I can't even take the time to scroll through this and call each of you out by name, but you guys are FUCKING LEGIT. Total strangers dedicating themselves to at least take a second out of their day to tell me that they give a shit about my health. What a cool thing! I KNOW that if I was trying to do this on my own, I couldn't make it. I may make it a week, maybe even 10 weeks (I've been there before, but really just cuz the can was unavailable to me), but I'd cave because nobody was there to help. People telling me that nic is gross and unhealthy, it's like, "yeah, ya fuckin' tool. I'm not that one dude in the US that doesn't fucking get it..." but it doesn't truly help. What is already helping me is this site. You people. You Arbiters of Quit. You glorious strangers who want to help. God bless you. This boils down to ceasing our own slow suicides - I can think of no more honorable reason to tell someone you've never met that you give a fuck.
So, sorry for the language. If you don't like it, just know that I'm coming from a good place. Fucking love and appreciation, man.
Don't get mad at me for dropping a little scripture here: Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 "Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." Just think about it, it applies to our addiction and many other parts of life. This scripture was part of what drew me back to KTC (which I'd heard of a few years back, never sacked up until now). I realized I cannot do it alone, but the help I need will come from you guys. The brothers and sisters out there who have more to say than, "just quit, it's gross."
Thank you, all. I get amped the fuck up when I get on here and read. Reading what you all have to say is way more powerful than any urge to destroy my body.