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[B-loMatt]

Go B-lo! Road rage OK as long as you contain inside the vehicle I guess! I brought home my new heavy bag now just need gloves that'll be my new outlet. Good job getting to day 20, 1/4 the way to HOF. For some reason I'm really looking forward to #100.

Gonna see if my brother will let me beat on his heavy. That sounds like the perfect outlet for some nic hatein' rage!

[B-loMatt]

Day 20. Had me a lazy day yesterday. Made sushi and watched the hockey game. Nic bitch tried jumping me hard a couple of times yesterday (as I was driving home a couple of blocks b4 my c-store), but I just got mad as hell at her and told her to piss off cause I quit yesterday. Felt so good I woke up and quit again today. I am embracing the dark side and giving in to a healthy hate and anger for the poison. It feels good to hit back even if the people in the car next to me think I am bat-shit crazy...

Good shit Matt. Who you going for in the Stanley Cup?

Gotta love those little victories before the c-store and tellin' the nic bitch to fuck off!!! Reminds me of how strong we really are battling this addiction! Stay strong brother the weekend is almost over! Enjoy it! I quit with you another day!

Rootin' for the blackhawks. I hate my Sabres right now, but that is nothing compared to my loathing for boston sports teams. Those 'long-suffering' fans in bean town haven't won a world championship in what 5 minutes... If Cam Neely and Ray Bourque couldn't win one cup in boston, I do not see the justice in Lucic and Chara winning 2...

[Matt F]

Go B-lo! Road rage OK as long as you contain inside the vehicle I guess! I brought home my new heavy bag now just need gloves that'll be my new outlet. Good job getting to day 20, 1/4 the way to HOF. For some reason I'm really looking forward to #100.

[KickThisB1tch]

Day 20. Had me a lazy day yesterday. Made sushi and watched the hockey game. Nic bitch tried jumping me hard a couple of times yesterday (as I was driving home a couple of blocks b4 my c-store), but I just got mad as hell at her and told her to piss off cause I quit yesterday. Felt so good I woke up and quit again today. I am embracing the dark side and giving in to a healthy hate and anger for the poison. It feels good to hit back even if the people in the car next to me think I am bat-shit crazy...

Good shit Matt. Who you going for in the Stanley Cup?

Gotta love those little victories before the c-store and tellin' the nic bitch to fuck off!!! Reminds me of how strong we really are battling this addiction! Stay strong brother the weekend is almost over! Enjoy it! I quit with you another day!

[B-loMatt]

Day 20. Had me a lazy day yesterday. Made sushi and watched the hockey game. Nic bitch tried jumping me hard a couple of times yesterday (as I was driving home a couple of blocks b4 my c-store), but I just got mad as hell at her and told her to piss off cause I quit yesterday. Felt so good I woke up and quit again today. I am embracing the dark side and giving in to a healthy hate and anger for the poison. It feels good to hit back even if the people in the car next to me think I am bat-shit crazy...

[B-loMatt]

Day 19- ok so the trepidation I had last night about having a weekend to myself has yeilded to some excitement about the prospects. Not sure if I will go for super productive or just sit on the couch all day, but good stuff here today. One things for sure I will not use nic today!

[srans]

End day 18- Work was a trial and a blessing today. Worked a 10+ hour shift with a 10 minute brake and 2 piss brakes... Triggers all day... I would have gone through 1  1/2 tins at work today if I was still a slave... Blessing part was that there was no way for me to cave even if I wanted to. That helped beat back the nic bitch. bax txted me to say he was going off grid and asked me to post roll for him, and that added responsibility heled too. I can't possibly post for bax if I cave, and I promised him I would... I also got a blessing from work as my wife went to bed a few minutes after I got home which was good because I was in a mood and even though I was trying to be good I would have been a nasty bastard had anyone been trying to interact with me. srans sent me his # which I need to recipricate on, and also his post on this thread... Probably the highlight of my day brother! I kept that idea of having to open a door that lies in front of me in my head all day, and I pushed through one of the suckiest days of my quit since the poison has been out of my system. Thank you! This weekend may be the toughest yet asmy wife is planning on taking our children out of town to see my in-laws for the weekend. Not sure how I feel about having a weekend to myself right now... If you have given me your phone # I promise I will txt or call if I need a kick in the balls...

