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[916quit]

Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old.  70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death!  Now she will never see him again.

She smoked for 40+ years.  The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough.  Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"  She knew... I think we all did.

It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her.  Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.

As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...

We always say "quit for today" or  "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future.  I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters.  Truth is, it's not. 

While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible.  We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us. 

Never again, for any reason.

Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.

Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!

[Grizzly25]

Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.

She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.

It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.

As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...

We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters. Truth is, it's not.

While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.

Never again, for any reason.

Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.

[cdaniels]

Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.

She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.

It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.

As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...

We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters. Truth is, it's not.

While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.

Never again, for any reason.

sorry for your loss. me and mine lift you and yours in thought and prayers.

[wendell_12]

Sorry to hear that Diesel. I will keep your family in my prayers.

[Tazbutane]

Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.

She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.

It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.

As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...

We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters. Truth is, it's not.

While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.

Never again, for any reason.

sorry for your loss Diesel.

[Diesel2112]

Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.

She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.

It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.

As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...

We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters. Truth is, it's not.

While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.

Never again, for any reason.

[Wt57]

Thanks to all for the encouragement/advice. It really means a lot to me. Took the day off work and just slept as I have a flu buggy funk combo going on. The flu is fadding as managed to eat something and the funk is as well. Tomorrow I get back to life.

I think sometimes I give nic too much credit yet other times still underestimate its power. Regardless life goes on, I'm not gonna die, I feel better than my first week, I got the tools to work through anything and above all I fucking hate nicotine.

I talk tough sometimes but when the nic bitch fucks with me I feel weak. Maybe I shouldn't talk so tough all the time because I dont have all the answers and can still be affected by the bitch?

Nah, fuck that whore. She can fuck with me once in awhile but I always hold the power...not her. I will beat her every time. Sometimes easier than others, but regardless, I will win.

I am strong, she is weak. Plus I have a bunch of champs that have my back. Fuck that bitch.

Keep up the tough talk! I have found several times that the main thing that kept me quit was thinking about the shit I would get if I caved!!! I agree with Waste the early 200 funk was the very worst for me, but by 200 days we've learned so much we know how to deal with it.

[Diesel2112]

Thanks to all for the encouragement/advice. It really means a lot to me. Took the day off work and just slept as I have a flu buggy funk combo going on. The flu is fadding as managed to eat something and the funk is as well. Tomorrow I get back to life.

I think sometimes I give nic too much credit yet other times still underestimate its power. Regardless life goes on, I'm not gonna die, I feel better than my first week, I got the tools to work through anything and above all I fucking hate nicotine.

I talk tough sometimes but when the nic bitch fucks with me I feel weak. Maybe I shouldn't talk so tough all the time because I dont have all the answers and can still be affected by the bitch?

Nah, fuck that whore. She can fuck with me once in awhile but I always hold the power...not her. I will beat her every time. Sometimes easier than others, but regardless, I will win.

I am strong, she is weak. Plus I have a bunch of champs that have my back. Fuck that bitch.

[wastepanel]

Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???   Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd.  Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly.  I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.

I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".   That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat,  my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety.  I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.

Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling.  I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.

Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug?  Or maybe a bit of both?  Fucking nicotine,  always messing with my mind.  Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it.  This ever happen to anyone else?

Fuck it.  Just gonna roll with the punches.  Still pisses me off though.  Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind,  I feel weak.  Shes a confusing cunt.

Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.

My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!

Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.

Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.

It really does take one full year to face all of your triggers. The next hurdle will be your one year anniversary. There will be many things that will bring you back to the early days of your quit. For me, I felt like I was right back in the middle of it.

Just be ready for it. The good news is that it doesn't last long and you will really start to cruise into your second year.

You should PM NOLAQ and/or Roamcountry.

They mentored me through the hurt. I too have no craves or desires to buy a can but there is a phase in addiction that they can see, understand and explain better than me.

I got support there and I would recommend you pm this post to them and get their take.

All part of the healing process. The Nic Bitch is making her last stand. She is whispering in your ear that you can have just "one". She thinks since you are stressed about going back to work she can sink her claws back into you. You are in control! You call the shots!! Get lost Bitch!!!! There will always be these moments. It just gets easier to find another way with deal with the post holidays letdown.

The early 200s are bad for some weird reason.

I think it's because our last real funk was in the 120s, and we almost forgot how bad it can be sometimes. I know I had to lean on quite a few brothers during this time period, and I know others have had to do the same.

It does weird shit to you. It makes you all first weekish, and very rebellious. It's a giant case of the "fuck its" because you've made it past every hurdle (that you know about) and "you still feel like shit so what's the point?".

I can tell you that after emerging from this, you become pretty centered. This seems to be the last really big funk. Use your tools. Lean on your brothers.

When times are good, we practice for times like this.

When times are bad (like this), we lean on what we've practiced.

You can do this.

