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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #38 on: March 05, 2013, 09:24:00 PM »
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Travelled through a blizzard today and two airports interlaced with some very difficult exchanges with a coworker.  Been jonesin but made my promise and intend to keep it to myself, my family, my friends and my supports here.  Amazing that in past unsuccessful quits I would have caved no doubt, bu today I am too damn mad to cave to the bitch.  I will take tomorrow when it comes, today my quit is strong.

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Great job, Portable On Deman Storage. I know today was a mother fucker but making it through days like today is where your confidence will come from and the foundation of your quit will be layed.

Might not hit you for a few days or even a week but you will eventually sit back and think..."Som bitch. If I made it through that fucking mess, I can make it through anything"

Just keep jumping GOD DAMMIT!!! Every time a hurdle gets thrown in front of you, Jump right the fuck over it. Eventually the hurdles will get shorted and shorter and you'll be able to clear them with ease, if you even notice them at all.

Keep fucking shit up! I get off on it. I'm a voyeur quitter. I like to watch...
I don't care what anybody says, Diesel is the fuckin' man, you all hear me? This is a dude that will support you and make you laugh your ass off through the pain. I am strong, horny, but strong.

I am proud to quit with all all.

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #37 on: March 05, 2013, 05:05:00 PM »
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Travelled through a blizzard today and two airports interlaced with some very difficult exchanges with a coworker. Been jonesin but made my promise and intend to keep it to myself, my family, my friends and my supports here. Amazing that in past unsuccessful quits I would have caved no doubt, bu today I am too damn mad to cave to the bitch. I will take tomorrow when it comes, today my quit is strong.

Shed
Great job, Portable On Deman Storage. I know today was a mother fucker but making it through days like today is where your confidence will come from and the foundation of your quit will be layed.

Might not hit you for a few days or even a week but you will eventually sit back and think..."Som bitch. If I made it through that fucking mess, I can make it through anything"

Just keep jumping GOD DAMMIT!!! Every time a hurdle gets thrown in front of you, Jump right the fuck over it. Eventually the hurdles will get shorted and shorter and you'll be able to clear them with ease, if you even notice them at all.

Keep fucking shit up! I get off on it. I'm a voyeur quitter. I like to watch...
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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #36 on: March 05, 2013, 04:40:00 PM »
Travelled through a blizzard today and two airports interlaced with some very difficult exchanges with a coworker. Been jonesin but made my promise and intend to keep it to myself, my family, my friends and my supports here. Amazing that in past unsuccessful quits I would have caved no doubt, bu today I am too damn mad to cave to the bitch. I will take tomorrow when it comes, today my quit is strong.

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #35 on: March 04, 2013, 08:20:00 PM »
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Tool shed, I used to question your integrity with all the comments you make about the Packers, then today I see your avatar is Wisconsin Rugby.  I take back most of the things I was thinking.  Fellow rugger here, and since I know the amount of chew taking place in the sport in the midwest, I'll quit with you.

Kubiak - Purdue Rugby and Bears fan
Hey Kubiak, that means a great deal to me, thanks. I would never let a football team get in the way of a good quit, hell, many of best friends are Bear fans and I go really easy on them, just like they did to me in the 80's when they Pack couldn't hardly score against the Bears, let alone win.

You got that right about rugby, way too much dip in that sport in the Midwest and the sport is growing here at the same time so I fear many young men will fall into the same trap as me and have to fight the same battle. That sucks.

I have played rugby since the early 80's and retired for all but old boys matches in 02. I finally finally figured if I could win the Midwest, go to and win nationals, win at rugger fest in aspen in over 45's division, I could quit this nic bitch that has haunted me for so long. Thanks for your support.

Shed
You sir are not only a badass for taking on this pathetic addiction, but for your rugby resume as well. I am only 37 and have yet to take advantage of the old boys competition, but this year I started coaching rugby with my 4th grade stepson and I'm hoping to get more involved with the game again.

