This is a tough day! I'm sitting in the ICU talking to my wife's grandma. Well, more like talking at her. She doesn't talk back. My wife's parents died in a house fire when she was little and her grandma raised her. She is essentially her mother. Last week she had a mini stroke and we thought she was gonna be fine but while doing an MRI or some such test, they found a tennis ball sized tumor in her head. On Tuesday they did a craniotomy to remove the tumor and see if it was cancerous. They couldn't get all of it and the testing showed it was cancer. She woke up weds and declined chemo or any other treatment. Doc said she had 6-12 months to live if she did chemo or less without. I can't blame her for wanting to go without being riddled with radiation in her last months. Wednesday night she had another stroke. Post op strokes are even worse then normal ones. She has been on life support from then till last night. She is partially breathing on her own today and she can look at you but she cannot move her body or talk. Hell, I'm not even sure she understands what is happening. Her eyes are kinda blank. Doc just told me her prognosis for living much longer is poor. No time frame, just a caution to get her affairs in order. At some point tonight I have to tell this to my wife. She has wanted me to talk with the doc because she gets to emotional. But I wish I had never been told this. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do next. No one in my family has died. My wifes gramma has money and plans for her death but I think her plans have been shot to hell on this one. It's gonna be a hard time. I'm quit regardless. Chewing in the face of a disaster only makes the problem bigger. Gramma smoked for 55 years. Pretty sure I know what I'm gonna blame for her condition.
I haven't updated my intro in awhile. I'm always talking in the quit group. Can't believe my update is a medical one AGAIN. My family life is normally stable. After I quit chewing it seems like my family is getting hit from all angles. Maybe it's just an effect of being older (33). It won't do anything for my quit other then make it stronger. This post folks is what nicotine ultimately leads to. Recognize it. I don't want my family sitting in the ICU wondering what to do now.