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Offline Skoal Monster

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Re: Not a coincidence!
« Reply #8 on: January 29, 2013, 11:46:00 AM »
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Day 39, had my first cave dream last night. In all the fear and shame it caused, until I realized it was only a dream, has made my quit stronger today. I am grateful that it was a dream and grateful in what I learned from it. I am learning one day at a time that I don't need a dip to cope with life today. Some days are better than others and the thought still crosses my mind, but it always falls back to my daily comittment to myself and my fellow March Quit Brothers. That I can face life without the coping mechanism of stuffing my face with cancer. ODAAT, I quit for today.
Cave dreams suck, they can be pretty vivid. The good news is that you realized how shitty it would feel to cave. " fear and Shame"

That is the dream of a quitter my friend. Good job
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Offline Steve Mc.

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Re: Not a coincidence!
« Reply #7 on: January 29, 2013, 11:30:00 AM »
Day 39, had my first cave dream last night. In all the fear and shame it caused, until I realized it was only a dream, has made my quit stronger today. I am grateful that it was a dream and grateful in what I learned from it. I am learning one day at a time that I don't need a dip to cope with life today. Some days are better than others and the thought still crosses my mind, but it always falls back to my daily comittment to myself and my fellow March Quit Brothers. That I can face life without the coping mechanism of stuffing my face with cancer. ODAAT, I quit for today.
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This sure beats the other alternatives, ODAAT.

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Re: Not a coincidence!
« Reply #6 on: January 05, 2013, 01:16:00 AM »
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Addicts will justify nic to fix anything. Glad to see you quit and remember that nic solves nothing.
Yep, I self medicated my depression and all it did was increase the depression because I lost control of my life. I feel better now than I've felt in decades!
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Re: Not a coincidence!
« Reply #5 on: January 04, 2013, 07:24:00 PM »
Addicts will justify nic to fix anything. Glad to see you quit and remember that nic solves nothing.
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Re: Not a coincidence!
« Reply #4 on: January 04, 2013, 04:43:00 PM »
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So the last five years been battling high blood pressure. Taking 3 different medications daily just to keep it right above normal. Today after 14 days away from the nic bitch, I go in for a checkup. BP is the lowest it has been in years. Is this just a coincidence? I think not. I used to take my BP at home and it would be high and I would get anxious and put a dip in thinking that would calm me down. What insanity. I am grateful to be quit today. It really has sunk in that the nic bitch was slowly killing me. Not today Bitch! ODAAT

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Great job Steve! You now know it is a poison (actually more than 1) and caused the withdrawl craves (anxiety, elevated BP, etc) that it cured when you popped a lip turd in.
That is the most critical thing to understand as you build your quit.
Here is the second thing. You (and I) are addicts. We will go right back to using if we let our guard down. This is important to know the longer you are quit.
Never Again bro.
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Re: Not a coincidence!
« Reply #3 on: January 04, 2013, 04:11:00 PM »
hey Steve Mc., The nicotine is poison, plain and simple. Since my quit, my body has gone through a lot of changes. 1st change was my BP dropped to normal. Fuckin' aye! That is some sweet revenge on the nic bitch and industry. LOL
Then, a couple weeks later, spots on my body began to disappear. Nice changes from not putting the "poison" in my mouth. What a dumbass I was for 30 yrs piling that crap into my lip 24/7, but this dumbass is now a smartass Quitter!
Good to see you wanting your life back.
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Re: Not a coincidence!
« Reply #2 on: January 04, 2013, 03:25:00 PM »
Keep it up!!

That nicotine is some nasty shit, don't turn back!
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Not a coincidence!
« on: January 04, 2013, 01:10:00 PM »
So the last five years been battling high blood pressure. Taking 3 different medications daily just to keep it right above normal. Today after 14 days away from the nic bitch, I go in for a checkup. BP is the lowest it has been in years. Is this just a coincidence? I think not. I used to take my BP at home and it would be high and I would get anxious and put a dip in thinking that would calm me down. What insanity. I am grateful to be quit today. It really has sunk in that the nic bitch was slowly killing me. Not today Bitch! ODAAT

Steve Mc.
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This sure beats the other alternatives, ODAAT.
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