As for the sport and its addictions, I feel that if the American game evolves from being a fringe sport full of badasses to being more mainstream, hopefully the attitudes will also evolve. As I played a higher level of rugby, I learned that the sport becomes exponentially more beautiful as you add phases to the play, that by avoiding the "crash, crash, crash" midwest style embraced by ex-american football players, and by teaching to not only get the ball out to the backs but then support them, then preparing for the 3rd phase of that next pass after the breakdown... it takes a higher level of player to intelligently play this game properly, and hopefully appeal to more than those just looking for the good parties. Of course, that may have left me out, but I digress.

Baseball is still suffering with its addictions, but it's a boring sport. Rugby shouldn't have these excuses. In fact, with education of the physical, neurological and cardiovascular side effects, hopefully some day it will be so frowned upon that it just goes away.
Thanks For the kind words Kubiak. I love the game of rugby and miss being a part of it, but with young kids, too many weekends away, 6 broken noses (including one a week before my wedding), and rugby party hangovers lasting longer and longer, it was time to hang up the boots. I should have hung up the Copenhagen at the same time, but you know hindsight. I view the rugby successes i achieved completely team accomplishments, much like quitting the nic bitch, we all need help. I also came to the realization that it has become a young mans game. You are right that it was all crash, crash, crash, tight ball, mauling, a forwards game that was not really viewer friendly. The game is now all about fast, which I can say was never my strong suit. Rucking, multiple phases, a thing of beauty when played well.

So here I am 3 weeks in and I have some thoughts for newbies and old boys alike:

1. Check your ego at the door, we all need help and we have brothers here offering to help. Don't go it alone, we all know that didn't work the first time or the tenth time or we wouldn't be here.
2. Get mad, get angry, hate that nic bitch that controlled you.
3. Don't just think about the bitch when you crave, think about how you beat it in between craves. Celebrate success.
4. QLF
5. Post roll, promise, commit, repeat.
6. Help others and pay forward the support you received from others to those that need it now
7. Strap in dicks, this one's gonna hurt. But it is all worth it.
8. One day at a time, like the story of the old bull and young bull on the hill looking down at a heard of cows. The young one says "let's run down and f*^k one of those cows." The old bull replies, "no, let's walk down and f*^k them all."

I am proud to be quit with all of you today and I will make the same promise tomorrow.

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #34 on: March 04, 2013, 09:07:00 AM »
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Tool shed, I used to question your integrity with all the comments you make about the Packers, then today I see your avatar is Wisconsin Rugby.  I take back most of the things I was thinking.  Fellow rugger here, and since I know the amount of chew taking place in the sport in the midwest, I'll quit with you.

Kubiak - Purdue Rugby and Bears fan
Hey Kubiak, that means a great deal to me, thanks. I would never let a football team get in the way of a good quit, hell, many of best friends are Bear fans and I go really easy on them, just like they did to me in the 80's when they Pack couldn't hardly score against the Bears, let alone win.

You got that right about rugby, way too much dip in that sport in the Midwest and the sport is growing here at the same time so I fear many young men will fall into the same trap as me and have to fight the same battle. That sucks.

I have played rugby since the early 80's and retired for all but old boys matches in 02. I finally finally figured if I could win the Midwest, go to and win nationals, win at rugger fest in aspen in over 45's division, I could quit this nic bitch that has haunted me for so long. Thanks for your support.

Shed
You sir are not only a badass for taking on this pathetic addiction, but for your rugby resume as well. I am only 37 and have yet to take advantage of the old boys competition, but this year I started coaching rugby with my 4th grade stepson and I'm hoping to get more involved with the game again.

As for the sport and its addictions, I feel that if the American game evolves from being a fringe sport full of badasses to being more mainstream, hopefully the attitudes will also evolve. As I played a higher level of rugby, I learned that the sport becomes exponentially more beautiful as you add phases to the play, that by avoiding the "crash, crash, crash" midwest style embraced by ex-american football players, and by teaching to not only get the ball out to the backs but then support them, then preparing for the 3rd phase of that next pass after the breakdown... it takes a higher level of player to intelligently play this game properly, and hopefully appeal to more than those just looking for the good parties. Of course, that may have left me out, but I digress.

