Nicely done GA, one hour or one minute at a time. You're doing this and you can keep doing this. You said that you're fighting this battle alone inside. Also said you are emotional. Maybe I'm reading too much into your post or maybe I've seen it a thousand times (me included) but sounds like your wife doesn't know you are an addict. Mine didnt know either, I quit and she had no idea what was going on inside me. I couldn't tell her I was fighting the BATTLE OF MY LIFE because she did t know in the first place. I was emotional as hell. I cried, she thought I was losing it. I'd sneak I to KTC and go into chat hovering over the "close window" button in case she walked in. Did I mention I was an emotional mess? It felt like I had lost my best friend. Felt like he had been murdered, taken from me without warning. That was nic's last ditch effort to cling onto me - its a lie, they are all lies. She was no friend, she used me, abused me, made me hide from my family while I got my fix, all day every day. Screw that. If that's you then you can relate. If not then maybe someone else can relate. Either way, welcome to the site, welcome to the family! Fight like your life depends on it because it does. Read the Kern story. Read everything. Read how to post roll then go do it. Jump in, let us help. Let us guide you to a freedom that you don't even know exists because nicotine has ruled your life for YEARS. That should piss you off.
