Reegs,
good first post, brother. thank you for your service to your community, first and foremost. working in that environment is going to put your quit at CONSTANT RISK. you will have to be the most vigilant motherfucker to keep the nic bitch from singing her siren's (see what i did there? fireman, siren?) song in your ear wooing you back to the tin. your buddies will try to get you to dip with them; they'll leave spitters just for you to find; they'll try to drag you down. it's a bad feeling to see someone else escape from hell, and they'll try to stop you.
so what to do? impossible, right? an addict surrounded by active addicts trying to break your will?
fuck that. you've got your answer right here on KTC. this will need to be your home away from home for the next 100 days minimum. there's a method to this madness that works... it takes stubborn motherfuckers that have been dipping for DECADES and helps them take their life back into their own hands. all you have to do is buy into the program. it may seem stupid, it may seem trivial, it may seem petty, and it will seem meanspirited at times. but the proof is in the pudding... thousands of people just like you that ARE quit.
the program:
1. FLUSH all remaining dip in your possession, even your double secret backup can of pussy flavored skoal. if you throw it in the trash, you'll be dumpster diving on day 2.
2. POST ROLL. every day. first thing in the morning. it is our promise to our quit group, the supporting site members, and OURSELVES that we will not use that day. it isn't a status report after the day is done. you post early and you do it every day.
3. KEEP YOUR WORD as a man of honor and integrity. you're a tough motherfucker. all firemen are. i bet you've heard countless mentions of honor and service during boot camp/fireman's school. time to put up or shut up. you make your promise every day and you keep it every day. just like breathing. inhale, exhale. post roll, honor your roll.
4. DO IT AGAIN tomorrow. we worry about one day at a time here. i've had 136 +1 days... i don't think about being quit at christmas or new years. that's too far in the future for me to rationalize. you quit today and then wake up and do it again.
5. BE ACTIVE on the site. read your ass off, starting with the welcome center (pink link, upper left). read everything in your quit group, other quit groups, HoF speeches, words of wisdom, etc. you can't be finished reading here. ever. post support in other quit groups. get to know folks... you'll need them watching your six before you know it.
6. EXCHANGE NUMBERS with quit brothers and sisters and with other folks that offer support. it helps when you can't get online and have to text in your roll call. it also helps when the c-store is calling your name... we're here for each other no matter what. it's a brotherhood and sisterhood. i know you get that shit.
7. BURN YOUR BOAT and never look back. this was key for me. after 16 years of dipping, i simply made the decision i didn't do that shit anymore. it was with the help of this site, but no matter what, i'm not going back to the can. it isn't an option. i could roll around in a bathtub full of grizzly and know that it wouldn't tempt me. i'm quit. it was decided 136 days ago, and it ain't going to change.
i'm here if you need me. looking forward to seeing you post roll. once you do, you'll see what kind of support this place offers. until you do, you're a tolerated guest.
