A little encuragement please...

[ktharp307]

The 30th has great significants for you but how great would it be to tell those you have lost that you have been quit for four days your body is starting to recover from the fog and you are going to beat the shit out of this addiction. I am not an expert but I have quit and would like you to quit with october and the rest of use on this site.

[p23]

Strange, you got the same response here as you did in the chat room. Go figure.

"I can't quit yet, I have a test."

[wastepanel]

Quitting is ugly. It can get mean and nasty, and it can leave you curled up in the fetal position looking for mercy.

If you can't take simple truths about yourself at face value, then you will never quit.

We don't give excuses here. We simply quit and support each other. We have a process that is simple, but sometimes it's not easy. We post roll. We keep our word. We repeat.

If you are pulling bullshit tactics that will lead to your failure, we will call you out. This is a support group, and we've heard it many times.

If you quit today, the poison would be out of your system by the 30th.

[Wt57]

Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions.  I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I  can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy

DD you want everyone to be kind and treat you special your in the wrong place! You earn respect here and if you treat your quit serious you get respect! You half ass approach your quit and find excuses for everything your gonna get your smart ass handed to you on a exam table. You quit now you might make it you wait you might make it. You whine before you even start, you will cave!

You want to see some real quiters in October look at Sambo and Vin they jumped right in and Quit!

[raiderx]

DD

This shit is easy yet it is the hardest thing you will ever do.
Most of us on this site knew better than to stick that shit in our lips.
First thing to do is recognize you are an addict and it seems you have done that. You are half way there. Further ahead than when I started.
Next, there is no quick fix, this is going to suck but you need to learn to love the suck.
Finally, make sure you are quitting for you and you alone. Be selfish

But the great thing is all that you need to do to quit is this

1. Post Roll
2. Quit fot Today
3. Repeat tomorrow

You see DD the thing most people do is quit forever or quit for someone else. You see that does not work. Forever is a long time and if you quit for someone else you will soon resent that person for taking away your little filthy friend.

PROMISE YOURSELF YOU WILL QUIT FOR TODAY
LET TOMORROW WAIT.

[No Retreat]

Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions.  I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I  can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy

DD- You are special, just like everyone else here at KTC. We are all addicts, thats why we are here.
Do you really think you are the only one here with addictive personality traits? Do you really think you are the only super smart person with addictive personality traits? Or that many of us don't have the same familial issues or worse (believe me, some are way worse than what you describe). And do you really think we would be telling you to quit NOW if we didn't have more collective knowledge and wisdom about managing our addictions?
Get over yourself and face the true facts. You admit the addiction part, which is great because a lot of people think they just have a bad habit. But you seem willing to blame genes rather than yourself for continuing despite your high intelligence. Quit doing that. You can manage your addiction and be nicotine free. But you have to grow up and own your quit.
It isn't easy, but it is simple. If you decide to go all in and quit, send me a PM and I'll help you. It is that simple.

:wub:

[T-Cell]

Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions. I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy

DD- You are special, just like everyone else here at KTC. We are all addicts, thats why we are here.
Do you really think you are the only one here with addictive personality traits? Do you really think you are the only super smart person with addictive personality traits? Or that many of us don't have the same familial issues or worse (believe me, some are way worse than what you describe). And do you really think we would be telling you to quit NOW if we didn't have more collective knowledge and wisdom about managing our addictions?
Get over yourself and face the true facts. You admit the addiction part, which is great because a lot of people think they just have a bad habit. But you seem willing to blame genes rather than yourself for continuing despite your high intelligence. Quit doing that. You can manage your addiction and be nicotine free. But you have to grow up and own your quit.
It isn't easy, but it is simple. If you decide to go all in and quit, send me a PM and I'll help you. It is that simple.

[Notdeadyet]

Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions.  I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I  can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy

You are ashamed, yet you are sucking on that cat turd right now? You are smart, but you will continue to poison yourself for 4 more days? Read your own bullshit and open your eyes.

The only way to beat your drug addiction is to stop putting nicotine in your body in any form right now. Make a promise to your October 2012 HOF group that you will not use any nicotine today by posting roll call. Keep your promise, keep your integrity, and hold your head high. Wake up and repeat tomorrow.

I get to enjoy today without any nicotine withdrawal. Bet you wish you could say the same. You can too real soon, but you have to make quitting the number one priority in your life right now!

[Nolaq]

Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions. I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy

Another butterfly that needs attention.

The only thing we plan around here is how NOT to use nicotine TODAY!

Waiting until the weekend (or any date for that matter) is just dumb. You say you're so intelligent? Then why don't you give us that college educated answer as to WHY the 30th is better than being free TODAY?

Ten bucks we don't see another post.

[Buddy Mac]

Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions.  I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I  can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy

When you're quit, THEN you can post up. But you're just a pathetic dipper right now.

I doubt I will see you on the 30th. I hope I do.. but I aint holding my breath.


Got to say I agree. I will be surprised to see her post roll on 30th. I don't know what is wrong with today myself.

Buddy Mac

[mikegooch]

please check your email.. i sent you a msg.. Gooch

[redtrain14]

DD

Please use some of your incredible intelligence to tell me why quitting on the 30th will be easier than today.

[No Retreat]

Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions. I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy

When you're quit, THEN you can post up. But you're just a pathetic dipper right now.

I doubt I will see you on the 30th. I hope I do.. but I aint holding my breath.

[divinedichotomy]

Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions. I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy