Diesel's Intro Page

[Mthomas3824]

Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk??? Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.

I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ". That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.

Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.

Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?

Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.

Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.

My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!

Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.

[Diesel2112]

Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk??? Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.

I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ". That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.

Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.

Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?

Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.

[916quit]

It's funny. My wife has me running all over town doing little errands for Christmas...and I don't fucking want to do them.

That's progress.

In the past I would jump at the request to run to the bakery to pick up some cannolis, or head to the grocery store to get everything on her list, or whatever else she asks me to do. I think we all know why, especially all the ninjas.

Now I fucking hate it and bitch up a storm. She said yesterday, " you used to love going to the store for me, now all you do is bitch and complain when I ask you to go".

Yeah, because now that I'm free I see that stuff for what it truly is...a major pain in the ass and not a chance to be alone with my old "friend". I'm also home a lot quicker too.

She used ask why it took me 45 minutes to run to cvs to pick up some milk. I would have to make up some b.s. story like the store was packed, some idiot was holding up the line for a really long time, I ran into so and so and we ended up talking for 25 minutes, etc...What a fucking loser. I would bold face lie right to my wifes face. Didn't even have the balls to admit I was an addict. These are the things I regret most about chewing for 15 years.

Oh well, the past is the past and their ain't shit I can do to change it. Now all I can do is bitch and complain like a normal man and be thankful that I don't even have the urge to use while I'm out running these pain in the ass errands anymore. I will take that exchange any day.

Again, that's progress fellas.

Merry Christmas to all you bad ass quitters out there, I hope its a blessed one!

Diesel2112

That's hysterical - thanks for sharing!
Merry Christmas!

[Diesel2112]

It's funny. My wife has me running all over town doing little errands for Christmas...and I don't fucking want to do them.

That's progress.

In the past I would jump at the request to run to the bakery to pick up some cannolis, or head to the grocery store to get everything on her list, or whatever else she asks me to do. I think we all know why, especially all the ninjas.

Now I fucking hate it and bitch up a storm. She said yesterday, " you used to love going to the store for me, now all you do is bitch and complain when I ask you to go".

Yeah, because now that I'm free I see that stuff for what it truly is...a major pain in the ass and not a chance to be alone with my old "friend". I'm also home a lot quicker too.

She used ask why it took me 45 minutes to run to cvs to pick up some milk. I would have to make up some b.s. story like the store was packed, some idiot was holding up the line for a really long time, I ran into so and so and we ended up talking for 25 minutes, etc...What a fucking loser. I would bold face lie right to my wifes face. Didn't even have the balls to admit I was an addict. These are the things I regret most about chewing for 15 years.

Oh well, the past is the past and their ain't shit I can do to change it. Now all I can do is bitch and complain like a normal man and be thankful that I don't even have the urge to use while I'm out running these pain in the ass errands anymore. I will take that exchange any day.

Again, that's progress fellas.

Merry Christmas to all you bad ass quitters out there, I hope its a blessed one!

Diesel2112

[Scowick65]

My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.

2nd floor=PROUD

I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199,   201, or 423 for that matter.

But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses,  if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful. 

There's some fucked up shit going down in this world.  I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet,  that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you,  via an online community.  Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together.  I'm glad to be a part of it.

Quit on,
Diesel2112

'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.

Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.

Congratulations.

congrats bro, and proud of you! 'clap'

Congrats Sept '12 Brother!!

Congrats Diesel! Rock on my quit brother!

Motor on quitter!

[TSNUS]

My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.

2nd floor=PROUD

I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199,   201, or 423 for that matter.

But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses,  if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful. 

There's some fucked up shit going down in this world.  I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet,  that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you,  via an online community.  Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together.  I'm glad to be a part of it.

Quit on,
Diesel2112

'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.

Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.

Congratulations.

congrats bro, and proud of you! 'clap'

Congrats Sept '12 Brother!!

Congrats Diesel! Rock on my quit brother!

[fwhammer]

My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.

2nd floor=PROUD

I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199,  201, or 423 for that matter.

But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses,  if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful. 

There's some fucked up shit going down in this world.  I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet,  that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you,  via an online community.  Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together.  I'm glad to be a part of it.

Quit on,
Diesel2112

'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.

Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.

Congratulations.

congrats bro, and proud of you! 'clap'

Congrats Sept '12 Brother!!

[kana]

My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.

2nd floor=PROUD

I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199,   201, or 423 for that matter.

But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses,  if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful. 

There's some fucked up shit going down in this world.  I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet,  that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you,  via an online community.  Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together.  I'm glad to be a part of it.

Quit on,
Diesel2112

'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.

Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.

Congratulations.

congrats bro, and proud of you! 'clap'

[Leahy16]

My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.

2nd floor=PROUD

I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199,  201, or 423 for that matter.

But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses,  if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful. 

There's some fucked up shit going down in this world.  I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet,  that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you,  via an online community.  Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together.  I'm glad to be a part of it.

Quit on,
Diesel2112

'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.

Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.

Congratulations.

[SirDerek]

My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.

2nd floor=PROUD

I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199, 201, or 423 for that matter.

But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses, if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful.

There's some fucked up shit going down in this world. I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet, that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you, via an online community. Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together. I'm glad to be a part of it.

Quit on,
Diesel2112

'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.

[Diesel2112]

My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.

2nd floor=PROUD

I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199, 201, or 423 for that matter.

But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses, if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful.

There's some fucked up shit going down in this world. I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet, that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you, via an online community. Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together. I'm glad to be a part of it.

Quit on,
Diesel2112

[copingwithoutcopen]

Damn!!!  Wife out of town and the alone time last night after the kids went to bed was TOUGH.  So is the stress doing all the shit she normally does.  But...I got the tools and will prevail, because I am a fucking quit champion and that's what champs do...they win.  Thanks to 30 for the encouragement today.

"Problemes are to the mind what excercise is to the muscles, they toughen and make strong."

I am strong.  Nicotine is weak.

Scowick shares this bidtit of knowledge: one problem + nicotine = 2 problems

Life is always gonna throw problems at us.

One problem minus nicotine still equals a problem. Trying to eliminate nicotine from that equation is sometimes easier than others. However every time you beat a problem with a +1 of nicotine, you become +1 stronger.

At least that's the way I see it. Nicotine is a mother fucker, no doubt about it...but so am I.

You're a badass quitter Diesel. If this were easy anyone could do it. The fact that anyone has has shown me we can too... beating the triggers all day every day, right by your side.
“The three great essentials to achieve anything worth while are, first, hard work; second, stick-to-itiveness; third, common sense.” Thomas Edison

[Diesel2112]

Damn!!!  Wife out of town and the alone time last night after the kids went to bed was TOUGH.  So is the stress doing all the shit she normally does.  But...I got the tools and will prevail, because I am a fucking quit champion and that's what champs do...they win.  Thanks to 30 for the encouragement today.

"Problemes are to the mind what excercise is to the muscles, they toughen and make strong."

I am strong.  Nicotine is weak.

Scowick shares this bidtit of knowledge: one problem + nicotine = 2 problems

Life is always gonna throw problems at us.

One problem minus nicotine still equals a problem. Trying to eliminate nicotine from that equation is sometimes easier than others. However every time you beat a problem with a +1 of nicotine, you become +1 stronger.

At least that's the way I see it. Nicotine is a mother fucker, no doubt about it...but so am I.

[Kubiak]

Damn!!! Wife out of town and the alone time last night after the kids went to bed was TOUGH. So is the stress doing all the shit she normally does. But...I got the tools and will prevail, because I am a fucking quit champion and that's what champs do...they win. Thanks to 30 for the encouragement today.

"Problemes are to the mind what excercise is to the muscles, they toughen and make strong."

I am strong. Nicotine is weak.

Scowick shares this bidtit of knowledge: one problem + nicotine = 2 problems

[Diesel2112]

Damn!!! Wife out of town and the alone time last night after the kids went to bed was TOUGH. So is the stress doing all the shit she normally does. But...I got the tools and will prevail, because I am a fucking quit champion and that's what champs do...they win. Thanks to 30 for the encouragement today.

"Problemes are to the mind what excercise is to the muscles, they toughen and make strong."

I am strong. Nicotine is weak.