Baseball is still suffering with its addictions, but it's a boring sport. Rugby shouldn't have these excuses. In fact, with education of the physical, neurological and cardiovascular side effects, hopefully some day it will be so frowned upon that it just goes away.

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #33 on: March 03, 2013, 05:45:00 PM »
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The craves still remain significant on day 17, but I am happy to report they are fewer and much shorter than just a week ago.  I am feeling better each day and followed some great advice I read here.  I am eating smaller and lighter meals which reduces the crave afterward.  I thought today of something I don't miss  and was wondering if anyone else did this.  I used to eat something even though I was not hungry, just to have a dip afterward!  How sick was that?

Thanks all for the support, it is crazy that I gain strength in my quit from a bunch of guys I don't even know!

Shed
Look here 3 lock box. I used to do that shit too. Id be driving around, not hungry at all, pop into a gas station, grab a bag of chips or candy bar, scarf it down and then throw in a dip. Why???? What the fuck was wrong with me??? Who thinks like that????? So dumb.

You're not alone pal. Take some comfort in that.

Never again for any reason.
I used to do that shit too. My before dip treat was usually a Moon Pie and an Arizona Green Tea. Weird... lol

After my first week of quitting I have began to really look back and notice that I had a shit ton of "WTF" moments. The moments that really get me are ones like the times when I'd reach for the can to find it nearly empty. Here I am licking the inside of a dip can... FUCKING LICKING IT LIKE I WANTED TO HAVE CHILDREN WITH IT! All the while some poor dude at the red light next to me has to watch me do this... where the hell was my shame?
Wow. I've done so many stupid things for dip. One that comes to mind, throw it in the washing machine with some clothes. After half the wash realize the mistake. Pull it out and take a dip to see if it's ok. How stupid is that? Cant detergent kill you. Holy krap.
I used to buy soda, gatorade or water just to pour it out and use it as a spitter. Even took an empty sandwich bag and spit into it on my way home once. Fucked up. The worst was using a 2 month old, left in a hot car, 99 percent full spitter that allowed me to taste the old bacteria laden spit everytime I put my lips to it to spit. Blaaaa.
Somewhere I wrote the story of pouring out a full jug of wiper fluid at 75mph so I could use it as a sputter. Sleeve soaked, side of car soaked, cars behind me super pissed, and spitting into that thing tasted nasty as hell and the lip on it was sharp as glass. Hey, what was I supposed to do? Not dip? What a fucking moron.
It's a good thing we don't do that shit anymore right?!? Stanky ass spit bottles are a thing of the past in my life!
Thanks for discussing this stuff. I'm 68 days quit and did not make the link between big eating and craving. Now I do. I experienced that craving Friday but did not get it till I read your posts on the subject just now. Just saying......

iquitchewing
Thank you guys for reminding me that I am not the only one....

It helps to know that others have done the same things I have. All this time I thought I was a special butterfly, and it turns out there are others just like me!

knew a guy in highschool that would spit in his cleat on the way to away games. When we got there he'd just dump it out then put it on, like no big deal.
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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #32 on: March 03, 2013, 04:45:00 PM »
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The craves still remain significant on day 17, but I am happy to report they are fewer and much shorter than just a week ago.  I am feeling better each day and followed some great advice I read here.  I am eating smaller and lighter meals which reduces the crave afterward.  I thought today of something I don't miss  and was wondering if anyone else did this.  I used to eat something even though I was not hungry, just to have a dip afterward!  How sick was that?

Thanks all for the support, it is crazy that I gain strength in my quit from a bunch of guys I don't even know!

Shed
Look here 3 lock box. I used to do that shit too. Id be driving around, not hungry at all, pop into a gas station, grab a bag of chips or candy bar, scarf it down and then throw in a dip. Why???? What the fuck was wrong with me??? Who thinks like that????? So dumb.

You're not alone pal. Take some comfort in that.

