Today is the Day

[Pinched]

Feeling Great today. I have dreams every now and then, but no more craves. Rarely need the seeds or gum to keep my face busy.

Dave, your signature is trippin' me out!

DK,

Yeah, but is that face still "pretty???? :D

“My face is so pretty, you don't see a scar, which proves I'm the king of the ring by far.”

-Mohammad Ali-

Dragging ass lately bigtime. I miss the initial quit energy I had. Where did THAT shit go?

Get up exercise do something. Your body is fighting back and needs redirected with mental power and testicular fortitude.

Early in my quit I used burpees and pushups to push through the blahs.

[DaveKnight]

Feeling Great today. I have dreams every now and then, but no more craves. Rarely need the seeds or gum to keep my face busy.

Dave, your signature is trippin' me out!

DK,

Yeah, but is that face still "pretty???? :D

“My face is so pretty, you don't see a scar, which proves I'm the king of the ring by far.”

-Mohammad Ali-

Dragging ass lately bigtime. I miss the initial quit energy I had. Where did THAT shit go?

[DaveKnight]

Feeling Great today. I have dreams every now and then, but no more craves. Rarely need the seeds or gum to keep my face busy.

Dave, your signature is trippin' me out!

DK,

Yeah, but is that face still "pretty???? :D

“My face is so pretty, you don't see a scar, which proves I'm the king of the ring by far.”

-Mohammad Ali-

[CavMan83]

Feeling Great today. I have dreams every now and then, but no more craves. Rarely need the seeds or gum to keep my face busy.

Dave, your signature is trippin' me out!

DK,

Yeah, but is that face still "pretty???? :D

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Feeling Great today. I have dreams every now and then, but no more craves. Rarely need the seeds or gum to keep my face busy.

Dave, your signature is trippin' me out!

[Thumblewort]

Feeling Great today. I have dreams every now and then, but no more craves. Rarely need the seeds or gum to keep my face busy.

I support the hell out of your quit Dave, but I think I just had a seizure with all of the blinking. Remember, some of us are old as fuck too!

[DaveKnight]

Feeling Great today. I have dreams every now and then, but no more craves. Rarely need the seeds or gum to keep my face busy.

[DaveKnight]

Actually had a Dip Dream last night. I dreamed that I took a pinch out of a can of Grizzly Mint. Never much cared for the stuff personally. Anyway I felt like a big ol' douche for letting everyone down. Of course, I tried to rationalize it. "This is the last one, just because I messed up doesn't mean I cant stay quit". Soon I realized it was just a dream, or rather a nightmare. Thank goodness it wasn't real life. I am starting to go through the funk. I thought I was in the clear yesterday and the day before, but I feel like a bag of ass today. Sort of feel like being in the fog again. Talk about some suck. Still kickin ass though!

[oxman]

Appreciated Knight! Today is a great day and I'm that much closer to where I want to be.

[DaveKnight]

Today is my day and I am thankful as hell my brother in law turned me onto this site. Grizzly was the worst thing to ever fucking happen to me. Kodiak was getting pricey and I was getting tired of shelling out almost 5 bucks a tin a day....I had quit to get life insurance (cold) for 3 months and then I came across the Grizz.....put that damn varsity jacket back on and boy did she fit well... Damnit i truly hate the shit and everything about it. I hate hiding it from my kids, pretending I am hiding it from my wife and that she doesn't know that when I retire down to my man cave I am immediately packing a tin. Hate fucking everything it stands for, because it stands for lies, dishonesty and nothing but a bad future.. Starting at 16 was a long time ago ( hell who am I kiding, I had my first leaf of beach nut in the 4th grade wearing my George Brett cleats and playing baseball) and at 42, I can see my 50's right around the corner and they don't include teeth....I tried to start yesterday and I fell off the horse the very first day damnit. Justified that I couldn't quit cold, 1 a day till the tin is gone,...yeah that's it,....ease into it. So I threw in a lip per last night for all of 10minutes after making a good first day of it. Now today I am anxious, my head hurts, I am angry with my 2 boys and over reacting to stupid shit. Oh and my skin is fucking itchy on my arms..(that's a new one on me.) I am flushing the remainder of said tin, cowboying up and taking the gosh damn panties off. I love my wife, I love my boys and I love myself too damn much to be a slave to this shit. Thanks Joel for the reach out brother....damn....this sucks!

Keep it up brother. You are making a good decision. If you don't make a decision to quit now, when will the thought reenter your mind? Will it be when you have to have a tooth extracted, or maybe when you get a lesion on your tongue, maybe it will be when they remove half of your jaw. You will have to quit at some point, you might as well make it on your terms.

You will feel like crap for a couple of days. You will feel grumpy, useless at work, and like a horrible father and husband. I know I did. You know what though, a little over 2 weeks into this I have more energy, I'm not as grumpy, and I have a lot more patience than at any point when I was using tobacco (because I was always waiting on that next fix).

You can do this brother, you just have to be strong and learn from this site. Read read read....everything. Post roll every day. Remember it is a promise to your brothers and sisters who are going through the same struggle. Stay QLF!

