Ross8yrs intro page

[Dougie]

Day 35,

An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?

I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?

Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.

I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.

I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?

I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.

Ross8yrs

Ross,

I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.

I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.

I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!

[ross8yrs]

Day 35,

An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?

I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?

Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.

I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.

I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?

I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.

Ross8yrs

[cbird65]

Day 32, tough fuckin morning. just trying to bust through this crave, or anxiety whatever thing is and get on with my day, havent had one in a while and this ones a bitch. sippin juice chewin gum, seeds, chuggin water. nothing is helpin this one.

Im stayin true, just had to vent a bit.

stayin quit one hour at a time today.

learning and using the tools to help you protect your quit mandatory for success

beating the nic bitch one crave at a time = priceless

[ross8yrs]

Day 32, tough fuckin morning. just trying to bust through this crave, or anxiety whatever thing is and get on with my day, havent had one in a while and this ones a bitch. sippin juice chewin gum, seeds, chuggin water. nothing is helpin this one.

Im stayin true, just had to vent a bit.

stayin quit one hour at a time today.

[Diesel2112]

Day 29.  Haven't been completely honest has far as how this quit is affecting me and my life.

A recap of this week has been.... Inconsistent to say the least. Some mornings I wake up and feel almost normal, and some.... I just struggle and do not want to do anything. Until my in depths readings today and looking back on some veterans intro pages, I thought "it's not the nicotine, it's you, so don't post what you're going through on KTC". Well reading back I find I'm not the only one freaking out when my girl wants to do something as simple as dinner, and the sex drive is not what it used to be, and I'm fairly young and should be in my prime,  however I'm happy to report it is slowly returning. The anxieties have been less and less but when the panic attacks come, they aren't as powerful as they were.

Cravings... Well they have not been like "holy shit do I need a dip"  they are more like I'm fuckin fidgety and really jumpy and can't really pin point why, and going through couple hour spells of sad/anger/hyper/ all at once. Breathing and keeping occupied have been helpful.

However the most helpful thing has been reading on this site to know that I am not the first person to have the mind go through this whirlwind fuckstorm. 

More for my future self to remember what hell this has been when I forget I am and always will be an addict.

Thanks to all who have been helpful on chat and pm's.

At day 29 your still in the thick of things brother. You need to get to the next door. This door is not easy to open and hard to get to. I can tell you the next room is a lot easier and life is a lot better. Keep your head pointed forward and don't look back. Nothing back there for you brother. Need another number let me know.

It is the nicotine...not you.

You haven't been you since high school. Gonna take awhile to find you again. But I guarantee you are gonna like what you find.

Wish I had quit at 26. You're a smart man. Keep up the good work and remember it is the nic, or lack thereof that's causing you to feel this way.

You're not crazy , not weak, not the first person to go through this, and should not be ashamed to come on here and share your experiences/feelings.

Keep on keeping on.

[srans]

Day 29. Haven't been completely honest has far as how this quit is affecting me and my life.

A recap of this week has been.... Inconsistent to say the least. Some mornings I wake up and feel almost normal, and some.... I just struggle and do not want to do anything. Until my in depths readings today and looking back on some veterans intro pages, I thought "it's not the nicotine, it's you, so don't post what you're going through on KTC". Well reading back I find I'm not the only one freaking out when my girl wants to do something as simple as dinner, and the sex drive is not what it used to be, and I'm fairly young and should be in my prime, however I'm happy to report it is slowly returning. The anxieties have been less and less but when the panic attacks come, they aren't as powerful as they were.

Cravings... Well they have not been like "holy shit do I need a dip" they are more like I'm fuckin fidgety and really jumpy and can't really pin point why, and going through couple hour spells of sad/anger/hyper/ all at once. Breathing and keeping occupied have been helpful.

However the most helpful thing has been reading on this site to know that I am not the first person to have the mind go through this whirlwind fuckstorm.