Never again for any reason.
I used to do that shit too. My before dip treat was usually a Moon Pie and an Arizona Green Tea. Weird... lol

After my first week of quitting I have began to really look back and notice that I had a shit ton of "WTF" moments. The moments that really get me are ones like the times when I'd reach for the can to find it nearly empty. Here I am licking the inside of a dip can... FUCKING LICKING IT LIKE I WANTED TO HAVE CHILDREN WITH IT! All the while some poor dude at the red light next to me has to watch me do this... where the hell was my shame?
Wow. I've done so many stupid things for dip. One that comes to mind, throw it in the washing machine with some clothes. After half the wash realize the mistake. Pull it out and take a dip to see if it's ok. How stupid is that? Cant detergent kill you. Holy krap.
I used to buy soda, gatorade or water just to pour it out and use it as a spitter. Even took an empty sandwich bag and spit into it on my way home once. Fucked up. The worst was using a 2 month old, left in a hot car, 99 percent full spitter that allowed me to taste the old bacteria laden spit everytime I put my lips to it to spit. Blaaaa.
Somewhere I wrote the story of pouring out a full jug of wiper fluid at 75mph so I could use it as a sputter. Sleeve soaked, side of car soaked, cars behind me super pissed, and spitting into that thing tasted nasty as hell and the lip on it was sharp as glass. Hey, what was I supposed to do? Not dip? What a fucking moron.
It's a good thing we don't do that shit anymore right?!? Stanky ass spit bottles are a thing of the past in my life!
Thanks for discussing this stuff. I'm 68 days quit and did not make the link between big eating and craving. Now I do. I experienced that craving Friday but did not get it till I read your posts on the subject just now. Just saying......

iquitchewing
Thank you guys for reminding me that I am not the only one....

It helps to know that others have done the same things I have. All this time I thought I was a special butterfly, and it turns out there are others just like me!
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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #31 on: March 03, 2013, 02:00:00 PM »
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Quote from: Diesel2112
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The craves still remain significant on day 17, but I am happy to report they are fewer and much shorter than just a week ago.  I am feeling better each day and followed some great advice I read here.  I am eating smaller and lighter meals which reduces the crave afterward.  I thought today of something I don't miss  and was wondering if anyone else did this.  I used to eat something even though I was not hungry, just to have a dip afterward!  How sick was that?

Thanks all for the support, it is crazy that I gain strength in my quit from a bunch of guys I don't even know!

Shed
Look here 3 lock box. I used to do that shit too. Id be driving around, not hungry at all, pop into a gas station, grab a bag of chips or candy bar, scarf it down and then throw in a dip. Why???? What the fuck was wrong with me??? Who thinks like that????? So dumb.

You're not alone pal. Take some comfort in that.

Never again for any reason.
I used to do that shit too. My before dip treat was usually a Moon Pie and an Arizona Green Tea. Weird... lol

After my first week of quitting I have began to really look back and notice that I had a shit ton of "WTF" moments. The moments that really get me are ones like the times when I'd reach for the can to find it nearly empty. Here I am licking the inside of a dip can... FUCKING LICKING IT LIKE I WANTED TO HAVE CHILDREN WITH IT! All the while some poor dude at the red light next to me has to watch me do this... where the hell was my shame?
Wow. I've done so many stupid things for dip. One that comes to mind, throw it in the washing machine with some clothes. After half the wash realize the mistake. Pull it out and take a dip to see if it's ok. How stupid is that? Cant detergent kill you. Holy krap.
I used to buy soda, gatorade or water just to pour it out and use it as a spitter. Even took an empty sandwich bag and spit into it on my way home once. Fucked up. The worst was using a 2 month old, left in a hot car, 99 percent full spitter that allowed me to taste the old bacteria laden spit everytime I put my lips to it to spit. Blaaaa.
Somewhere I wrote the story of pouring out a full jug of wiper fluid at 75mph so I could use it as a sputter. Sleeve soaked, side of car soaked, cars behind me super pissed, and spitting into that thing tasted nasty as hell and the lip on it was sharp as glass. Hey, what was I supposed to do? Not dip? What a fucking moron.
It's a good thing we don't do that shit anymore right?!? Stanky ass spit bottles are a thing of the past in my life!
Thanks for discussing this stuff. I'm 68 days quit and did not make the link between big eating and craving. Now I do. I experienced that craving Friday but did not get it till I read your posts on the subject just now. Just saying......

iquitchewing

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #30 on: March 03, 2013, 10:07:00 AM »
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Tool shed, I used to question your integrity with all the comments you make about the Packers, then today I see your avatar is Wisconsin Rugby. I take back most of the things I was thinking. Fellow rugger here, and since I know the amount of chew taking place in the sport in the midwest, I'll quit with you.