It gets better.

[Kdip]

Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???   Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd.  Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly.  I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.

I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".   That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat,  my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety.  I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.

Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling.  I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.

Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug?  Or maybe a bit of both?  Fucking nicotine,  always messing with my mind.  Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it.  This ever happen to anyone else?

Fuck it.  Just gonna roll with the punches.  Still pisses me off though.  Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind,  I feel weak.  Shes a confusing cunt.

Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.

My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!

Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.

Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.

It really does take one full year to face all of your triggers. The next hurdle will be your one year anniversary. There will be many things that will bring you back to the early days of your quit. For me, I felt like I was right back in the middle of it.

Just be ready for it. The good news is that it doesn't last long and you will really start to cruise into your second year.

You should PM NOLAQ and/or Roamcountry.

They mentored me through the hurt. I too have no craves or desires to buy a can but there is a phase in addiction that they can see, understand and explain better than me.

I got support there and I would recommend you pm this post to them and get their take.

All part of the healing process. The Nic Bitch is making her last stand. She is whispering in your ear that you can have just "one". She thinks since you are stressed about going back to work she can sink her claws back into you. You are in control! You call the shots!! Get lost Bitch!!!! There will always be these moments. It just gets easier to find another way with deal with the post holidays letdown.

[Mthomas3824]

Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???   Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd.  Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly.  I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.

I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".   That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat,  my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety.  I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.

Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling.  I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.

Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug?  Or maybe a bit of both?  Fucking nicotine,  always messing with my mind.  Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it.  This ever happen to anyone else?

Fuck it.  Just gonna roll with the punches.  Still pisses me off though.  Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind,  I feel weak.  Shes a confusing cunt.

Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.

My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!

Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.

Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.

It really does take one full year to face all of your triggers. The next hurdle will be your one year anniversary. There will be many things that will bring you back to the early days of your quit. For me, I felt like I was right back in the middle of it.

Just be ready for it. The good news is that it doesn't last long and you will really start to cruise into your second year.

You should PM NOLAQ and/or Roamcountry.

They mentored me through the hurt. I too have no craves or desires to buy a can but there is a phase in addiction that they can see, understand and explain better than me.

I got support there and I would recommend you pm this post to them and get their take.

[redtrain14]

Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???   Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd.  Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly.  I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.

I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".   That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat,  my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety.  I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.

Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling.  I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.

Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug?  Or maybe a bit of both?  Fucking nicotine,  always messing with my mind.  Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it.  This ever happen to anyone else?

Fuck it.  Just gonna roll with the punches.  Still pisses me off though.  Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind,  I feel weak.  Shes a confusing cunt.

Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.

My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!

Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.

Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.

It really does take one full year to face all of your triggers. The next hurdle will be your one year anniversary. There will be many things that will bring you back to the early days of your quit. For me, I felt like I was right back in the middle of it.

Just be ready for it. The good news is that it doesn't last long and you will really start to cruise into your second year.

[JW1977]

I don't know if this helps or not..........but I did put you in my spank bank. As a matter of fact, I made a withdrawal this morning ;)

[kana]

Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???   Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd.  Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly.  I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.

I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".   That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat,  my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety.  I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.

Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling.  I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.

Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug?  Or maybe a bit of both?  Fucking nicotine,  always messing with my mind.  Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it.  This ever happen to anyone else?

Fuck it.  Just gonna roll with the punches.  Still pisses me off though.  Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind,  I feel weak.  Shes a confusing cunt.

Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.

My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!

Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.

Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.

understand completely... first of all I think you have some kinda bug. The rest is the bitch. I felt the same way my last funk (136-148?) I learned something last time. I felt out of place, bored, depressed, empty. At the end I was getting pissed and yelling at the shrubs again. I couldn't figure out why I felt this way. I was supposed feel good by now, funks aren't this long. I was looking for something to blame this feeling on, the site, my meds, my life. I then realized we all try to overcomplicate things. This wasn't anything to worry about, it was just your ordinary crappy funk. Just like being sick it can take a week, or two, or less who knows, but the body will always repair itself. That's what it does. Right now we're all getting repaired, and who knows how long it will take, but I do know that ultimately the body will repair itself if you take care of it.
Today's my first day back to work in awhile. I always keep seeds in my work truck as a treat. It's the only place I keep them, and haven't had any in 3 weeks. I 'm actually looking forward to those little things. Don't worry bro, you'll feel better in no time, and you'll be even stronger. quit with you - peace

[Diesel2112]

Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???  Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd.  Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly.  I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.

I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".  That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat,  my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety.  I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.

Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling.  I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.

Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug?  Or maybe a bit of both?  Fucking nicotine,  always messing with my mind.  Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it.  This ever happen to anyone else?

Fuck it.  Just gonna roll with the punches.  Still pisses me off though.  Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind,  I feel weak.  Shes a confusing cunt.

Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.

My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!

Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.

Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.