New quit

[Banjosteve]

sort of rough day 6- glad to see it end. just shitty day at work and feeling down. really stupid thoughts set in and the addiction can really f me up. my biggest problem is staying in the day. I cant think about the future. That's what gets me screwed up. I think about the fact my wife is heading out of town and I will be home alone, or the fishing trip that isn't until may, or that tradeshow I will be going to I in January.....all these were times when I would dip (but really I dipped almost everyday anyhow, so this would be no different). just screwy thoughts.

but I stayed quit today, and getting back here reading the posts gets my mind straight again

[Banjosteve]

I haven't really done a good introduction. like many, I probably was pretty out of it on Saturday when I signed up. I am 44 and live in Maryland. Im married with 2 kids (girl 9 and boy 11). I had my first dip when I was about 13 or so. I smoked also. When I was married 17 years ago, I quit smoking. But I am ninja dipper and my wife didn't catch me for like 10 years. About 6 years ago she caught me. I stopped for awhile (maybe 6-8 months). She thought I quit, then I get caught again. I stopped last year for about 6 months again, but started again. This time I admitted to my wife I started again. I am sick of it. I really want to stop.

When I was 19, I went to alcohol and drug treatment. I stopped drinking and drugs and have been sober for 25 years. ODAAT. But I have not been able to get rid of the nic bitch. I use it as an excuse- at least I'm not drinking, but that is lame.

I am really ready to stop. I hate it. I "lurked" around KTC last year but I didn't join.

Maybe I was afraid it might actually work and I would quit.

Thanks for the support the last 4 days.

-banjosteve

[Mthomas3824]

thanks matt. I was completely worthless today at work. I was up at 0500 to bang all the ice of my car, then 2 hr commute (usually only takes 45 min). I was pissed. I couldn't even think at work, fog.

But I quit today. day 3.

It's worth it. Stay the course. Post roll every today. Don't sweat your battles tomorrow. Only quit, fight and win your match today. If you post roll, keep your word and repeat...you can not fail.

It's a guarantee.

[Banjosteve]

thanks matt. I was completely worthless today at work. I was up at 0500 to bang all the ice of my car, then 2 hr commute (usually only takes 45 min). I was pissed. I couldn't even think at work, fog.

But I quit today. day 3.

[B-loMatt]

Banjo, great job but there better not be anything in that home that would cause you to cave bro.  You get in that fog and wife barks at ya and a new can is a hellofva way out. Next thing you know you will be headed to church and leave your iPad on top of your car.  Know what I mean?    Don't give the bitch a way back to your nipple licker.

only cans in the house are smokey mtn. tomorrow I go back to work. commute and stress will suck.

Learn to embrace the suck. The suck means you are winning. You are almost clean of the physical presence of nicotine. When you get the empty suck feeling go do something to distract yourself and watch that suck go into the background. Life is as good as it gets in the moment; sucking on a poison weed that will make you a slave, and will steal your money and time, and will kill you does not make anything better.

[Banjosteve]

thanks menace. the other key is the true to desire to quit. I don't think I have ever had that until now. I have stopped before for short periods, but only when my wife caught me and I had to get her off my back. This time I really want to quit and stay quit.

[Menace]

Banjo, if you quit alcohol and drugs by having the one day at a time mentality then you already know the key to this. Its the same bro, ODAAT. I am only 20 days in and have gone through a couple quits before, always returning to the cope can. I know this quit is different because I came to the realization that I am a Nicotine addict and I need to treat my quit with that mentality. One day at a time, thats its. Nothing more, nothing less. You need anything, some digits or what not, shoot me a PM.

[Banjosteve]

Banjo, great job but there better not be anything in that home that would cause you to cave bro. You get in that fog and wife barks at ya and a new can is a hellofva way out. Next thing you know you will be headed to church and leave your iPad on top of your car. Know what I mean? Don't give the bitch a way back to your nipple licker.

only cans in the house are smokey mtn. tomorrow I go back to work. commute and stress will suck.

[Mogul]

Banjo, great job but there better not be anything in that home that would cause you to cave bro. You get in that fog and wife barks at ya and a new can is a hellofva way out. Next thing you know you will be headed to church and leave your iPad on top of your car. Know what I mean? Don't give the bitch a way back to your nipple licker.

[Banjosteve]

thanks, crazy day 2. stuck home with wife and kids all day in snow storm. but I stayed quit

[The Ab]

Welcome to March quitters brother! Stay strong and work the site. It's helped me tremendously in my first week.

[Derk40]

Banjo... get in and post ROLL. That is your promise to yourself  us that you are clean  quit. Once you got that done, read up on the site. Learn, listen  stay quit today!

[Bulldog0311]

Hi. I just joined today and started my quit. I am 44 and been dipping since I was 13. I have spent the day trying to figure out how the hell this forum site works....

Welcome to March Madness Banjo! This is a great group of guys to begin your quit with and we have a hell of a lot of vets who know how to get their quit on. I was a dipper for 23 years. Tried to stop and failed. There is a different mentality here. Read up, get some phone numbers from people you connect with and post roll every day.
Glad to see ya here Banjo!

[B-loMatt]

Hi. I just joined today and started my quit. I am 44 and been dipping since I was 13. I have spent the day trying to figure out how the hell this forum site works....

Hey there Banjo! Welcome!
I sent you directions via a Personal Message (PM), but if you missed that, go up to the Welcome Center and read through the info there.
If you need anything else just contact me!

banjosteve, PM keddy with questions even if you have to make them up. keddy is 3+ years quit, and quits one day at a time like the rest of us. It is possible to quit nicotine... rdad is a new quitter who is learning to quit the KTC way, but he is drinking the kool-aide and winning; he states truths. Read everything here: learn what all the quitters b4 you have learned. I could repeat the simple truths that I have learned here, but you will need the distraction of finding out for yourself in the coming days. Do you want it bad enough?

[Banjosteve]

rdad:
thanks. I am just tired of the shit. I have stopped before, so I know the next couple of weeks will suck. but I have always gone back to the can. most recently I stopped for about six months. I quit alcohol and drugs for over 25 years living a day at a time, but have not been able to get over the dip.

thanks for replying to me. I am a flyfisherman myself.