Had Enough

[Mogul]

Thanks guys. Not sure the best place to ask these dumb ass questions, but I'm on Day 4, was doing great, but the last hour has been the worst yet. I'm shaking like crazy, and can't help thinking that all quitters are pussies and I'm not a pussy. Talk about fukd up justification, huh.

I don't mean that literally and am jealous of all you quitters, just wanted to rage.

Rage on brother. We all do it and this is the place to do it. Get out and run it off, even a slow sprint, just get winded and it is amazing how that changes things. Drink your water, take a shower, Piss outside and remind yourself that you have the power to control what you do. Tobacco is just a poisonous weed that cares nothing about you except your destruction. Keep control.

Mogul

[Bucky]

Thanks guys. Not sure the best place to ask these dumb ass questions, but I'm on Day 4, was doing great, but the last hour has been the worst yet. I'm shaking like crazy, and can't help thinking that all quitters are pussies and I'm not a pussy. Talk about fukd up justification, huh.

I don't mean that literally and am jealous of all you quitters, just wanted to rage.

[Mogul]

Bucky, congrats on being quit. It's not easy but so well worth it. I'm well over 500 days quit now and I still love the fact that one day at a time I say NO. Ever once in a while I venture into a CStore and just stare at the wall of tins. I think to myself, WTF was I thinking letting that stupid poison control me for 20+ years. Stay strong, you will thank yourself.

Mogul

[AquaDiggity]

Welcome Bucky! You and I are about the same age and dipped nearly the same amount of time. I also have boys. You are making the wisest decision of your life and appear to be going about it in the right way ... but I have one question. Have you shared your quit and this site with your wife? I shared with mine from the get go and she has been quietly supportive for 305 days now. Cravings come far far less than last summer. My family also got away to the coast for a week or so early in my quit. Don't run from family events. We dippers already been avoiding shit for years to get a huge lipper in peace. Keep it up Bucky. One day at a time. Check your PM for my number if you need some support.

[I'm done with chew]

Your gonna learn a lot about yourself as your quit adds days. Try not to get down on yourself right now. This needs to be about you and if you need to be alone, then take the time. Your gonna become a better man/husband/father as you regain your freedom. Focus on one day at a time. Even hourly if need be. This is your time. It's hard but your gonna feel great sooner then you realize.

[Bucky]

Thanks boys for the opinion ... I wasn't able to read it in time so I ended up staying home. If there is one thing that pisses me off above all else it is giving my opinion and having someone do the opposite, so I apologize.

Although I am missing out of a good time with the family, to be honest it is nice to be alone for once. With every night about the kids and getting them to practices, games, etc the peacefulness is great. Hoping to watch the fight tonight with some friends.

Great to go to the gas station a minute ago, pick up some seeds and a pizza and spend half the amount I normally do for a couple of tins. Wasn't even tempted.

Appreciate the help gentlemen.

[RAZD611]

welctip. You can do Here's some advice just focus on today. Nothing more just get through today do not tip. You can do this. just get some atomic fireballs or sunflower seeds and buckle down. It will get better.

Well you told more of the story this time. Kinda makes me slide my pick to going to the cabin. If you have to slip out to get away, you've got a whole lake to fish.

Let your family, the cabin, and some time drowning minnows, be your distraction that keeps you going. You are going through the worst of it now, but it will get better. I guarantee you that.

You could be like me and stuck at work.

[Done4Me]

welctip. You can do Here's some advice just focus on today. Nothing more just get through today do not tip. You can do this. just get some atomic fireballs or sunflower seeds and buckle down. It will get better.

Well you told more of the story this time. Kinda makes me slide my pick to going to the cabin. If you have to slip out to get away, you've got a whole lake to fish.

[Its_Got2Happen]

welctip. You can do Here's some advice just focus on today. Nothing more just get through today do not tip. You can do this. just get some atomic fireballs or sunflower seeds and buckle down. It will get better.

[Bucky]

I am a 42 year old husband and father of 4 boys. Been chewing since about 16 or so, so over 25 years. Kodiak is my brand of choice, and without that wonderful taste, I'm not sure that it would have gotten this out of hand. While tobacco products are forbidden in the workplace (I teach at a Technical College), at home because of my wife, and in front of my kids because of me .... somehow I manage to have a dip in 100% of the day, everyday except when I eat or sleep. It is so bad, I have even eaten and fallen asleep plenty of times with a chew in.

I am on Day 3 of my quit, and so far couldn't be more pleased. I have been spending a lot of time on this website and reading so many stories that I can completely identify with. I was just reading some of the spousal support comments by the women and thought my own wife may have been on this site for years and wrote each and every one of them.

I have half assed attempted or wanted to quit for many, many years, but only because of the health risks, people close to me said I should, and when I started having children and the bad example that would be. Unfortunately, I am very, very good at hiding my addiction. This time it is about me and it is completely my decision to do this.

I am not comfortable posting/writing on the internet so this is all new to me. The support I have received so far in the chat room last night and by Done4Me has been very helpful. I'll get this quit done.

One more thing ... I am looking for advice on what to do this weekend. During these first few days I have stayed away from my family as much as possible. I still coach one in baseball, attend one's game and drop others off for practice and will always need to. However, this weekend we were planning on going to our new cabin as a family. Some work to be done ... plus it is opening fishing weekend and all. I teach Math and love probability and all ... so my question is which of these two shitty options do I choose as the greater likelihood of not accomplishing my goal...

1) Slipping due to the guilt from expressing rage and my young, undeserving boys and/or wife, or
2) Slipping due to the guilt of being holed up by myself, not being able to enjoy the cabin and fishing with the boys, helping out and missing the wonderful memories.

So far, I have chosen #2 and it has worked out well, but I am leaving in a half hour to pick up my oldest (12) from baseball to drive him back. Should I stay or should I go??

Sorry if this is not all clear ... I am in a serious fog!

Thanks all,
KSalmon