the nod to conduct again lit my quit on fire. Not that it wasn’t already burning, but being given this second opportunity — one I truly didn’t deserve — has been an incredible boost. I will make this one stick. I will not tarnish the halls of KTC or the legacy of all the badass conductors who’ve carried this role before me. To those who believed in me — who saw that I could change, and that I did change — thank you. It means the world to me. The best birthday gift I could ever ask for is right here, right now: being free from this soul-sucking addiction.
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Re: First Week
« Reply #228 on: October 21, 2025, 02:34:25 PM »
Day 127

When to leave KTC (September is past HOF so we are bound to lose a few....)

This has been bounced around so many times, but I thought I would touch on it as I myself have struggled with staying the course in the past….
 
When is the best time to leave KTC? Although you might think the answer would be simple, it's far from that. Most of us came here because we had no other option. We tried all kinds of methods and other ways, and we failed each and every time. Only when we found KTC and the quitters in these halls were we able to break away from this addiction so why would you leave if it is working? Personally, I know for a fact that if I was not here posting daily and was solely relying on myself, I would fail. I know this because I have done this and I have failed. For me it is simple - leaving here lets the door open for nicotine, leaving here puts me at risk for another day 1 and leaving here after the only cost I pay is a daily roll post is probably one of the most idiotic things I could possibly do next to caving. I’m sure many are able to leave and stay the course, but for me I am not willing to risk my quit. I will continue to post each and every day as a reminder of the life I left behind. See you tomorrow on roll call!!
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Re: First Week
« Reply #227 on: October 13, 2025, 03:59:53 PM »
Day 119

War On Nicotine

Each of us wages war on this evil and destructive substance day in and day and unfortunately much like war and the battlefield we will lose brothers/sisters. It is an almost unpreventable event no matter the number of days we have stacked up. We mourn the fallen, but we keep fighting for each other, but more importantly for our individual freedom. Take a second to remember them even if they lost this battle on bad terms (cave, leaving with no explanation or straight up ghost) we can learn a valuable lesson from these losses. Our fight wages on until the end of time as there is no end date to addiction. We continue to win battles, but for us the war will always wage on. Make sure your quit is armored and protected as best as possible. Do you have digits for others? Do others have your digits? Do you show up each and every day? Are you here WUPPing or are you strolling to the battlefield at the end of the day while your team has been waging the fight all day long without you? Are you someone your team can lean on when shit gets heavy? Are you willing to be held accountable when you are not protecting your own quit? If you are slipping in any of those areas, you are leaving the door open for the Nic bitches sneak attacks and believe me she’s full of them….

I let myself get “got” by her twice here and I was graced enough to survive and continue this fight. I will do whatever it takes to make sure that door is bolted, welded and sealed shut. No more cracks in my armor…
Don't ever forget that is a daily thing. I often lost sight of it over the years, but anytime that I felt disconnected, I would double down on the basics and pick up a few new quitters.
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Re: First Week
« Reply #226 on: October 13, 2025, 03:57:17 PM »
Day 119

War On Nicotine

Each of us wages war on this evil and destructive substance day in and day and unfortunately much like war and the battlefield we will lose brothers/sisters. It is an almost unpreventable event no matter the number of days we have stacked up. We mourn the fallen, but we keep fighting for each other, but more importantly for our individual freedom. Take a second to remember them even if they lost this battle on bad terms (cave, leaving with no explanation or straight up ghost) we can learn a valuable lesson from these losses. Our fight wages on until the end of time as there is no end date to addiction. We continue to win battles, but for us the war will always wage on. Make sure your quit is armored and protected as best as possible. Do you have digits for others? Do others have your digits? Do you show up each and every day? Are you here WUPPing or are you strolling to the battlefield at the end of the day while your team has been waging the fight all day long without you? Are you someone your team can lean on when shit gets heavy? Are you willing to be held accountable when you are not protecting your own quit? If you are slipping in any of those areas, you are leaving the door open for the Nic bitches sneak attacks and believe me she’s full of them….