I know how you can feel about the weekend brother. Good!! The weekend will be great!! Stay busy, go out and do something that won't get you in trouble. There is this new movie out that might be ok,, super man!! Can't wait to see it myself.. Just stay busy and enjoy the weekend like you would any other time. You don't need the poison,, NEVER DID!! I'll quit with you all weekend brother.

[B-loMatt]

End day 18- Work was a trial and a blessing today. Worked a 10+ hour shift with a 10 minute brake and 2 piss brakes... Triggers all day... I would have gone through 1  1/2 tins at work today if I was still a slave... Blessing part was that there was no way for me to cave even if I wanted to. That helped beat back the nic bitch. bax txted me to say he was going off grid and asked me to post roll for him, and that added responsibility heled too. I can't possibly post for bax if I cave, and I promised him I would... I also got a blessing from work as my wife went to bed a few minutes after I got home which was good because I was in a mood and even though I was trying to be good I would have been a nasty bastard had anyone been trying to interact with me. srans sent me his # which I need to recipricate on, and also his post on this thread... Probably the highlight of my day brother! I kept that idea of having to open a door that lies in front of me in my head all day, and I pushed through one of the suckiest days of my quit since the poison has been out of my system. Thank you! This weekend may be the toughest yet asmy wife is planning on taking our children out of town to see my in-laws for the weekend. Not sure how I feel about having a weekend to myself right now... If you have given me your phone # I promise I will txt or call if I need a kick in the balls...

[srans]

Good to see you pressing on matt. Yes, I too thought the first couple weeks were easier sometimes than other times. I believe the first couple weeks it's all new and exciting which help with the withdraws. Not saying the first two weeks are easy by no means, but when the 3rd week hit reality started to sink in. The emotional roller coaster can be rough.

The two to three week mark can be a bear, get those tools ready. Don't be scared to call someone. It sounds like you have a lot of backing, don't hesitate to reach out.

You've come to far now brother, you might as well see this thing through. I've noticed in my short quitting career that two to three weeks is when a lot of people drop off.
There is a door that you need to open brother. Its right beyond where your at right now. Your going to like whats beyond the door. The thing is you have to push through to get there. I quit with you brother.

[JRizzle]

Agreed!! When I chewed comedies were always tougher because you laughed and air got into the dip, making them last for shorter durations. I'm a big Arrested Development fan and getting to watch the new episodes dip-free has been F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C!!

[B-loMatt]

End day 17: ok so week 2 was a relative walk in the park, and I knew to expect the going to get tougher. It has. Week 3 isn't even close to the hell week 1 was, but it is proving to be several orders of magnitude harder than week 2. Not even close to caving though! I have a plan now thanks to KTC, and also I figure I can use the money I am saving on lip turds to buy some distractions... I haven't watched this many movies in a week for years, comedy specials are great too. For less than the cost of being a slave in N.Y. for a week you can get a hell of a deep tissue massage too, and that is just what the doctor ordered after a couple of weeks with exercise. Talk about stress releif...

[B-loMatt]

Day 17- started hearin' the Nic bitchs' wispers last night and this morning... NAFAR biotch! One of my best friends had been nic free for 6+ years and just started up again recently... Really threw me for a loop last night to hear that. He is going through a very difficult time right now and was seeking comfort from the can, and predictably he is hooked harder than ever now. I told him about my quit and KTC, but I could tell he was not interested in quitting at this time. We were talking about the good old days b4 we had any real responsibilities. Made me think about how stupid my friends and I were to all be dipping like we did... I also think it woke the nic bitch up: trying and tell me 'see remember how much fun we used to have', and 'even if you stop dipping for years I will always be waiting for you'. So I am doing what I know, posted roll first thing, lined up my seeds, gum, hard candies, and fake dip, and got ready to quit today...