More for my future self to remember what hell this has been when I forget I am and always will be an addict.

Thanks to all who have been helpful on chat and pm's.

At day 29 your still in the thick of things brother. You need to get to the next door. This door is not easy to open and hard to get to. I can tell you the next room is a lot easier and life is a lot better. Keep your head pointed forward and don't look back. Nothing back there for you brother. Need another number let me know.

[ross8yrs]

Day 29. Haven't been completely honest has far as how this quit is affecting me and my life.

A recap of this week has been.... Inconsistent to say the least. Some mornings I wake up and feel almost normal, and some.... I just struggle and do not want to do anything. Until my in depths readings today and looking back on some veterans intro pages, I thought "it's not the nicotine, it's you, so don't post what you're going through on KTC". Well reading back I find I'm not the only one freaking out when my girl wants to do something as simple as dinner, and the sex drive is not what it used to be, and I'm fairly young and should be in my prime, however I'm happy to report it is slowly returning. The anxieties have been less and less but when the panic attacks come, they aren't as powerful as they were.

Cravings... Well they have not been like "holy shit do I need a dip" they are more like I'm fuckin fidgety and really jumpy and can't really pin point why, and going through couple hour spells of sad/anger/hyper/ all at once. Breathing and keeping occupied have been helpful.

However the most helpful thing has been reading on this site to know that I am not the first person to have the mind go through this whirlwind fuckstorm.

More for my future self to remember what hell this has been when I forget I am and always will be an addict.

Thanks to all who have been helpful on chat and pm's.

[ross8yrs]

I had a, well I wouldn't call it a close call, but a situation none the less. As I was cleaning out my truck, way back under the passenger front seat, I see my old enemy cope green. Didn't think much of it, no real urges. Took the can tossed it in the dumpster, life went on. Thought it would have been a bigger deal but apparently not. I kept my oath, my promise to ktc.

thought for today.

Stay quit.

[Scowick65]

Day 26 and mentally feeling strong. I'm getting sores in my mouth, and a sore throat? WTF? Par for the course er....

The pH in your mouth changes when you take away the chew. Your mouth will adjust and the sores will disappear.

[ross8yrs]

Day 26 and mentally feeling strong. I'm getting sores in my mouth, and a sore throat? WTF? Par for the course er....

[Bean]

Day 25 and feels like a blur the whole time, still not quite myself but coming out of it slowly. Feeling good to be free, yet i do think about it a bunch during the day. Staying motivated.

Yep...sound like you're doing it right. I don't recall how long the suck lasted for me. Just one day, I realized I didn't think about it...and viola!

Stay strong and stay quit!!!

[ross8yrs]

Day 25 and feels like a blur the whole time, still not quite myself but coming out of it slowly. Feeling good to be free, yet i do think about it a bunch during the day. Staying motivated.

[Scowick65]

Day 21 and feelin better. Cautious as well

3 weeks is solid. Congrats.

My first funk was from about days 25-28. Be prepared. Reach out for help if it hits you.

Yea day 21 was about the time my brain began to come back. Glad to see you are still cautiouse as I still have tough moments and I am on day 76. Be confident but remember there are surprises. Continue to arm yourself with numbers, support, and accountability. 21 days is amazing bro! Keep it up I quit with you!

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[Erussell]

Day 21 and feelin better. Cautious as well

3 weeks is solid. Congrats.

My first funk was from about days 25-28. Be prepared. Reach out for help if it hits you.

Yea day 21 was about the time my brain began to come back. Glad to see you are still cautiouse as I still have tough moments and I am on day 76. Be confident but remember there are surprises. Continue to arm yourself with numbers, support, and accountability. 21 days is amazing bro! Keep it up I quit with you!

[Evil_Won]

Day 21 and feelin better. Cautious as well

3 weeks is solid. Congrats.

My first funk was from about days 25-28. Be prepared. Reach out for help if it hits you.