Kubiak - Purdue Rugby and Bears fan
Hey Kubiak, that means a great deal to me, thanks. I would never let a football team get in the way of a good quit, hell, many of best friends are Bear fans and I go really easy on them, just like they did to me in the 80's when they Pack couldn't hardly score against the Bears, let alone win.

You got that right about rugby, way too much dip in that sport in the Midwest and the sport is growing here at the same time so I fear many young men will fall into the same trap as me and have to fight the same battle. That sucks.

I have played rugby since the early 80's and retired for all but old boys matches in 02. I finally finally figured if I could win the Midwest, go to and win nationals, win at rugger fest in aspen in over 45's division, I could quit this nic bitch that has haunted me for so long. Thanks for your support.

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #29 on: March 03, 2013, 09:56:00 AM »
Tool shed, I used to question your integrity with all the comments you make about the Packers, then today I see your avatar is Wisconsin Rugby. I take back most of the things I was thinking. Fellow rugger here, and since I know the amount of chew taking place in the sport in the midwest, I'll quit with you.

Kubiak - Purdue Rugby and Bears fan

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #28 on: March 01, 2013, 12:57:00 PM »
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The craves still remain significant on day 17, but I am happy to report they are fewer and much shorter than just a week ago.  I am feeling better each day and followed some great advice I read here.  I am eating smaller and lighter meals which reduces the crave afterward.  I thought today of something I don't miss  and was wondering if anyone else did this.  I used to eat something even though I was not hungry, just to have a dip afterward!  How sick was that?

Thanks all for the support, it is crazy that I gain strength in my quit from a bunch of guys I don't even know!

Shed
Look here 3 lock box. I used to do that shit too. Id be driving around, not hungry at all, pop into a gas station, grab a bag of chips or candy bar, scarf it down and then throw in a dip. Why???? What the fuck was wrong with me??? Who thinks like that????? So dumb.

You're not alone pal. Take some comfort in that.

Never again for any reason.
I used to do that shit too. My before dip treat was usually a Moon Pie and an Arizona Green Tea. Weird... lol

After my first week of quitting I have began to really look back and notice that I had a shit ton of "WTF" moments. The moments that really get me are ones like the times when I'd reach for the can to find it nearly empty. Here I am licking the inside of a dip can... FUCKING LICKING IT LIKE I WANTED TO HAVE CHILDREN WITH IT! All the while some poor dude at the red light next to me has to watch me do this... where the hell was my shame?
Wow. I've done so many stupid things for dip. One that comes to mind, throw it in the washing machine with some clothes. After half the wash realize the mistake. Pull it out and take a dip to see if it's ok. How stupid is that? Cant detergent kill you. Holy krap.
I used to buy soda, gatorade or water just to pour it out and use it as a spitter. Even took an empty sandwich bag and spit into it on my way home once. Fucked up. The worst was using a 2 month old, left in a hot car, 99 percent full spitter that allowed me to taste the old bacteria laden spit everytime I put my lips to it to spit. Blaaaa.
Somewhere I wrote the story of pouring out a full jug of wiper fluid at 75mph so I could use it as a sputter. Sleeve soaked, side of car soaked, cars behind me super pissed, and spitting into that thing tasted nasty as hell and the lip on it was sharp as glass. Hey, what was I supposed to do? Not dip? What a fucking moron.
It's a good thing we don't do that shit anymore right?!? Stanky ass spit bottles are a thing of the past in my life!
I quit with with you all!

