I was gonna wait, but I feel like sharing my thoughts early, as I have time. The same thing happened with my quit. I set a date, and ended up quitting a week early, thanks to the elders.. that was the best decision of my life.
Many things are going through my head right now. 9 out of 10 of them positive. Tomorrow is my sons 6th b-day. I know this because he has told me everyday for the last month! lol.. I remember when we found out she was preggy. I said I'd quit when he was born.. ya right.. I'd follow that by trying to quit on each of his last 5 b-days.. This year I AM quit. almost 5 months on his b-day. Can't tell you how good that feels. This time I quit for myself, and my family is now benefitting.
The old grumpy Dan was always holding his spitter at family parties (holidays) bbq's, etc... feeling sorry for himself.. The kids didn't come near me. they called me (the grouch).
What a difference 5 months makes. Now all the kids come to me like a magnet. I'm calm, smiling, looking healthy, and always have gum in my pocket! The kids have caught on and now I get all the attention. I can play with them, tickle them, and smile with ease... I'm fucking free....
KTC and all of you, not only helped me quit, but changed my soul to the core. I feel like Eric, that I'm just a better person now. I take very good care of myself. I eat healthy, and exercise. This year I actually lost weight over the holiday's. I guess there's a first for everything.
At the same time I'm watching my SIL go through chemo, and radiation, 5 day's a week. She's getting very weak now, and I can see the despair in her eyes. The surgery is not too far off, but the dr's seem to think she'll be ok. We're praying for that. She has always taken care of herself, no tobacco, moderate alcohol. This was a wake up call for all of us. It gives me even more purpose, and appreciation for life.
No matter how bad it get's, being quit is alway's the best path. No looking back!
:)