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[ross8yrs]

Day 21 and feelin better. Cautious as well

[ross8yrs]

Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.

Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)

Agree with sans...freedom.

Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.

I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".

Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".

I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...

I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.

What bullshit.

Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.

I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.

Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.

So will you, I promise.

Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.

Diesel took the words right out of my mouth. It is pathetic, and makes me really angry, to look back and see how my life was a controlled web of lies to cover up a dirty addiction. I like that food tastes better now. I like that I don't get sweaty palms trying to come up with a reason to go to the gas station at 10 pm. I like that I can get a vehicle with a light colored interior so I don't have to worry about anything spilling on the carpet. Yeah, I was under that much control.

Most of all, quite honestly, this entire process has made me "man up." Keep the quit strong!

Besides the freedom I have now, there is a lot of of other things i am grateful for now.
I wasn't a ninja dipper like these two clowns, I wanted everyone to know I was a slave to the poison. Wife, kids, friends. I Was so proud I wanted the people in there cars to know. So while I at red lights, and stop signs I would gladly open the car door, out came the poison. At the beach I was proud to. Right in the ocean where my kids were swimming. I was so proud of my love affair with the poison I would enjoy it right after spending time with the wife. Had spit cups all over the house. I could go on with this. What a father and husband I was!!! If you need anymore reasons to quit other than these pm me. I got 100's....

I always made the excuse of leaving my girlfriends pad early cuz I had to "work early" or I was tired. Late night gas station runs I won't miss. I actually once got out of bed after an hour and drove to the holiday, not cuz I was niccin, but because I was stressing about niccin.

[srans]

Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.

Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)

Agree with sans...freedom.

Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.

I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".

Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".

I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...

I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.

What bullshit.

Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.

I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.

Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.

So will you, I promise.

Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.

Diesel took the words right out of my mouth. It is pathetic, and makes me really angry, to look back and see how my life was a controlled web of lies to cover up a dirty addiction. I like that food tastes better now. I like that I don't get sweaty palms trying to come up with a reason to go to the gas station at 10 pm. I like that I can get a vehicle with a light colored interior so I don't have to worry about anything spilling on the carpet. Yeah, I was under that much control.

Most of all, quite honestly, this entire process has made me "man up." Keep the quit strong!

Besides the freedom I have now, there is a lot of of other things i am grateful for now.
I wasn't a ninja dipper like these two clowns, I wanted everyone to know I was a slave to the poison. Wife, kids, friends. I Was so proud I wanted the people in there cars to know. So while I at red lights, and stop signs I would gladly open the car door, out came the poison. At the beach I was proud to. Right in the ocean where my kids were swimming. I was so proud of my love affair with the poison I would enjoy it right after spending time with the wife. Had spit cups all over the house. I could go on with this. What a father and husband I was!!! If you need anymore reasons to quit other than these pm me. I got 100's....

[worktowin]

Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.

Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)

Agree with sans...freedom.

Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.

I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".

Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".

I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...

I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.

What bullshit.

Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.

I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.

Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.

So will you, I promise.

Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.

Diesel took the words right out of my mouth. It is pathetic, and makes me really angry, to look back and see how my life was a controlled web of lies to cover up a dirty addiction. I like that food tastes better now. I like that I don't get sweaty palms trying to come up with a reason to go to the gas station at 10 pm. I like that I can get a vehicle with a light colored interior so I don't have to worry about anything spilling on the carpet. Yeah, I was under that much control.

Most of all, quite honestly, this entire process has made me "man up." Keep the quit strong!

[Diesel2112]

Diesel we haven't met but your posts are like cement bricks to the face. So real. So insightful. Flat out freakin honest! I long for the day I barely even think about dip. As for now I am taking it one day at a time. Love your posts.

You'll get there. If a jack wad like me can do it. You can.

I still "think" about it though but surely don't crave it or miss it. Nor does it bother me if I do think about. I think about lots or shit throughout the day. Dip often slips in there, but mainly in a positive way, like "fucking dip. So stupid I used to use you". Then I go onto thinking about "normal stuff" like banging Kate Upton or flying cars...just stupid shit.

Just gotta hang tough, like nkotb said.

[FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE]

Diesel we haven't met but your posts are like cement bricks to the face. So real. So insightful. Flat out freakin honest! I long for the day I barely even think about dip. As for now I am taking it one day at a time. Love your posts.

[jaynellie]

Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.

Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)

Agree with sans...freedom.

Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.

I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".

Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".

I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...

I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.

What bullshit.

Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.

I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.

Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.

So will you, I promise.

Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.

This is such good stuff...Damn It!!

Once again Diesel thank you for setting the stage .....Properly for us addicts.

[Diesel2112]

Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.

Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)

Agree with sans...freedom.

Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.

I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".

Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".

I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...

I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.

What bullshit.

Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.

I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.

Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.

So will you, I promise.

Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.

[Scowick65]

Great advice from the quit Sherpas. Glad you found us. Stick with us and post everyday. It is the cornerstone of my quit.

[Pat27]

I haven't had a dip in about 36 hours now. Found this site last night. Haven't had the anxiety yet but I have had strong urges all day and my mind has tried to play tricks on me telling me it's ok to have one. Also Iv had some random spells of dizziness and nausea. Nicotine is a damn manipulator for sure. I'm not to day 20 yet but its been atleast a year since I have gone a day without a dip. Iv been through an entire can of Altoids today, spent extra time at the gym, and kept a little book to write in when i feel urges. Starting day 2 tomorrow.

Good job on your 20 days bro. Keep it up.

-P

[srans]

Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.

Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)

This ones easy for me. Freedom!!!
Read my hof.speech when you get a chance. Its right in my signature line. Nafar and ODAAT. Glad to be quit with you.

[ross8yrs]

Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.

Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)

[Diesel2112]

Thanks For the advice as I get myself Acclimated. This is an unreal resource and support program.
26 started in highschool, didn't smoke because it affected hockey too much. started slow, up to a can every other day for 8 yrs., like clockwork. I'm fairly certain going through this fog thing I keep reading about as I have been worthless for bout 2 weeks now.

Right on track, lol. Hang tough. We got your back!!!

[ross8yrs]

Thanks For the advice as I get myself Acclimated. This is an unreal resource and support program.
26 started in highschool, didn't smoke because it affected hockey too much. started slow, up to a can every other day for 8 yrs., like clockwork. I'm fairly certain going through this fog thing I keep reading about as I have been worthless for bout 2 weeks now.

[Diesel2112]

Nice work starting your own intro. I can tell you are serious about this.

Keep asking and support will flow in like crazy...remember my advice as well though.