[oxman]

Today is my day and I am thankful as hell my brother in law turned me onto this site. Grizzly was the worst thing to ever fucking happen to me. Kodiak was getting pricey and I was getting tired of shelling out almost 5 bucks a tin a day....I had quit to get life insurance (cold) for 3 months and then I came across the Grizz.....put that damn varsity jacket back on and boy did she fit well... Damnit i truly hate the shit and everything about it. I hate hiding it from my kids, pretending I am hiding it from my wife and that she doesn't know that when I retire down to my man cave I am immediately packing a tin. Hate fucking everything it stands for, because it stands for lies, dishonesty and nothing but a bad future.. Starting at 16 was a long time ago ( hell who am I kiding, I had my first leaf of beach nut in the 4th grade wearing my George Brett cleats and playing baseball) and at 42, I can see my 50's right around the corner and they don't include teeth....I tried to start yesterday and I fell off the horse the very first day damnit. Justified that I couldn't quit cold, 1 a day till the tin is gone,...yeah that's it,....ease into it. So I threw in a lip per last night for all of 10minutes after making a good first day of it. Now today I am anxious, my head hurts, I am angry with my 2 boys and over reacting to stupid shit. Oh and my skin is fucking itchy on my arms..(that's a new one on me.) I am flushing the remainder of said tin, cowboying up and taking the gosh damn panties off. I love my wife, I love my boys and I love myself too damn much to be a slave to this shit. Thanks Joel for the reach out brother....damn....this sucks!

[basshaug]

I just want to stop in and say your lack of restraint on emoticons might make someone's fucking head explode!

I quit with you. Have a wonderful rest of your day!

[UH60Chief107]

I hear where you are coming from. I exchanged quite a few messages with J2thaz and am still confused as hell. After this stuff popped up, I sent him a PM saying to hit me up outside the site, just in case he needed someone to keep him accountable......no response. I really think he did use the 2 screen names, got called out, and rather than fighting it he ran off because he knew he fucked up. Craziness.


Glad to see you are still quit bro. I smelled some grizzly wintergreen today(my past weapon of suicide) and it honestly made me feel sick to my stomach. I have begun to seem like a preacher for quitting nicotine at work. I guess if you are going to quit, you might as well go balls to the wall and get as many quitters as possible! lol.

[DaveKnight]

Had a craving this morning. Went to the gas station to fill up and grab some sunflower seeds and saw that Tiber Wolf was only .95 cents. I have always been a frugal addict, so even though Grizz was my weapon of choice with which to kill myself I would switch to less expensive alternatives when funds were running low. Good news is I fought it off and kept on keeping on.

So, about that JTZ situation. I have one word for the whole thing...Dafuq? The guy was really supportive. We texted back and forth a couple of times, his encouragement helped strengthen my quit in the early stages. It is just strange that he had put up this whole facade making us believe he was legit, and was so effective. Although he has been shunned by KTC, I hope he continues on the journey to quit ODAAT. This stuff can kill us, I hope he doesn't turn back.

The drama surrounding this site is discouraging at times. I know I am probably a more casual user of the site and some people need this support system more than I do. I just can't stand drama in any of its forms. I feel stupid even being a part of it. H0pefully now that we are a closed group, the drama will cease. :deadhorse:

[TrueToMyself]

Been having some strange dreams lately. They all involve drugs and/or smoking cigarettes. I rarely smoked before I quit dipping, and haven't partook of any form of narcotic drug since Spring Break of 2002. Weird dreams. Each time, I feel like I let both my family and my fellow quitters in the KTC Community. The one with the cigarette, the dream starts with me taking a puff off the cigarette; completely subconscious. Once I realize what I had done, I throw the cigarette to the ground in fear. Fear that I had broken my word, fear that I would be stuck with the addiction again. Crazy stuff. Thank God it was just a dream (or rather a nightmare). Today marks two weeks with no nicotine. Other than the strange dreams, my quit is still strong. I think it was literally just my time to quit, which is making this easier. It seems as though my brain could no longer find logic supporting continuing the self-destruction of addiction. The oral fixation is there, the nostalgia surfaces at times, but I am disgusted by even the thought of tobacco...today. I do not know how I will feel in a couple of days or weeks, but that is how I feel today. That is why I need KTC, as a tool to keep me honest, to keep me accountable, to keep me quit. Thank you my brothers and sisters. Lets Stay QLF today!

yep....them dip dreams will scare the F out of you, for sure....I'm still looking forward to the night where I go to sleep and actually stay that way till the next morning....hasn't happened yet (in like two weeks).

Stay strong DK. Proud to quit with you today.

The nightmares. For your own good, document every single one. Write the details here on your intro and be sure to include how realistic they are.

Why are they so realistic? Because you've caved before. Use your dreams as education and fuel.

Dave, I've enjoyed reading your intro and the rapport you have with Cav. Keep it up, fellas. Thanks for your service - I appreciate your sacrifice.