So it has been 38 years of my 48 year life that I finally decided to quit. You can't "give it up". Don't ever say that or think that. You have to say "I quit" and you have to say it everyday. You have to say, I quit dipping today but I don't know about tomorrow. I just know today that I will not dip. "Give it up" is like saying I won't take a dip now but maybe later because I'm too weak to say "I quit" and fucking mean it. "Give it up" is for pussys. I'm not a pussy. Used to be but as of Jan 1, 2016, I quit dipping for rest of my life. I just have to keep telling myself that everyday for the rest of my life. Its an 'addiction" just like alcoholism or any other so called "drug addiction".
Luckily, I have a business partner, that I look up to, and he started KillTheCan.Org 413 days ago and has never looked back. He quit and I believe he quit for good. Of course, I said he can't make it, he's been doing it for too long to quit all together. But he did and has. I said if he can do it, I "Can too".
So, I write my "Intro" today on Day 5. I have all the symptoms. The cravings, hard to focus, feeling like I need something just not sure what it is, sleep issues, cold sweats, can't breath or catch my breath, and a little irritable. But I know that this too will subside. I know because my business partner has told me so and I see it in him today where he is not a slave to this nic bitch. I'm tired of being a slave to the nic bitch.
So today, day 5, January 5, 2016, I quit dipping. I will not take a dip today. I don't know about tomorrow. Fuck tomorrow! I'll deal with it tomorrow.
Day 5, Cantoo