Howdy - here I go ...

[Mike from AB]

I'm gonna suggest it was ALOT of times! Because I've caught myself doing it too. Heh, even after over a month, there's still alot of rewiring  healing to be done!

[BearHawk]

Wow how many times a day did I reach for my pocket out of habit reaching for that can?

I found myself doing it even after 36 days free. It's so funny to me ... I know there ain't a can there but still my hand reaches down for it after I finish eating or when I'm heading to the van after work.

The old habits seem really funny now that my head is clear.

Keepin' strong in my quit.

Shoot I screwed this up again. Sorry

Wow how many times a day did I reach for my pocket out of habit reaching for that can?

I found myself doing it even after 36 days free. It's so funny to me ... I know there ain't a can there but still my hand reaches down for it after I finish eating or when I'm heading to the van after work.

The old habits seem really funny now that my head is clear.

Keepin' strong in my quit.

Shoot I screwed this up again. Sorry

[BearHawk]

Wow how many times a day did I reach for my pocket out of habit reaching for that can?

I found myself doing it even after 36 days free. It's so funny to me ... I know there ain't a can there but still my hand reaches down for it after I finish eating or when I'm heading to the van after work.

The old habits seem really funny now that my head is clear.

Keepin' strong in my quit.

[Mike from AB]

Way to kick it this weekend BH! Congrats on awesome work for another clear weekend!

[BearHawk]

It's that scary time for me ... a month in.  Over the years I made it a month before and then I let that stupid thought enter my head that tells me see you made it a month so you have control of this.  OH YEAH ... then I go out and buy a can and start that stupid cycle all over again. 

This time however I have my brothers out there watching out for me and keeping quit with me.  Holding me accountable!  I like that.

I have over the last few days had to sit down and argue with myself.  I have had to tell myself that hey you are so over tobacco and there is nothing the body or mind can say about it.  There is no nicotine in your system and look ... you lived to tell about it so no matter what there is no call to going backward. 

I still find myself zoning out now and then but I am starting to think that it's just me and no longer the nicotine cravings. 

I am looking forward to 100 day HOF.  I am so quit.  Thanks brothers ... oh and sisters too. 

BearHawk.

This is a little hokey, but I think in analogies so bear with me.

I'm pretty sure that it was my boy Trauma that introduced me to this analogy, but when I first heard it I didn't know wtf he was talking about. It makes a ton of sense now and I hope it does for you. For the rest of our lives there will be two choices for us: addiction and freedom. I think of them as two islands that are connected by a wooden bridge about 50 yards long.

All you had do to get to Freedom Island was make a decision to leave Addiction Island and walk across the bridge. It was kinda scary, but you made it. You're been on Freedom long enough to know that it's a great place, but that bridge is still there and you can see your toothless buddies hanging out across the way. You can still hear the Siren's Song, too... For whatever reason, you feel compelled to go back. Day by day, the old bridge is becoming rotten and overgrown, but it's still there.

You need to load up a van with 55gal drums of gas, get it rolling toward the bridge, and light the fuse. Burn that SOB and walk away. To hell with Addiction Island; that f'n place is filled with false dreams and it reeks of death and decay. You were just there so long that you didn't notice it.

There's no going back. F that. BURN IT.

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Do I remember my life as a chewer? I do.
Do I still crave? I do.
Will I ever dip again? I can't say.
Will I dip today? I will not.

-Chewie

(Day 34) over the weekend was washing the car and cleaning up around the yard, you know all that normal weekend stuff and after I had wrapped up the work and sat down to cool off I got this feeling I just had to laugh at.
I wanted a cold beer and a dip but it wasnÂ’t a strong craving just a thought. I just laughed and went got the beer. It's that old habit and now that I am no longer a dipper I just has to let out a laugh at what the old mind brings up.

Hey thanks to all of you my bro's. many good words to ponder.

I think I would rather blow that bridge to hell with high explosive.