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #27 on: March 01, 2013, 11:51:00 AM »
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The craves still remain significant on day 17, but I am happy to report they are fewer and much shorter than just a week ago.  I am feeling better each day and followed some great advice I read here.  I am eating smaller and lighter meals which reduces the crave afterward.  I thought today of something I don't miss  and was wondering if anyone else did this.  I used to eat something even though I was not hungry, just to have a dip afterward!  How sick was that?

Thanks all for the support, it is crazy that I gain strength in my quit from a bunch of guys I don't even know!

Shed
Look here 3 lock box. I used to do that shit too. Id be driving around, not hungry at all, pop into a gas station, grab a bag of chips or candy bar, scarf it down and then throw in a dip. Why???? What the fuck was wrong with me??? Who thinks like that????? So dumb.

You're not alone pal. Take some comfort in that.

Never again for any reason.
I used to do that shit too. My before dip treat was usually a Moon Pie and an Arizona Green Tea. Weird... lol

After my first week of quitting I have began to really look back and notice that I had a shit ton of "WTF" moments. The moments that really get me are ones like the times when I'd reach for the can to find it nearly empty. Here I am licking the inside of a dip can... FUCKING LICKING IT LIKE I WANTED TO HAVE CHILDREN WITH IT! All the while some poor dude at the red light next to me has to watch me do this... where the hell was my shame?
Wow. I've done so many stupid things for dip. One that comes to mind, throw it in the washing machine with some clothes. After half the wash realize the mistake. Pull it out and take a dip to see if it's ok. How stupid is that? Cant detergent kill you. Holy krap.
I used to buy soda, gatorade or water just to pour it out and use it as a spitter. Even took an empty sandwich bag and spit into it on my way home once. Fucked up. The worst was using a 2 month old, left in a hot car, 99 percent full spitter that allowed me to taste the old bacteria laden spit everytime I put my lips to it to spit. Blaaaa.
Somewhere I wrote the story of pouring out a full jug of wiper fluid at 75mph so I could use it as a sputter. Sleeve soaked, side of car soaked, cars behind me super pissed, and spitting into that thing tasted nasty as hell and the lip on it was sharp as glass. Hey, what was I supposed to do? Not dip? What a fucking moron.
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"Celebrate the moment as it turns into one more"..
"You can fight without ever winning, but never ever win, win without a fight".
"Onion rings...funyons. A connection? Yeah. I fucking think so."
"Honest Abe had a fake jaw".
"In a world that seems so small, I can't stop thinking big"
"Someone set a bad example. Made surrender seem all right
The act of a noble warrior. Who lost the will to fight."

Offline GR8WHITEBUFFALO

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #26 on: March 01, 2013, 11:46:00 AM »
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Quote from: Rob1985
Quote from: Diesel2112
Quote from: Tool
The craves still remain significant on day 17, but I am happy to report they are fewer and much shorter than just a week ago.  I am feeling better each day and followed some great advice I read here.  I am eating smaller and lighter meals which reduces the crave afterward.  I thought today of something I don't miss  and was wondering if anyone else did this.  I used to eat something even though I was not hungry, just to have a dip afterward!  How sick was that?

Thanks all for the support, it is crazy that I gain strength in my quit from a bunch of guys I don't even know!

Shed
Look here 3 lock box. I used to do that shit too. Id be driving around, not hungry at all, pop into a gas station, grab a bag of chips or candy bar, scarf it down and then throw in a dip. Why???? What the fuck was wrong with me??? Who thinks like that????? So dumb.

You're not alone pal. Take some comfort in that.

Never again for any reason.
I used to do that shit too. My before dip treat was usually a Moon Pie and an Arizona Green Tea. Weird... lol

After my first week of quitting I have began to really look back and notice that I had a shit ton of "WTF" moments. The moments that really get me are ones like the times when I'd reach for the can to find it nearly empty. Here I am licking the inside of a dip can... FUCKING LICKING IT LIKE I WANTED TO HAVE CHILDREN WITH IT! All the while some poor dude at the red light next to me has to watch me do this... where the hell was my shame?
Wow. I've done so many stupid things for dip. One that comes to mind, throw it in the washing machine with some clothes. After half the wash realize the mistake. Pull it out and take a dip to see if it's ok. How stupid is that? Cant detergent kill you. Holy krap.
I used to buy soda, gatorade or water just to pour it out and use it as a spitter. Even took an empty sandwich bag and spit into it on my way home once. Fucked up. The worst was using a 2 month old, left in a hot car, 99 percent full spitter that allowed me to taste the old bacteria laden spit everytime I put my lips to it to spit. Blaaaa.
Enough is enough. Time to take control back from the nic bitch. My HOF speechGR8WHITEBUFFALO

