You can do this! I am new myself, at day 6. I never would have believed I could have made it 6 days had you told me I could but I have.
I was a 22 year Cope user. If I was awake, it was in my mouth. I was like you. Completely aware of the damage I was doing, but still not concerned enough to quit. Finally though, I was just sick of being a slave to this shit, sick of the nasty ass spitting, the foul smelling spit cups, horrible breath...........
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index.php?showforum=13Some of the HOFers will be along shortly to provide you with more guidance. Just remember you can absolutely beat this. Make it a challenge!