Day by day I stay quit and it's a choice I am happy to make.

[Minny]

It's that scary time for me ... a month in.  Over the years I made it a month before and then I let that stupid thought enter my head that tells me see you made it a month so you have control of this.  OH YEAH ... then I go out and buy a can and start that stupid cycle all over again. 

This time however I have my brothers out there watching out for me and keeping quit with me.  Holding me accountable!  I like that.

I have over the last few days had to sit down and argue with myself.  I have had to tell myself that hey you are so over tobacco and there is nothing the body or mind can say about it.  There is no nicotine in your system and look ... you lived to tell about it so no matter what there is no call to going backward. 

I still find myself zoning out now and then but I am starting to think that it's just me and no longer the nicotine cravings. 

I am looking forward to 100 day HOF.  I am so quit.  Thanks brothers ... oh and sisters too. 

BearHawk.

This is a little hokey, but I think in analogies so bear with me.

I'm pretty sure that it was my boy Trauma that introduced me to this analogy, but when I first heard it I didn't know wtf he was talking about. It makes a ton of sense now and I hope it does for you. For the rest of our lives there will be two choices for us: addiction and freedom. I think of them as two islands that are connected by a wooden bridge about 50 yards long.

All you had do to get to Freedom Island was make a decision to leave Addiction Island and walk across the bridge. It was kinda scary, but you made it. You're been on Freedom long enough to know that it's a great place, but that bridge is still there and you can see your toothless buddies hanging out across the way. You can still hear the Siren's Song, too... For whatever reason, you feel compelled to go back. Day by day, the old bridge is becoming rotten and overgrown, but it's still there.

You need to load up a van with 55gal drums of gas, get it rolling toward the bridge, and light the fuse. Burn that SOB and walk away. To hell with Addiction Island; that f'n place is filled with false dreams and it reeks of death and decay. You were just there so long that you didn't notice it.

There's no going back. F that. BURN IT.

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Do I remember my life as a chewer? I do.
Do I still crave? I do.
Will I ever dip again? I can't say.
Will I dip today? I will not.

-Chewie

[BearHawk]

Stop thinking about it so much bro. You're giving the whole process too much thought. You're already quit. 30 days, I might add!! Shrug it off and move forward. You. Got. This.

If you'd like another number pm me... I'll bother you day and night :)

Hey Bearhawk,

Gotta agree with Applejack, gotta settle in and just tackle this thing one day at a time. Don't get caught up in thinking about HOF or focus on old failures you got this thing today. Shoot me a PM too if you would like to add to your accountability network!

I'm quit as hell with you today!

Remember do not look forward to any damn day!

Quit one day at a time. You can only control the present, let tomorrow be your worry when it is today.

30 days is some great quit bro! You are winning. Agree with the not over thinking here. Focus on today and keeping the poison dirt out of your body. Slow down, relax, and quit ODAAT. Just as you should not worry about the future... Don't worry about the past attempts either. That don't matter. Woulda, shoulda, coulda. What is done is done. For you ... the only thing that matters is what u do today. Stay in the moment and stay quit. You got this. QLF with u!!

Thank you all for your never ending support my brothers

Thank you all my brothers for your support

[Mike from AB]

Congrats on a month in BH!! PM away if you want numbers,  yes take AJ up on his offer. You'll be thankful to have him checking on you for sure!

[Derk40]

Stop thinking about it so much bro. You're giving the whole process too much thought. You're already quit. 30 days, I might add!! Shrug it off and move forward. You. Got. This.

If you'd like another number pm me... I'll bother you day and night :)

Hey Bearhawk,

Gotta agree with Applejack, gotta settle in and just tackle this thing one day at a time. Don't get caught up in thinking about HOF or focus on old failures you got this thing today. Shoot me a PM too if you would like to add to your accountability network!

I'm quit as hell with you today!

Remember do not look forward to any damn day!