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #25 on: March 01, 2013, 09:12:00 AM »
Quote from: Rob1985
Quote from: Diesel2112
Quote from: Tool
The craves still remain significant on day 17, but I am happy to report they are fewer and much shorter than just a week ago.  I am feeling better each day and followed some great advice I read here.  I am eating smaller and lighter meals which reduces the crave afterward.  I thought today of something I don't miss  and was wondering if anyone else did this.  I used to eat something even though I was not hungry, just to have a dip afterward!  How sick was that?

Thanks all for the support, it is crazy that I gain strength in my quit from a bunch of guys I don't even know!

Shed
Look here 3 lock box. I used to do that shit too. Id be driving around, not hungry at all, pop into a gas station, grab a bag of chips or candy bar, scarf it down and then throw in a dip. Why???? What the fuck was wrong with me??? Who thinks like that????? So dumb.

You're not alone pal. Take some comfort in that.

Never again for any reason.
I used to do that shit too. My before dip treat was usually a Moon Pie and an Arizona Green Tea. Weird... lol

After my first week of quitting I have began to really look back and notice that I had a shit ton of "WTF" moments. The moments that really get me are ones like the times when I'd reach for the can to find it nearly empty. Here I am licking the inside of a dip can... FUCKING LICKING IT LIKE I WANTED TO HAVE CHILDREN WITH IT! All the while some poor dude at the red light next to me has to watch me do this... where the hell was my shame?
Wow. I've done so many stupid things for dip. One that comes to mind, throw it in the washing machine with some clothes. After half the wash realize the mistake. Pull it out and take a dip to see if it's ok. How stupid is that? Cant detergent kill you. Holy krap.
Hof date may 25, 2013
HoF Speech


The poison sucks. I hate it. I hated it this morning, I hated it at noon, I hated it at supper and I hate it tonight. I enjoy hating it so much I'm going to wake up tomorrow and start over hating it. I quit with anyone that wants to hate it with me.

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Re: Mix of emotions
« Reply #24 on: March 01, 2013, 06:34:00 AM »
Quote from: Diesel2112
Quote from: Tool
The craves still remain significant on day 17, but I am happy to report they are fewer and much shorter than just a week ago.  I am feeling better each day and followed some great advice I read here.  I am eating smaller and lighter meals which reduces the crave afterward.  I thought today of something I don't miss  and was wondering if anyone else did this.  I used to eat something even though I was not hungry, just to have a dip afterward!  How sick was that?

Thanks all for the support, it is crazy that I gain strength in my quit from a bunch of guys I don't even know!

Shed
Look here 3 lock box. I used to do that shit too. Id be driving around, not hungry at all, pop into a gas station, grab a bag of chips or candy bar, scarf it down and then throw in a dip. Why???? What the fuck was wrong with me??? Who thinks like that????? So dumb.

You're not alone pal. Take some comfort in that.

Never again for any reason.
I used to do that shit too. My before dip treat was usually a Moon Pie and an Arizona Green Tea. Weird... lol

After my first week of quitting I have began to really look back and notice that I had a shit ton of "WTF" moments. The moments that really get me are ones like the times when I'd reach for the can to find it nearly empty. Here I am licking the inside of a dip can... FUCKING LICKING IT LIKE I WANTED TO HAVE CHILDREN WITH IT! All the while some poor dude at the red light next to me has to watch me do this... where the hell was my shame?
Quit: 2/23/13
HOF: 6/3/13
2nd Floor: 9/10/13
One Year 2/23/14
Two Years 2/23/15
1000 Days 11/19/15
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