If at any point today you decide to maybe listen to the nic bitch or become tempted to join your friend in a dip, Send me a text or call. I will more then gladly drive 90 mins and kick you in the nuts so you come back to reality! Sounds like you got this under control already so I shouldn't have to assault you, but just wanted to extend the offer! Good job on seeing the craves for what they are! SHIT!

Thanks Jake. I will call you if I need a kick in the nuts, but I got this covered today.

I am 15 minutes out of Buffalo so I will come kick you in the nuts first then by the time you are gettin up off the ground Jake can follow suit 'finger point' ..it's all out of love brother!

LOL I have a sturdy desk with a nut sack high drawer... I could always call one of you guys and ask for permission to cave, and you could talk me through a nut slam in the desk drawer! Save you guys alot of gas money... BTW I can get to you just as easy if you need the wake-up call.

[gettinbreezy]

Day 17- started hearin' the Nic bitchs' wispers last night and this morning... NAFAR biotch! One of my best friends had been nic free for 6+ years and just started up again recently... Really threw me for a loop last night to hear that. He is going through a very difficult time right now and was seeking comfort from the can, and predictably he is hooked harder than ever now. I told him about my quit and KTC, but I could tell he was not interested in quitting at this time. We were talking about the good old days b4 we had any real responsibilities. Made me think about how stupid my friends and I were to all be dipping like we did... I also think it woke the nic bitch up: trying and tell me 'see remember how much fun we used to have', and 'even if you stop dipping for years I will always be waiting for you'. So I am doing what I know, posted roll first thing, lined up my seeds, gum, hard candies, and fake dip, and got ready to quit today...

If at any point today you decide to maybe listen to the nic bitch or become tempted to join your friend in a dip, Send me a text or call. I will more then gladly drive 90 mins and kick you in the nuts so you come back to reality! Sounds like you got this under control already so I shouldn't have to assault you, but just wanted to extend the offer! Good job on seeing the craves for what they are! SHIT!

Thanks Jake. I will call you if I need a kick in the nuts, but I got this covered today.

I am 15 minutes out of Buffalo so I will come kick you in the nuts first then by the time you are gettin up off the ground Jake can follow suit 'finger point' ..it's all out of love brother!

[B-loMatt]

Day 17- started hearin' the Nic bitchs' wispers last night and this morning... NAFAR biotch! One of my best friends had been nic free for 6+ years and just started up again recently... Really threw me for a loop last night to hear that. He is going through a very difficult time right now and was seeking comfort from the can, and predictably he is hooked harder than ever now. I told him about my quit and KTC, but I could tell he was not interested in quitting at this time. We were talking about the good old days b4 we had any real responsibilities. Made me think about how stupid my friends and I were to all be dipping like we did... I also think it woke the nic bitch up: trying and tell me 'see remember how much fun we used to have', and 'even if you stop dipping for years I will always be waiting for you'. So I am doing what I know, posted roll first thing, lined up my seeds, gum, hard candies, and fake dip, and got ready to quit today...

If at any point today you decide to maybe listen to the nic bitch or become tempted to join your friend in a dip, Send me a text or call. I will more then gladly drive 90 mins and kick you in the nuts so you come back to reality! Sounds like you got this under control already so I shouldn't have to assault you, but just wanted to extend the offer! Good job on seeing the craves for what they are! SHIT!

Thanks Jake. I will call you if I need a kick in the nuts, but I got this covered today.

[JRizzle]

You got this bud.

His quit doesn't affect your quit.

I'm with ya on the fog and poor sleep. The last three mornings I've woken up early and right after a dip dream. It's like my head is constantly in a cloud, my throat hurts and last night my tongue went numb.

And you know what?? It's all worth it. 100%. Without question. Guess what I did last night? I went out to eat with friends and didn't dip, didn't even think about saying I had to go to the bathroom in order to obey the nicotine master. This morning I woke up, had breakfast, and didn't have to dip quick before brushing my teeth and getting out the door.

If a hazy mind, insomnia, and some general discomfort are the admission price for freedom from something that OWNED me, then count me in. You got this. Freedom ain't easy. But it's worth the fight. Every day.

I'll PM you with digits; feel free to text me if you need anything.