Quit one day at a time. You can only control the present, let tomorrow be your worry when it is today.

30 days is some great quit bro! You are winning. Agree with the not over thinking here. Focus on today and keeping the poison dirt out of your body. Slow down, relax, and quit ODAAT. Just as you should not worry about the future... Don't worry about the past attempts either. That don't matter. Woulda, shoulda, coulda. What is done is done. For you ... the only thing that matters is what u do today. Stay in the moment and stay quit. You got this. QLF with u!!

[Pinched]

Stop thinking about it so much bro. You're giving the whole process too much thought. You're already quit. 30 days, I might add!! Shrug it off and move forward. You. Got. This.

If you'd like another number pm me... I'll bother you day and night :)

Hey Bearhawk,

Gotta agree with Applejack, gotta settle in and just tackle this thing one day at a time. Don't get caught up in thinking about HOF or focus on old failures you got this thing today. Shoot me a PM too if you would like to add to your accountability network!

I'm quit as hell with you today!

Remember do not look forward to any damn day!

Quit one day at a time. You can only control the present, let tomorrow be your worry when it is today.

[Jlud007]

Stop thinking about it so much bro. You're giving the whole process too much thought. You're already quit. 30 days, I might add!! Shrug it off and move forward. You. Got. This.

If you'd like another number pm me... I'll bother you day and night :)

Hey Bearhawk,

Gotta agree with Applejack, gotta settle in and just tackle this thing one day at a time. Don't get caught up in thinking about HOF or focus on old failures you got this thing today. Shoot me a PM too if you would like to add to your accountability network!

I'm quit as hell with you today!

[AppleJack]

Stop thinking about it so much bro. You're giving the whole process too much thought. You're already quit. 30 days, I might add!! Shrug it off and move forward. You. Got. This.

If you'd like another number pm me... I'll bother you day and night :)

[CaliforniaSlim]

It's that scary time for me ... a month in. Over the years I made it a month before and then I let that stupid thought enter my head that tells me see you made it a month so you have control of this. OH YEAH ... then I go out and buy a can and start that stupid cycle all over again.

This time however I have my brothers out there watching out for me and keeping quit with me. Holding me accountable! I like that.

I have over the last few days had to sit down and argue with myself. I have had to tell myself that hey you are so over tobacco and there is nothing the body or mind can say about it. There is no nicotine in your system and look ... you lived to tell about it so no matter what there is no call to going backward.

I still find myself zoning out now and then but I am starting to think that it's just me and no longer the nicotine cravings.

I am looking forward to 100 day HOF. I am so quit. Thanks brothers ... oh and sisters too.

BearHawk.

You are winning Bear. The arguments with yourself happen, but they are dangerous, because you could win. IF you just say "I am quit you damn nicbitch" as soon as it pops its head up, it stays down easier. Once the bitch is awake and fighting with you, those addict arguments can start to sound reasonable.
Glad to be quit with you

[BearHawk]

It's that scary time for me ... a month in. Over the years I made it a month before and then I let that stupid thought enter my head that tells me see you made it a month so you have control of this. OH YEAH ... then I go out and buy a can and start that stupid cycle all over again.

This time however I have my brothers out there watching out for me and keeping quit with me. Holding me accountable! I like that.

I have over the last few days had to sit down and argue with myself. I have had to tell myself that hey you are so over tobacco and there is nothing the body or mind can say about it. There is no nicotine in your system and look ... you lived to tell about it so no matter what there is no call to going backward.

I still find myself zoning out now and then but I am starting to think that it's just me and no longer the nicotine cravings.

I am looking forward to 100 day HOF. I am so quit. Thanks brothers ... oh and sisters too.

BearHawk.

[Mike from AB]

Hopefully BH will be back, there's too much awesome support on this site not to take advantage of it even though yes posting roll is hard. Dare I say it can be harder than it needs to be, particularly for the first few foggy days when you do have to be a little tech savy to get roll to work.