I let myself get “got” by her twice here and I was graced enough to survive and continue this fight. I will do whatever it takes to make sure that door is bolted, welded and sealed shut. No more cracks in my armor…
Don't ever forget that is a daily thing. I often lost sight of it over the years, but anytime that I felt disconnected, I would double down on the basics and pick up a few new quitters.
There are no circumstances in which using nicotine will improve the outcome.

My journey. The best part it is not over yet.

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Re: First Week
« Reply #225 on: October 13, 2025, 03:46:07 PM »
Day 119

War On Nicotine

Each of us wages war on this evil and destructive substance day in and day and unfortunately much like war and the battlefield we will lose brothers/sisters. It is an almost unpreventable event no matter the number of days we have stacked up. We mourn the fallen, but we keep fighting for each other, but more importantly for our individual freedom. Take a second to remember them even if they lost this battle on bad terms (cave, leaving with no explanation or straight up ghost) we can learn a valuable lesson from these losses. Our fight wages on until the end of time as there is no end date to addiction. We continue to win battles, but for us the war will always wage on. Make sure your quit is armored and protected as best as possible. Do you have digits for others? Do others have your digits? Do you show up each and every day? Are you here WUPPing or are you strolling to the battlefield at the end of the day while your team has been waging the fight all day long without you? Are you someone your team can lean on when shit gets heavy? Are you willing to be held accountable when you are not protecting your own quit? If you are slipping in any of those areas, you are leaving the door open for the Nic bitches sneak attacks and believe me she’s full of them….

I let myself get “got” by her twice here and I was graced enough to survive and continue this fight. I will do whatever it takes to make sure that door is bolted, welded and sealed shut. No more cracks in my armor…
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Re: First Week
« Reply #224 on: October 05, 2025, 10:20:26 AM »
Day 110

Ten days post HOF for most of us the celebrations are winding down and now we are just facing another day in this never-ending fight. I know from my past experiences here adding a banner to roll call and asking people to sign up for the next floor was something we all looked forward to! A way of not letting those first 100 days be forgotten or the only milestone that needed celebration. Every win deserves a celebration in this battle! For some the wins seem few and far between at times, but they do come I promise! If you’re Pre-HoF or Post it doesn’t matter at the end of the day as we are all in this fight together, but it’s important to stop and take a minute to reflect and truly appreciate what this community does for people who have no other options! It’s important to pay it forward with your stories both triumphs and what you feel might be a loss.  You have no idea how powerful your story could be to someone who’s either on the edge or doesn’t know how to keep fighting!

A few of the members of September 25 have branched out and started posting support to the new groups and that is awesome! Good on you and I hope it helps your quit as much as it does mine!

1st floor for the third time was great and all, but I won’t be seeing it ever again. Here’s to the 2nd floor and the wins and losses we will face together as a group!!
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Re: First Week
« Reply #223 on: October 02, 2025, 07:00:11 AM »
Day 108

Last night I got hit with an awfully realistic cave dream. I was in my shower when I realized I had a dip of cope wintergreen in, and I immediately spit it on the shower floor. My mind was racing with how it got in there in the first place as I didn’t remember opening the can or putting said dip in. Then I was trying to figure out how to explain this event to my group and all the people who dropped their guard to support a retread. I was terrified and I was trying to come up with all these ideas on how to handle it. I moved from the shower to my couch where said can fell out of my pocket and it was a can of beef jerky that was wintergreen flavor which was really weird, but what I found even more disturbing was the fact that it looked, felt and smelled just like cope wintergreen when I opened it up. My mind then went to someone is playing tricks on me and changed out my fake with the real shit. I then woke up and was soaked in sweat. I had to go downstairs for a glass of water and to collect my thoughts. Holy shit that sucked….
"The past is only useful as a learning experience...  Doing the right thing today is what matters." 30yraddict

"Caving is never accidental — it's deliberate."

HOF Speech

Quit Date: 6-17-2025, HOF~9-24-2025